Isnt a place for me
I dont have a place to truly call
home
not since she did
what she did
ill be 17 in a few months
and that thought
scares me
because it feels like
it was just a few months ago that i turned 16
its...
strange

Im not perfect
They all have to remind me
I need food
Then i feel bad
For eating so much
Then i forget again
But thats okay
Ill be alright
Ill just listen to the sounds
Of rain upon windows
As i wish
I could go...
Home?

I said we needed a break
you made me feel like i need you still
and im not sure what to do
you kept asking
are you sure you wanna do this
today you said somethings
that really ****** Ashton off
she was angry
told me i had to leave
but i couldnt
because you might not even know
what youre doing
but you are breaking me
no you dont love me more
because i said i needed a break
im not a toy you can bend and break

im sorry

im so sorry

i keep hurting people

im sorry

i still wanna be there

i dont wanna keep pushing people away

i wanna go back in time

fix all of my mistakes

or just

never exist

I left you a jar
Filled with love
I don’t know if you still have it
It’s been a year now
I still think about you from time to time
I remember I gave you a stuffed bear
For Valentine’s Day
It was cool
I think
There’s a lot of memories
Some from when I was little
I can’t remember much
Just little things
But love doesn’t last forever right?
Well maybe sometimes
But that’s not my point

I don’t wanna be left alone
As soon as they leave me alone
I get scared that they aren’t coming back
I know they will but I can’t help but think
That they’ll stop caring and leave
Too many people have done it before
People I truly did love
I gave them my heart
And they leave
I sit around most days
Wondering what happened
Because I distance myself
And so does everyone else
I don’t wanna be like that
I wanna mend my friendships
Put the notes back in the jar
And send it away

I’ll be here for the fallout

It doesn’t matter what it is

I’ll pick you up

Because I still care

Even if you don’t

I wanna help

I wanna be there

Through the best

And worst

Times of your life