I don’t care that you might not like me
I don’t care that I’m feeling alone
I don’t care that I’m so hurt
I don’t care that I’m not enough
I don’t care he’s not gone
I don’t care that I have nobody to talk to
I don’t care that I’m scared
Of every little thing
I don’t care that I get yelled at
But saying I don’t care
Gets old
When you lie about not caring
So much
You begin to wonder
How you’re still able to care
I do Care about losing you
I do Care that we aren’t together
I miss conversations with you
I care about the smallest things
I care that he wasn’t put away
I care that I’m alone
And I always will

Topping cakes off with faint decorations
The smell of frosting
As we spread it along
We start to form little flowers
From the icing we had
Everyone got a piece
A sweet melody
The kids helping
And all singing

I’ve never hated feeling so left out
Everyone has someone to lean on
But yet I’m stuck
Alone
Crying in bed for the fourth time this week
Nobody to talk to
Because they don’t understand it
How bad it hurts
When I get ignored by the people
Who matter so much to me
My chest hurts from all the pain ive been feeling
The loneliness is
Crushing
That’s how it starts
“I barely talk to her”
I get it
But I need someone to talk to
And you aren’t there
Because You don’t understand
How bad it hurts
To lose someone

Say you dont know
What people say or do
Things start to burn
People fight
And make up
You seem to like him
Right?
Maybe im wrong
I want too many things
To be right
Im glad we are still friends
Im hanging onto the last shred of hope
Thats a string
Becoming thinner
Till it burns up
When I give up
But now
The flame
Is fading
Because I have more
Hope
Than Fire

I seem to be numb to the situation now
The nightmares have almost stopped
And Im not as scared anymore
I might be a bit better as a person
And I cant seem to blame you
Because you meant the world to me then
A shell of who you used to be
Maybe one day I can forgive you
But ive put it to rest
Pushed you into the back of my mind
And now I can rest
Peacefully sleep
Without thinking
You were going to hurt me
Again
And Again
And
Again

It seems I cant stay calm
It seems I may be scared to lose you
My heart telling me I want to be around you
But I cant because
I get so jealous
And I cant stop it
I dont understand
Why it hurts so bad
Maybe because you knew I liked you
But thats okay
Cause im not gonna leave
Ive got to stick around
Even if it hurts
Hide my selfish self
Stop being jealous
And realize
You belong to someone else
And ill be around when you need me
Because I care
Way too much
To stop liking you
For who you are
Its sad to think about
But nobody really cares
Even in a room full of people
You can still feel alone
But is that anything new?
People can say what they want
And I dont really care
Because
I like you
And i wont give up
But for now
Ill keep quiet
Because
Jealousy
Ruins relationships
Friendships
And it could ruin us
No matter how much it hurts
Ill be here
Waiting
Because I seem to be incapable
Of moving on
I have my goals set
And you have yours
Im just glad
You're happy
Because thats all I want for you to be
Is happy

Maybe I wasn’t the one
Maybe I can’t give her everything
I tried
But now I’m supposed to move on
But I don’t think I can
I don’t want to ruin things for her
Because I do love her
Even if she doesn’t me
Might keep off of here for a while
Think
Try not to get worse
Try to stop crying over
Someone who might not care
We are just friends
And it breaks me
So I’m sorry