There’s somethings I don’t understand
Why you still show up in my dreams
Why I still like you
Even though I want
To shut my emotions down
They won’t let me
I just wish I didn’t feel
How I feel
Towards you

I think I need to start over
On everything
Just stay quiet
And stop trying
Nobody talks to me much
That is fine
It doesn’t matter anymore
For now
I’m Nothing

It’s fascinating
I’ve figured it out
I like the way the flame looks
Sometimes I wanna touch it
Maybe I’m fire obsessed
But can you blame me?
It’s so pretty

A year ago I didn’t know
What I truly wanted in life
But today’s different
I think about it and I realized
I want a girlfriend
Who will stay by me
Hold me and tell me
That everything’s okay
Even if it’s falling apart
I want someone to be there
To pick me up when I’m down
Who wants the same things I might when I’m older
I wanna steal someone’s hoodies
Or jackets
Or necklaces
Or get matching rings
Or just a friend who will get a **** apartment with me and watch movies
Until Dawn
Staying up and watching the stars
But who knows
My plans may
Change

Maybe it’s something wrong with me?
That nobody really likes me?
That I’m completely alone?
Am I too clingy?
Too obsessive?
Maybe
I can’t fix that
Or maybe I can?
I’ve given up trying
She doesn’t talk to me
I have to stop chasing after her
That’s okay though
I can smile through the tears
And sooner or later I’ll be okay

It doesn’t seem to exist
I don’t know what it is
But I feel like
If I sleep
I won’t wake up in the same place
Like if I wake it won’t be at home
I won’t know anyone
And I won’t know what to do
I can’t seem to get it together
Maybe that’s my problem

On the nights I do sleep I see you
And most of the time I wish I could see you
It’s dark out
I’m not sure if I’ll be able to sleep
But that’s okay
We’re gonna be okay
That’s just how it is
Reality doesn’t seem real anymore
You don’t seem real
Even though I know you Are