I don't see you anymore.
My worst fears came true.
Your night shifts, my days,
I don't know what to do.

You are my everything,
That's why I'm so afraid.
You'll find someone better,
I'll wonder why I stayed.

I pretended to sleep,
Not wanting to leave.

You fell for my ploy,
I thought you'd retreat.

You had things to do,
We were no longer talking.

But you stayed on the line
Only occasionally laughing.

Why would you stay?
I'm trying to understand.

Did you listen as I sighed,
Was this your plan?

Maybe you were waiting,
Wanting me to speak.

Maybe it was comfort,
Listening to me "sleep".

When you finally hit end,
I was left with this doubt.

I'm over-thinking this,
You just forgot to sign out.

You and I
We aren't the same.

We've shared our laughter,
We've shared our pain.

But something has shifted,
We both have drifted.

You and I
We used to click.

We've become so distant,
We've become so sick.

Something's wrong,
Maybe it was all along.

He loved her like the wind,
She was his gravity
To her earth he was pinned.

He loved her like the sea,
She was everything
More than he could ever be.

He loved her like the moon,
She was fading
He would lose her too soon.

He loved her like a rose,
Her petals wilting
Cold on the end of her nose.

He loved her so much,
She grew numb
Couldn't feel his gentle touch.

He loved her more than she would see,
She was his life, his heart, his only,
She was his Mindy.

The hole is getting deeper
And I'm falling in.

The depression,
The hopelessness,

Are wolves circling,
Waiting to begin.

The sand is getting higher,
And I'm choking on it.

The silence,
The darkness,

Pulling me deeper
Into this suffocating pit.

My fingers are bleeding
From how I tried to crawl.

I yearn,
I reach desperately,

Escape eludes me still,
I fear I will drown after all.

The dark unveils in this new place,
A different scene; always the same face.
Creeping from underneath the door
It drags itself across my floor.
Seething, teething, mewling mass,
It raises up and cracks the glass.
The sun reaches out relieving grace
Out onto its cold, familiar face.

I remember your face like it was yesterday,
But the days keep pushing you further away.
Your laughter a silent echo in my mind
Of the life I so reluctantly left behind.
Your smile haunts me like a ghost at night,
Flickering for a moment in memory just in spite.
If reaching out over the miles were possible, I would,
I'd come back and stay, if only I could.