I just want them to stop
I want them to go away
But they can’t
I’m stuck with them
And I don’t want it anymore
I want reality to go away
I want to forget
Everything
Everyone
I want to feel something again
Something besides fear
And sadness
That she brings me everyday
I want them to stop pretending
That they care for me
Because they are just
Voices

As I write this I’m not sure what to say
A darkness is spreading
It seemed like there was no other way
The dream tonight was terrifying
I couldn’t get away
As she whispered your name
I couldn’t look away
I wish I can do more
But it seems like I can’t
A fatal mistake is hoping
That it stays
Feeling helpless and wondering why
You can’t break free of the dreams
You had tonight
A soft echo is pulling me in
I can’t remember as clearly
The sins that we have are greater than
The words we speak as soft as them
She calls your name
Angry and sullen
Revenge is sweet
But love is golden

I can’t help but feel like something is
Missing
I knew there wasn’t going to be an us
Even though I wanted so bad for it to happen
I’ve accepted it
And I’m trying to move on
But we haven’t talked much her and I
And I feel like I’m bothering her when I text her
I feel like I’ve been annoying people
Anyways
Because nobody really seems to care
I know what I’m missing
And I can’t seem to keep you off of my
Mind
I don’t know how you are doing
Besides the poems you write
If you’re still up
You can always text me
I’ll be up for a while
I can’t seem to sleep anyways
I don’t even know if you’ll see this or not
Part of me hopes you do
Because I really am
Missing you

All I want to do is run in it
The smell is calming
And I can’t seem to stay calm
Yet I try to boost my confidence
While I stay in
Kicking out the monsters
As I listen to the sound of it
Inviting the calm
Fixing my mistakes
Pretending that things are okay
At least for now
I don’t belong here
And that’s evident
Still I can’t seem to get you out of my head
What you did
I hadn’t cried in months
Till I broke down again
Maybe things will be different next year
Maybe people will change
Maybe I’ll forgive you
And forget you
It’s inviting me to dance
And sing
As it drips down my window
All I am
Is calm

She’s sweet
She lives far away
But I really like her
We have a lot in common
She’s goofy
She’s mine
And I think I’m in love again

When I see one
I think of something different
Than what my grandmother sees
I see you
While she sees a loved one
Gone and passed
But we all have different meanings
For different things
Things we are attached to
But I really do
Miss you

I hate that I love you
Because for some reason
I can’t get you out of my head
Even if we haven’t spoken
I still see you in my dreams
I don’t hate you
Just my feelings