I look at her
And i cant help but smile
Everywhere she goes
She shines
A ball of energy  
Bringing joy to everyone around her
She’s beautiful
God
She’s stunning
And every little thing she does
Makes me glad to call her
My
Sunshine

She smiles
And i melt
The way she tucks her hair
Behind her ear
When she’s nervous
Or the way her eyes soften
When we talk
God this girl
She gets flustered easily
And i cant help but smile
The way this girl gets to me
Makes my heart ache
For her

You don’t want to be like him
You can’t
But god you crave
The feeling of the bottle pressed to your lips
The bitter taste as it runs down your throat
You remember his rage filled eyes
As he threw things at the wall next to you
His screaming only getting louder
As you sat and watched in fear
You try and run
But he blocks the doorway
Stumbling towards you
You close your eyes tight
Not knowing what else to do
Everything goes silent
You open your eyes
To find yourself
Sitting on the floor
With an empty bottle in your hand

I looked in the mirror and I didn’t see me.
I saw a girl in oversized clothes
And bags under her eyes
With pills in one hand
And a beer in the other
What happened to her?
What happened the the girl who used to read
To the girl who would go out and party with her friends
The girl who only got high off of happiness
Where did she go
I miss her
I miss me
The girl who enjoyed her life instead of wishing her end would come sooner
I miss the girl
I used to see in the mirror

The sky is on fire
Yet I only see you
I can’t stop staring
Your beauty draws me in
I want to get closer,
But one touch
And you’ll simply fade away

Her eyes
Were like honey
Shining bright
While running through my mind
Her lips
Tasted
Like honey
My mouth lingering a bit longer
Her touch
God her touch
Was like honey
Smooth and gentle
Everywhere she went
Brought simple pleasure
And sweetness
Into my life

Im afraid.
One day you’ll leave
I know it.
Yet I fall deeper in love with you by the day
You say you’ll stay
But I know you won’t
Its the same with everyone
They come
We have our fun
They leave
Its a never ending cycle of pain
Normally I’d brush it off
But with you?
I know it’ll destroy me
God I’m so afraid
Of what will happen to me
If I lose you
I’ll lose me.
And that cant happen again