They always stay green
Through out winter
Into the summer months
Rarely dying
Roots planted into the ground
I wish I was evergreen
I wish I could be happy and green again
A simple melody
Calling out to me
I miss you
But you don’t miss me
At least I don’t think you do
I didn’t mean much
And I guess that’s okay
Because I meant a lot to them

And you still don’t care
I need to move on
And that’s what I plan on doing
I give up trying
I don’t need anyone
Not you
Not him
I just need me
It’s sad that I kept trying
Knowing you had a boyfriend
But then again
I am Selfish

Ive let go
Of the Pain
The feelings
Masking my hurt
By wearing a smile
Around you
Ive let go
Of the things we couldve had
I tried
But you dont like me
Im long gone
We cant
Keep pretending
Forever
As much as we wish to
It isnt possible
Maybe it is
But I dont want to pretend
To hide my tears
Shaking
I feel sick
I want to cry
To scream
Living on glass
Thats slowly starting to crack
Silently painting
The picture
I want
But it wont happen
Because maybe it was puppy love
Or I really do love you
But I need to
Let
Go
Of you
Of myself
Pretend
To
Be
Okay
Falling
Into
A rabbit hole
Once more
Every time
A butterfly
***** their wings
A Storm
Starts to brew
But
Ive let go
Right?
Keeping my feelings hidden
Knowing that Im just a
Crybaby
I just need
To let go
But I cant
I want to cry still
Sitting in choir
trying to concentrate
but
I
cant....

I can tell you I’m fine
When I’m not
A silent nod
Is what I use
To express my feelings
Because I don’t know what to do
Because I really like you
But I’m pretty sure you don’t like me
And that’s fine I just need to move on

The sweet smell in the summer
It seems that they all wither and die
Maybe it’s time to give up
On trying to be with you
Because you of course like someone else
And that’s fine
I’m just forgotten
Like always
The things I write are true
When I told you that I liked you
I meant it
But now I’m not sure if I’m supposed
To move on
Or stop trying
To go after someone
Who doesn’t like me
I may not want
To be here anymore
But I’m staying
Because people need me
Maybe I’m just falling
Into the rabbit hole
My roses are dying
Little flowers all over
Little petals covered in blood
But I don’t care anymore
Because it’s one sided
We could go to school
And you would still be after him
I’m not him
And I won’t ever be him
So I’m sorry
If I’m clinging to something
Clinging to you
Roses always grow back
It’s Strange to watch
Fascinating

Sometimes I wish feelings didn’t exist
Because the fact that it hurts me seeing you Around him
I know it’s stupid
And Selfish
But I’m stupid and selfish
Ive been wishing for things to happen
All summer
That hasn’t happened
Because I’m pretty sure you don’t like me
Like that
We are friends
But it hurts
Because I want more
While you have a boyfriend
I’m still waiting
Hoping that maybe
One day we can be together
But right now
I’m in pain
And I act like I don’t care
But I do
Because you mean so much to me
And I don’t want to lose you...

We all know that fuzzy sweet feeling
When they look your way
And talk to you
It sings a sweet song in your head
Until it gets crushed by the reality of things
When they have someone else
Or they do like you
But dont say so
Till its way too late
And you've moved on
Im being patient
Because I really
Like you