Maybe we can talk
Maybe video call
Or see each other
Or somehow keep in contact with each other
I miss you

Sometimes we fall
For the wrong people
But I think
That you aren't the wrong person
Because you make me smile
And I worry because I haven't talked to you
In forever

It *****
I cant see you
Or talk to you
Or be around you
And I miss you
Because you mean a lot to me
My Butterfly

Today
Was one of those days
Where I couldn't
Stop looking
Over my shoulders
Expecting to see you
Close to me
Waiting for me to do something
To push you away like before
Freeze when you started to
Do what you did
I've let the paranoia
Sink in
Its been controlling me
Like you had been
I wasn't perfect...
That terrible feeling I had gotten the night of the storm
How I cried myself to sleep beside my best friend
Because that was the first time
The first red flag
I couldn't getaway
I tried so hard
But couldn't
And so I gave up
That's when the voices started to reappear
I hadn't heard them in two years
After I had stopped talking to you
And then...
I had that feeling
Once again...
And I couldn't stop you
But I never gave up
I pushed you away
I didn't speak
except for once or twice
I know I said no at least once
Or maybe I didn't
Because they took over to try
She wanted to protect me
So she did
After I was choked
She was the one who said something
When you did what you did
I couldn't stop her from telling them
She was so angry
Because it wasn't just me
That you hurt
So now
The paranoia has set in
And I'm so scared
Because you know
Where I live
Where I go on the weekends...
Who I hang out with...
But even though you can't touch me...
It still makes me
Paranoid

You know that feeling
You get when something bads
gonna happen?
Im crying right now
And I have no reason to be crying
But I am..
I want to scream
Punch something...
To my future wife
Im sorry..
You have to deal
with such
a stupid
broken person
Who keeps putting herself down...

I'm Happy I have
Most of you
In my life
My best friend
And my close friend
If I can call you that
If you can call me that
I want to be more
Maybe one day I can be
But I'm happy
That you guys are sticking around

You're innocent
Until proven
Guilty
Innocence
I'm not sure that I have that
Broken
I can try to pick the glass up
But ill only get
Cut
Love
One-sided till they leave
You can see the evil
But you can't understand why it happened
Why he hurt you
Why he didn't tell you
Why he said
He loved you
Just to leave you shattered
I wish you had gone to jail
Because then I wouldn't have to see you
Or hear her
Or watch you try to stare me down
They made me forget once
They can do it again
All I want
Is to forget
The good
The bad
The hateful
Things you put me through
I left because
I was scared
I knew that day
You would show up
You'd done it once before
and I kept my mouth shut
I wish I hadn't
I wish i had gotten anyone
But I didn't
I thought
I could trust you
And a few months later
What do you do?
You take it farther than before
It's not just pulling me close to you
It's kissing me and trying to force me to kiss you back
It's your cold lips on my neck
Making me want to scream
And cry
And all I can do
Is sit there
Trying to push you away
And I couldn't stop you
Till you said
That you never stopped loving me
And then I snapped out of it
I told you that
I couldn't
I was happy
Until that day
And I won't forget
Your name
Your face
Until they prove you guilty