If im being honest
Im not the prettiest
If im being honest
We have our insecurities
If im being honest
We cant pretend anymore
If im being honest
I dont want to eat
If im being honest
Things are different

Birthday wishes
And soft kisses
Small tantrums
Various lies
As I try to fight
He’s the favorite
It’s obvious
I don’t mind
Cause at least
I’m not as hateful
As she is

I know im not the prettiest
I wont ever be
Because i cant seem to take care of myself
I never really have
Im short
And chubby
my hairs a mess
and i think the only
thing i can do is makeup
And im not very good at that either
So why am i still trying?
to be someones pretty baby?

I wanna go back
You didnt deserve what happened
I dont want the drama
Even if it wasnt me
I just wanna erase it all

I cant sleep
Hes been telling me to
That i need to start taking care of myself
I cant do that
Theres no real point in doing so
Im not gonna live past 23
And i know it

You think im faking
So go ahead and think so
You can think im just a 21st century ***** go ahead
Im done playing by the rules
Im tired of looking for someone else
To fill my needs of "love"
Im sorry that I cant control them
Maybe it was for the best anyways
I cant pretend anymore
But in other news
I have a new aesthetic
And im not gonna stop being
The bad guy