You don't always hurt me
When you do, sometimes you don't realize it
Sometimes you just decide to do things that'll hurt me
That's what your mind tells you, you have to do this
If you don't do this, it'll be on the forefront of your mind
I am just the one to take the damage.
It's fine though
That's what I am
I am the punching bag
I endure and endure
I take the punches
I take the hits
I just hang there peacefully
Until you decide to come back and use me
Use me like the punching bag I am

With those words you shattered me
That split second
Your frustration showed
It shut me down
You discouraged me
From speaking
Now I shall refrain from doing again
Until you become frustrated that I don't speak
To you again

This is the first lonely day of many to come
I'll miss your presence in my every day life
I don't want to die so young
I'll lock myself away so I don't hurt
I'll embrace the emptiness
I'll embrace the night
I'll embrace myself
I'll lose some humanity
In exchange for sanity
Forget what it means
I'll miss you old friend
I wish you the best
When you remember me
Think of all the good and move forth
I hope you don't miss me
Don't let all you've worked for go to waste
Even if I'm not there
I still want you to succeed
To grow and mature, to be happier
Farewell

You are still sitting here, besides me
You won't leave my company
A new contender has entered the ring though
It is a tag team wrestling match now
My loneliness and depression
The opponent, me and this newly growing numbness
Who will win this battle?
Only time will tell

Enough is enough, right?
I want to improve my physical and mental state
I'm doing this for a healthier life
Yet I feel so lonely now
Maybe it is unfortunate timing
But I feel so alone
It's been two days now,
I have been alone for two days now
This journey was surely never going to be easy
An unexpected enemy may be my downfall however
Things don't always pan out the way you want them to
I wish I was comfortable with myself
My body aches at the thought of being lonely forever
Yet, all I want to do is jump into the loneliness forever
If I am the one to isolate myself, it becomes easier to be alone
My mental health worsens, but this feeling in my body lessens

I thought being busy meant that I would forget how lonely I am
I can't seem to erase the sleepless nights
Filled with loneliness
The ache in my chest becomes stronger
As I realize I can't escape you
Maybe some day I'll learn to love you
Right now, you just hurt

You always wanted someone there
You pushed me away
I was always there
When you needed me
I was there even when you didn't
I was never enough for you though
You always had others on your mind
My mind was all yours
I did my best to keep together
I couldn't
Now I'm just pretty heart broken