It breeds more pain
One way or another
Can we escape it?
We can
But are we capable?
It is a disease we cannot escape
Pain breeds hate
Hate breeds more pain

Now, as a young man
I still haven't learned what it feels to be loved
My father never encouraged me
He always put me down and belittled me
My mother used me to get away from him
Kindness was scarce
Toxicity was plentiful
Those around me hurt me
I let them because that's all I've ever known
I walk in fear of failure
I have no one to fall back on
If I fail, there is no one to help
I've burnt myself out
Now I fail more often than not
I'm falling back into bad habits
Picking up more along the way
I don't know what to do
I just keep moving

I never had a father
I just knew a man who abused my mother as much as he abused the bottle

What you can't see
Still weighs heavy on my soul
I wake every morning with this weight

Still I get up
I fight this endless battle
My stubbornness won't let up
I am miserable yet I continue forth

I have no goals
My path leads me nowhere
I refuse to give up

I will find my way