I don't want to talk
So you don't have to hear the pain in my voice
I don't wanna talk so you don't have to deal with how mentally tired I am
Of so much
And I'm Sorry

For once
I'm calm
The waves washing over me
And I'm not scared any longer
Sleep is something I no longer crave
And as my eyes grow heavy
I drift off
Dreaming of a wolf
Hiding in the shadows
Listening to the sounds
Of grass rustling in the wind
Cuddling up
Under the stars
Protected by the wind

Soft secrets we keep
About the people we see
Looking through someone else's eyes
Seeing how they are
Our love keeping us here
Our head fuzzy and ****** up
A light trickle of whispering winds
Not winds
But people
Telling me what to do
Guiding me through life
Because I can't handle it on my own
Sleeping my days away
As we suffocate in the snow
It's Cold out here
Unsafe
Unreal
Like maybe our world is just a tiny marble in a big jar of tiny stars
It keeps moving around and around
And spinning
Making us dizzy
Not sure of what to do
Our hearts hungry
For things we want to get through

It's hard
To just
Eat right or drink things
Or hydrate
Because I don't have a reason to stay
Do I?
I'm not saying I'll go
Because they need me
But do I need me
That's the question I wish
I could ask myself one day

Tell me a story
One of kings and queens
Or a story of lovers and fighters
Or maybe the story of how we met
Because my memories
Are fading

We run around in a field
of hope and sorrow
hoping one day to escape the imprisonment
of the ones who are supposed to love you
We are hunted and chased by those people
when they only want to put you down
so call me a danger to society i dont care anymore
its not like you did anyways
we all seem the same on the outside
but you wont ever realize
how bad youve hurt me
I used to want to be like you
but now i know
that all you are
is a manacle *****
with no respect for anyone
not even yourself

I have for a bit
and i cant tell you face to face
or on text
so here i am because i know you follow me
but you arent on enough to see this?
but if you do
im glad we were friends and hopefully still are
but you graduated
and you move soon
so im not sure when ill get to see you after you move
but for now im just here
waiting