Different pieces of me
Scattered around
The voices taking over
Keeping things from happening
Protecting me
Keeping me safe
Not only from them
But from myself

I feel odd
No Idea why
I just feel like a blank slate
I wasted my time
On him
On all of them
When I realized
That I dont like them
I messed up
So badly
In my past
But Ive gotten better
Because I have people who care
People who make me realize
Im not so blank

The older I get
I wonder if my life
Will be so much different
I just hope
I can prevent harming my future wife
Because I cant prevent
having some of her habits
But I can change them
by being much more kind
Because D.N.A. means
Nothing

Pastels and dark colors
I can truly only think
That I am one
And one only
I used to think I was a purple
or  a gray
but now I feel
brighter
more vibrant
and Its sweet
because I am a pink

I feel like Im being selfish
Because I want you to be with me
But I know until you know how you feel
It wont happen
And im okay with waiting
Because I know what I want
And I hope now you know how I feel
That its okay that I call you Butterfly
Youve been hurt
But you're still so beautiful
Which is why
I call you butterfly
And why Im selfish
Because I dont want to lose you
Like I did mostly everyone else

Right now Im so scared
Because I dont understand the feelings im having
I wasted my time trying with him
Because in the end he was just a narcissist
But that isnt what made him bad
He caused pain towards us
He made sure I would never forget his face
But lately
His image has been clouded with thoughts of you
Good thoughts
Sweet thoughts
But I feel Wasted
My butterfly