He is the breath I take that fills my lungs and wakes my senses. He is like the first cup of coffee in the morning. Every thing a about him delights me. His grump and bitterness and the sweetness underneath. He hides himself from most people but he lets me in and his confidence in me makes me love him even more. I want to know him In essence and in details. I know his humor and what will make him smile and happy. I know his likes and dislikes... Even his pissy moods make me happy. His entire person makes every moment better.

If there was ever a time where I needed you
Now would be that time
Let me drown in you instead of my sorrows
Because I am barely breathing
And the waters are rising
Every day it is more difficult for me to swim

I think that coffee is a drug
And it poisons my mind
And burns in my veins
I go completely mad
The cigarettes take hold in my lungs
And the heat of the coffee soothes
My throat feels less on fire
The ashes settle in my lungs
Tiny flecks of dust building up
And weighing down
When I breathe in I look at the moon
And the molecules swirl and dance inside my lungs
I come undone
I am a symphony in the darkness
In which no light but that of the lunar goddess will shine

Coffee and cigarettes and the night sky filled with storm clouds and the brutal blinding flash of lightning striking the earth fill me with a madness that pushes me to write and creates a burning desire to touch and taste and feel more to prove that I am alive

There's this girl
Beautiful
One glance at her
And you can't look away

When she laughs
You see the tears
Hiding behind
Her lovely brown eyes

She is so smart
Her mind as devastating
As the glory
Of her countenance

She cares so much
Her thoughts
Are always
For other people

She is so kind
But there is a sadness
A mystery
Lurking at the edges of her smile

She stays so quiet
And you will never know
What she is thinking
But know she is an angel

Everything about her
Is a gift
She is perfect
Without ever knowing

This is agony
I want to talk to you
But I can't
I want to tell you
The things that I found out
Would they change anything...

I don't know
And the not knowing is killing me
I can't decide what to do
God but I want to say
So many things
But that's the problem

When it comes to you
I say too much
I can't shut up
And it makes you leave

It's midnight
Again
I'm not asleep
Or even trying

You've been running
Through my mind all day
What if there's a chance
That I could find a way