Its exactly 1095 days ago..
When the love I knew flee from my path
The sweet rhythm turned sour
As my heart bolt out through the door
Leaving no trail to follow

A miserable me turn apart
Laying helpless with no heart
The warmth of the weather
Felt freezingly cold
And the comfort of the night
No longer suits

I could remember my dreams turning into a wild mare
And even the cool siesta
Was all itchy
My smooching pillow grew thorns

In my miserable self
In all broken mirror
Picking up my pieces in no piece
Trying to plaster the remnant of me
Just 1095 days ago

It all seems like the world will end in no good time
But in my remembrance of this days
I'd found myself lost within
The tick of it tide

And now,
The love that is sure been replaced
Is back
Knocking at the same door it bolted out
Through
Just 1095 days ago

Rickety rocket dock
Lives earn hits the rock
Down wash the drain
My pop stocks
oh been broke really ****.

Fainting... fading...
Time re tiding
Lonely, gloomy
Sink **** my heart

Adieu,
My UN sailing heart
Heard tock of your beat
but d tick sigh solely
Adieu... .

Smashed heart
Clipped wings
Noble mind turning sour
No door I see
My sight is gone
Adieu...
Moremi has fallen
Adieu...

Killing my tulips,
Tearing down like
A leaf shed off on a winter moon..
A song sang but in Ode
No epics released deep down my soul


Play me a song, with a guitar with no string
Type me a book, binds with sandusts
Could it hold? An rhetoric words I could form...

No sunny day I smile, all frozen faces
Could bow...
Hits me hard with my fate
I'm a lover cos ve felt hate...

A hard time to get my weakness,
getting them, gives me strength ...

A cup of coffee blended with no sugar
Yet with milk, creamy indeed.

A piece of art and oral histories
Matched together to create a radiant attire.
A match of skins from animals bones
Made into robes and aprons
To dazzle our uniqueness.
Simplicity is said to be
"The keynote of all true elegance".
Elegance is indeed the word
That describes our fashion.
The beauty of ours cannot be over emphasized
For even with no trace of histories
Our styles describes who we are.
African fashion,
Inspired by "youth"
Not by age
But at heart
For the youthfulness of the heart
Is in no match with the frivolity of mankind.

Let me digress us off a bit
From styles to our world
For afri fashion is not something
That exist in dresses only,
It is in the sky,
It appears In the street,
Africa fashion speaks to us through individuals ideas
The way we live and what is happening..

Africa fashion..
An impeccable,outstanding and flawless art
I call it "art" because it endorse creativity
For an author once said"dress shabbily and the world remember the dress,dress impeccably and the world remembers you".

Africa fashion"our styles,our mood.

A tale my heart can feel as I say
Its sweet savor heals me completely
The excitement that flowed through my vein
As I hurriedly filled in the highway bus
That Moved  swiftly with the  buzzling of the busy street
My heart flows in relief
Knowing that,
The star that makes it merrier
Is getting nearer


The day flows in
Like every other day"
People would say
But to me,
It taste a bit more different
The sun sets earlier
A sign of a brighter day
I predicted
Felt the laughter of
The tree
The whispers of the grass
The bird chirps were inaudible
All gave out their  autograph


As the young day grew older
The merrier my heart went further
The flows that beats my heart
Grew louder at the sight of him

A warm embrace,
A deep stare that lits him up
And the mouthing of his whispers
"You're beautiful*
Melt my cheek with a pink blush
Couldn't control the smile
That flows freely
Unable to end..

The fun we had
Can't be compared
To the merries that follows
The laughters,
The games that brought much giggling
Those moments
That buried my worries
And the love making
That felt all new...

All but all
Gave me
A happy Valentine

The world is full of woes
Its path filled with thorns
I know of how much
You try
To put all thing together at times
Every time you face the odds
Please be conscious of this
In me you ve a mate
Who prays and cares for u
Always and forever

" am I dreaming?"
Or is this really my heart beating?
Does it really feel real?
Can this truly be it?

Does the world really stand still
When I feel his lips on mine?
Does my heart really gives this melody
I wanna dance to all day?

Do our heart truly beat as one?
Are we truly becoming telepathically in love?
Is this love a dream?
Am I really In this realm?
Does my world truly seem this perfect
Or is this just one of those "merry go rounding love"
That leaves me feeling hatchet?

Did he just add rhymes to this beat?
Or did I just get my first whip?
Is this my happily ever after?
Cos it feels like a Cinderella ending...

Have I just met the man of my dreams?
Or did I just dream it?

Are those moments shared real?
Can nature replay em back one time and one?

Did I just hear myself giggle?
Did I just hear myself laugh real?
Did I just feel this loved?
Has he really brought out the child in me?

Is this really my heart calling out for his?
Or is this just another  adopted chemistries
Waiting to perish
In the trial of times?

Is this love real?
Or did I just dream it?

Today I met a gun

Today I met a gun,
That left my head in spin,
Beautiful,dangerous,her description yet done,
Loaded in such egghead,her write that left me stun,
Scribbled rapports,was more than what ensued,
Potentials I've seen but in few,
Hoping to learn more, she's more than just a girl,
Today I met a gun.

Although up I knew was loaded,
Trigger ready for pull,
Little poke in her grey matter,
Watch your amazement helter skelter,
Wait till you meet her,then you'll meet another brand,
Beware of the ******* layed,
Or is she a trap?
Today I met a gun.

Bloomy as it seems the road to perdition
Hastening, excitingly
we match on in a Merry
Thought we toll in a roll to heaven
Little do we know that we sojourn down to
Hell.
     At sights we see tormenting pleasures
A glance or twice
couldn't quench our urges
Its succulent touch mount in deep to our soul
Little do we know
That we re riding down to hell
   The merry that flows through our vein in oneness
The lap dance that stir up intriguing moments
Driving our thoughts towards the gate of Hails
Little do we know that we head to an Halt

As time passes by,distance wails
Awaken me
And alas, it dawn on me
that those that we ride
Are but no more

The pleasure got cut with aching teeth gnashing in distress
The intrigue moments fades at I stare
At the gate of shadow
Locked with doom, agony and despair.

Walking down the street of emptiness
my soul fries hot
Leaving my rusty body in blisters
As I wallow
In a confused state

No *** can wash my thirst
Not a match would I declare
Just in a frenzy but twinkle
It disappears
the glamour that binds my heart.


A deep sigh I perceive
While I hold and bolt my shoes
Though, its lace knotted so hard

An heavy knock on my chest
Placing a die hard burden on me
bet,this is really confusing
Even as I wrote
Can't help wag my head like a dogs curvy tail

I became assured that no superstition
Can hold me down
Or suppress my repressed thoughts
That burst so suddenly
leaving me shattered in my fears

{X2 -x}y{n-n2},t(10) 3.63,P<.05
Bodmas,standard deviation,variance,single mean,wilconxon,mann whitney t-test, standard error of mean,
ED/NED2-(ED)2/N-1,t= ~x-u/(sx)
L.c.m,H.c.m...
If y is 12 and z is 7 find x...

I wonder when I'll get to use  this calculations in real life practicals...

Take me in...
Brooklyn.. Take me in...
Though the front door is shut
Smuggle me through d basement window..
The lilies singing rhymes with the breeze..
While midnight queens playing chess...
Defending their kings... From a harm near our reach

Brooklyn,the city horns all day
Hails the night
Darkness seems a history...
A mystery I can't tell...
Surely,the fountain speaks...
Take me in.... Brooklyn... I'm all yours...

There is a time,
When we must firmly chose the course which we will follow.. Else a relentless drift of event will make the decision.
Choices could be easily made
But a wise man should give a lot of thought to a sudden decision.

The choices you make
Either makes you
Or mar you.
Your choice can either mantle you or dis mantle you..
I ask myself,"where do I fall?"

It all seems like yesterday
When I sat at the table of choices
Fiddling with which path will make a difference
I could ve been made..
.. But a greed flash of pleasure strikes me ..
I could ve been made,but I'm marred

I later realised,although a little too late,
That choice,not change determines human destiny
And that decisions and perservance re the noblest quality of man....
The truth indeed is that
No one learns how to make the right choice without been free of making the wrong ones...
I make mine... You make yours
But remember,choices MUST be made wisely.

Worrying is like a rocking chair
It gives you something to do
But doesn't lead you
Anywhere...


Born with no sliver spoon
Lives heading itchy in a ghetto cafe
Taunted by wars at every corner
Wars, masses fought daily
To survive...
"You don't know a thing about me"
Some would say..
"You  don't ve the right to judge"
Others would be blunt..

Sometimes, I feel I dunno myself
the way I thought I do..
Sometimes, I ve these uncomfortable feelings
That I was born earlier than it should ve been
And I don't belong in this world..

Sometimes, I take a deep look at myself in the mirror,
and something in me
Feels I can do more if I let myself to
I feel my fingerprints needs to be felt in these world..

At times, I take a deep breathe,
Facing my potentials,
Wondering if I won't disappoint those who place me so high...
Ve got a life
That, I must live
So, I'll just make myself believe in ME
cos that's all I need to do
Believing in my dreams, vision, potentials
And chasing em ..
Right?

Listening to
   The lyrics of my heart
The solo starting with
A trending rhythm

A rhyme,
Only your name created
Reaching out for me
In my darkest blue

Turning me around
With the tenderness of
Your arms
My heart swells
High in aspiration
The lyrics that flows from yours
Awaken the dead mine
Cloning my scars
A sore that once hurt
Like a feet on broken glasses


Your love
Is my friendship
That we set to music
Your love
Is like a milk
Poured on my waffle

To you
I will my heart
To another
I wouldn't dare
Cos your love
Seek only the best of me
Pulling out the rarity of my soul

Nothing will matter more
In this world
And even in the next
In the third "next"
If it were

Because,only the melody my heart sings
Is the echoes of ur name lyrics.

I thought this would get better with time
I thought times will refresh the page of odds
I thought moments will swing pass
But its hurts my pride
To confess this
That I miss you
Like everyday...
And that I need you ..
Always to breath...
Seems life is drown out of me...
Without us been around each other
And the sun had refuses to smile
Since distance made these bridge
I miss you
Like the air I breath
when my nostril seem stuck
With fluffy muds ...
Picking my pieces been so hard
I just ve to keep moving...
But I miss you ... like everyday....  

I know I'm going to survive these...
And this cup shall pass me by..
But in the mean time
I'll like to admit...
Cos denying brings more pain
than admitting does
That I miss you .

"Hmmm..."
A snipe of thought that sigh my heart
Breaking the cartilage in pieces
Letting the blood drip in torns
Striping me of my smile
Yet I force out one
That stray off in miles

The loose of her suckling child
Throw a hard blow
Right beneath the belt of labor
The look on her face
The ravishing hope
Her smile that lit up hers
All went out dark

Taste of pain saddles
At the right wreath of her teeth
She mourn in silence
Yet,in distress

When she lay to rest
Ewatomi agonizing scream
Tears her bleeding heart
Her dreams took a mare shape
Either night or day
She would yell out of sleep
Searching all corners and nooks
For the dead bear

Her sanity seems flashing out of her
The pain of labor stung too often
Once she murmurs to herself
Twice she gives out a loud sigh
"Ewatomi".. An inscription
That often ends each sigh

And as for me
Who watched her glow away in pain
And fed from her hurt
My heart filled with mournings
I could only repress mine
To help heal ours

For what indeed could be compared
To the agony of labor
And the wrecking pain attached
To not been able to withhold the bear you gave life
Cos the sailing of death's ship
Had visit with a loud bang...

The cloud thicken with distorted hope
Our flesh rapidly ****** out
In *******
In sicken rag with stinking scents
The odour of poverty
Repels Her souls

At the corner of Her broken world
Sat still with melted chains
Her tears
Driving a hole on her tattered skin
As Her backbone seems crippled
By hoarders

She yells in a low whisper
Claiming for empathy
Her voice also seems broken
And so, none luck up to her corner

While she sat in Her emptied shell
Stretching forth for a fight of faith
She watches her future lights outraged in darkness
As Her only Hopes re traded like betrothed Goats

With aching pain
Her silk in ***** lace
She strive hard for a starling bridge
Give Him a book "
Build up Her pride"
She moans with a strain of wreaking hope

Raise your head high"
A whisper then said
"Its called the good fight",because Faith is a fight..

Asylum hole.. In mental state
Devour by dark entities
The ancient age emphasize
A beast of two inside one body
Showing a displayed of a punished soul
The astral bodies lay awake at its
pace
The sun at d noon day
While d night becomes encapsulated with d moon and stars... The world planets flourishes
In its glory...
Allay the fear of the tormented soul
For in guilt they lay with uttermost shame
With intense display of lunacy
A cry uttered loud
Freedom! Freedom!! Freedom!!!

My tears falls like raindrops
My hand shivers
Freeze cold and numb
All seems falling apart
As I wail uncontrollably

It all seems like yesterday
Bitter memories streaming
through my tormented heart
Cutting deep into my flesh
Heart smashed against brick wall

Dazed,
My gaze blinks
Empty..
A walnut shell
Encumber much more
My tears holds, but not still

My soulmate,
lost in d field
Of no return
d thoughts
Stings worse
Than d venom
Of an hungry bee

So near but yet
A million mile
Out of reach
I disrupted a journey
DAT was yet to start

My immaturity,
Made me lose my breath
Freely to d wind......

The glutton
With a vipers tail
Running round
In search of fame
Lol,
In shame the glutton drop
With its rickety belly
D sound goes ****

No glutton last a day even less
With the garment of deceit has worn all out
All the wolf in the sheep's garment
Comes floating
Alas!!
The glutton stung itself
In pain with pressure
It hung itself
Cos the world turn sour
Before the cloud goes in
Recoiling its tongue
With a sideway chain

Lying with her, placing my head between her breast, was like a crest being placed on my chest, if dere's anytin I can chest, i'll chest she's d best, she's d best and I can rest, I can rest cos i've found a place to nest, she has eggs in her nests, all i've to do is to warm d eggs in her nest, she's my queen and I must not rest, i'll keep her abreast of all the test, in order not to test her aggressiveness, she seeks my progress I must confess, I must confess cos i'm depressed, i'm depressed and I want redress, I want redress cos I want to be blessed, need to be blessed cos I want to progress, i've to progress cos my loved is pressed.

Only my heart could tell
What my face could not express
Though,I smile as if at ease
But only my heart could tell
That truly I miss you so often

Often
As my heart beats,
It plays a blues encodes
With passion
Its rhymes you could hear
And slowly dance together with my heart
Although,
The lip expresses a happy face
But deep down my heart
I'm hanging..
Its like suicide....
Yet,I'm not dead...
This distance is becoming unbearable,
To see you becomes my dream
As long as my eyes re shut
And my fantasizes
Even when they re widely apart
I tell you again,
Only my heart can express this feeling,
The feelings the face can not tell

The light of my Hope seems burning out
My faith diminishing...
But with Love I believe
Its liquids will regenerate it
That long lost hope...
Will burn again
Ravishing us and tighting our bonds
And together I believe we will walk through this
Because,
All will share is true Love
And true love,I believe
Live happily ever after.....

"Help !! " help me!!
The voice of my soul scream out loud
Everything seem so broken
Worst feeling is
Not been able to fix it.
. The more you give it your shot
It seems u haven't  done enough...

Feels like I'm gonna drown
Trapped in BTW two close windows
A shadow of myself I have seen
Reflecting on a broken pieces of mirror...
How best could I explain this?
Words can't be enough
Even if I mumble them up...
"help me! "I cried.
Not heard but felt...
Still
No help came close by ...

Vampires hovers round my shadow
Seeking for blood... as if it were
A bottle of *****
More like a cognac...

Painting my walls with my blood,
But,
guess I already did...

History would keep popping up...
In a merry
We all go round
When d face of horrors
Keeps haunting us
Bet our last shot
Is to hold still...
Cos at the end of every dark tunnel
comes light...
Hope
.

I used to think
That Gods gifts were
On shelves
One above the other
and the taller we grew
The more easily
We could reach them
But I later realised,
That Gods gifts re on shelves
one beneath the other
And that
Its not a question
of growing taller
But of stooping lower

It thus describes
HUMILITY...

206 times and still counting
The number of time I'd rolled in and ooutta bed
Shifting positions @ intervals
None seem good enough
Glad I could figure out
Why my tommy rumps
Why my heart skips
And my liver shrinks

If only I could answer all the "ifs"
The (If) my heart keeps pondering on
A thousand and one of em
Looking up for some answers that seems pending...
I love my life,yes!
But I love it with you
Truth be told
He give me strength to go on
He's my motivation
No future seems fulfilling
With him out of it

... Maybe I feel ds way
Cos I've not gone far
But don't we find love where we re
And now I know
That even with thousands of miles
Ways apart
True love ain't easily broken
It all requires patience
And off course,
Two people who really wanna be together
Right?

A shift in thoughts  in a count of two
A world I've dreamt for ever long
That someday soon
I'll wear my classy gown
With our hand entwined
As we walk down the aisle
In your cream tux suit

At the exchange of vows
As we seal our love
With the priest blessings
From the holy stand
As our lips would glue
And wishers will gaze at us,wishing they were us.
As we rock the dancefloor
With our blissful cheer
And friends and friends
Comes rock with us
That at the end
I'll throw my bouquet
To maidens yet to be laid

A tap of finger
Gave me a twitch
I realized my arms were akimbo
Attached to my jaw

And all that had happened
Were my imaginations..

It all seem like yesterday
When we all gathered round your bed
Kneeling for blessings,benedictions
And warnings to live as one

It all seems like yesterday
When you will rock me with folktales
Stories of how you won my mum
And the blessings attached to you as one

It seems like yesterday
When your advise cuddles me in my blues
Re inspiring my soul
With it streams words of gold

It all seems like yesterday
That the devil took your breathe away
Leaving us with a hole
Scars like tattoos
As we mourn in silence
And here,
we standing all in a dark shade of glass
Black gowns,black suits,black tie,in the rain
Spreading our ashes over you bossom rest
Blaming the devil for the theft of a good life

Though your pictures glaze our hearts
Furnishing it with your radiant smiles
The memory of you
We continue to cherish
As we hold today a remembrance of you.

In your presence,
I get drank with ****** realities
those sensual lips of yours
Transmute me to the giant gate of ecstasy
Your adept fingers
extracts amorous symphonies
From the deep well of my within...
And your touch mon amour
Invites butterflies into me, down to my **** ...

Out of the blue
Comes a tiny ray of light
Shining across my heart
Like a diamond ray
It seems

Out of the blue
Comes the key
To my crippled heart
To unlock the gates
That seems wielded with chains

Out of the blue
Comes my humble knight
Shining in his silver suit of armor

Our five fingers slipped
Into one another
And together we walk
Side by side
Like my stead helpmate

I believe that
Lies begins with
" I'm always good"...
No one is truly good
We all possess a fair of good and evil

I believe that
Trust is a lie
No body ever knows any one
I believe
there's no small lie, big lie, white lie or black as human rationalize it..
The fact remains that you lied... either
For a good reason or otherwise

I believe
You don't ve to hold a gun to ****
Or stab in a knife to ******
a blunt Lie
Can as well ******
Faster than a bullet from a ******...

I believe in what I believe in...
what about you...

The Hustle, the bustle
In a jungle
Called LIFE

The  companies we had
The memories we cherish
The solemn tears we shed
The few moments we enjoyed
The falling apart
With an impending life major crisis
Called DEATH

The Love we shared

The happiness we feel when the sun rises on our heart
Or,
The jilt that follows
The trust we misplaced
That cuts our heart
Or stomp on it

The moments of clarity
The hours of uncertainty
The doubt we have
About ever been the real deal

The trying to fit in
The mistakes made we can't undo
The time lost we would do a lot to have again
The hope of turning back the hands of time

The disappointment we feel
The strengths we discover after a mile thrill
The best part of living with scars
The diaries we stuck our past into
And the plans to write a new future
At the end
We only realizes one thing

That there is nothing to be afraid of
Cos its just..... LIFE...

At the corridor of planet
Murmurs raise my gaze
The thorn of life
******* masses
Could this be fate?
Or life is just unfair

In a quest to ascertain my thesis
A log of thousand thought struck me
Soliloquing yet to myself
The visit of death
Even to the tender hearted

I found myself wrapped
In dilemma
Life criticizing death
Of been hallow,
Death took turn in pointing the *******
"That's for ******* lives over"

The agonizing dialogue ensued
Right in the depth of my clouded thoughts,
It then dawn on me
That indeed,fate prevails,
And
Even if we feel the harsh tone of life,
Or we enjoy the vast of its bliss
What remains of us afterwards?
For I later realise
That,
As the day close by rapidly
Our intense aim of frivolous acquisitions
Allow us exempt
the fact
That the end of each day
Brings us closer
To our journey beyond...

Though hard to believe
And difficult to believe
That a person of my caliber
Will treat you more faithfully
In loyal strength,

Now I pledge even more
That rainbow remains a sign
Of pledge
A pledge a sound of promise
And I
The promise I made to keep
When its stormy and when d breeze sigh
To share in your grieve and happiness
to be honest giving u all my love
Always and forever
My sweet monsieur

Times are
When losting in your arms
Is all I crave
Times are
When d sparks in ur eye
Reflects my complexion
Time are
When d taste from your cupid lips
Cures my urges
Times are
When your touch rides me to Ecstasy
Times are like this
When d chat of about our future
Stimulates my anxiety
Times are
When all you could hold on to
Re fainted memories
Cos d hard nut of distance
Came crumbling
On our sweet nurtured memories
Times re
When all I do is hope
For d hands of time to turn
And d moments I cheered have
Comes back to me....

Its my usual quote,that its us against the world
Though,our world re different in uniqueness
Yet,it matches together as one
I really need your arms to fight alongside with mine
Cause mine,tho designed to bear the weight of the world
And gentle enough to give comfort
I still need your arms to catch me when I fall
And your love to fill my empty shell

Still need your shoulder to cry on
When the weigh is dragging  me down
And your stares to raise my soul as it sees through me
I still need your touch to forget that
The world is frowning at our love
And I need your love to silence side talks
And the murmurs of doom the world is foreseeing
I need you to make us count

The clock tick tock
Dews silent drops
My breath almost gone
Yet,
My heart race on

Slowly as I breath
My lachrymal jar
Seems falling a loose
D world's weigh
Felt in my belly...

It came in a flash
Its stung
Like a bees tail..
The revelation  of my mirror fallen

Alas!
I strung up
To the inside world
And so,
It dawn outrightly
that a nightmare it is...
My mirror stands
Indeed, it stands...

None was an accident
Neither re any a fortuitous being.
Thy Father,
The potter,
He planned and made it all
For his purpose
All for a purpose
Nothing in your life is arbitrary
but on d contrary
Selfish act against him
Will bring nothing
Absolutely nothing
But a disastrous end
For you re shaped
And made
For a purpose
And you re saved
Only to serve Him
You're on an assignment
An important mission
That must not be neglected
It is for His mission
A great ambition

Therefore, never settle for your own impulsive desire
Nor for irrelevance,
But strive and work
Towards eternal fulfillments
Settle for d BETTER LIFE
and not d GOOD LIFE

Though to you, I failed you
And am a dishonor
To the sacred institution of love
Yet, I argue not

Though to u
My heart lingers not
For you
Yet,
I strive to wake up
In the heart of the night
Bent on my knees
With groan utterance

I still keep to date
Each and every seconds
Spent together
Without considering we re apart
I am never for ones UN grateful
To God
For letting us cross path...

I remember
How we first met
I was at d door post
And you were approaching the same post
With your classic smile
That lifts the birth dot
At the right corner of your lips
I remember
Your first word to me
You greeted me
"Hey"with a smile
That melt my heart at once
I could also remember
That I adore you from the start
And my heart kept moving on a spot
As we speak on
I could remember I smiled back
But you look away not with a frown

I wouldn't forget moments after
That we became glued
As lovers
And I could remember
I'd wished silently
That if I were a boy
You would be my crush

I can't forget how your simplicity
Caught me tripping
And your accent
That flows
Like a spanish breed
I can't forget the first stories we shared together
It was in your self contain
Where you scooting with some duo
I could remember you came out first
Told me how your heart was burnt
With the sharp edges of thorns
And how you'd gone on a long vacation
Not wanting to love
I could remember it all
How can I forget
I wouldn't forget the secrets we shared
And the living cheer that told me
You've got a new news
Wouldn't use good
Cos memories of the news later turned sour
Its was like merrying go rounding the flames of doom
I remember when your smile turned down
And as though you yell inside
You could still force some
When distant friends would think its real
I remember I'd wish that I blow your pains away
How could I forget how your position bears weight
And at 19,you already 39
Cos the breadwinner loses the bread
And as the first
You bruised your kneels
To back your siblings
I can never forget how that turns out
The thorns of separation
Hastened your smile to fade
And you wouldn't know which one to choose
As the hullabaloo at home
Gave you grey hairs
How I wish I could cast a spell
Not to harm
But to smooth your pain at ease
As watching you glow into blue
Kept my heart red
And the heaviness of yours
That weighed mine down

I wouldn't forget when you let go
You claimed you met him at the door way
You exchanged numbers and became friends
When you told me I thought I saw a ray of smile
Yes,that it was and I knew you were alive again

But then I knew things seems all wrong
Our friendship sink while yours grew with his
You party hard and though forget your pains
And as it keeps up
We lost the touch of time
At first I thought we were still close
But this "him" drew you further away
With the help you need
He would wrapped you with care
Spoil you with things
You had left overs to share
Alas! My bestfriend became every elses friend
I no longer feel the hold of you
And as the glitters of life rally round your eyes
I could see that the sweet innocent girl
Dancing away....

Walking down the lane
Footsteps wouldn't hurt
Even if I hit a rock
I giggled often
But to myself
Chuckling loud enough
To earn passerby gaze
Do I even care?

As I rush down the lane
Playing safe while crossing the polls
And
At the sight of McNeil route
my gaze brighten
My steps hastened
My thoughts got clouded
..
Swiftly I thread
Along the part with caution
Bet I almost ran...
But that will wash off my face ups...

The thought of seeing my beloved
Overshadowed me...
The warmed hug I'll give
The pleasant kiss that will follow..
our lips entwined in day light dreams
Of shut eye..
Stirs me nervously..
The joy of been together
After distance made a tiny bridge
makes me feel a warm jolt

At the gate of my thought
..
With the haste I dive through the stairs..
Up and up I flip through it...
But at the door... guess what happened?

A sharp pinch gave me a twitch,
As I was awoken to day consciousness...
Oops, I then realized..
I had slept on my imaginations...

An outcast ve become
                For loving you this much
        An outcast I've become
           Amidst my friends now foe
An outcast I've become
       With mockery eye that feeds on me
And criticizing fingers
             That poke my face
An outcast I've become
         For loving you that much

Though,I mind not to be an outcast
Amidst friends who gaze at me
With side eye
Their stares could lift me over the bridge of doom
If I'd been light weighted in heart for you
Or the strength your love gives me
Had not been willed from within
Maybe,just maybe
The hole they had dug
Would swallow me deep
As I surrender to their claims
Cos an outcast
I will be
       As long as we remain bond
An outcast is Me
For loving you much more...

******* in soul,loose in mind
Hopin on my toe,into a fairy smile
I could lay all night
Measuring the length nd breath of the ceiling
Cos right nw,sleep seems like a taboo to my bulge eyeball
My appetite rattle in pieces
At the thought of losing him
Feeling I could go miles
To make him just mine
Though, all seem blossom
Yet,my tears saddles on the gurp of my throat
Cold shield my heart
With the fear of losing him

He completes me
Without him,life won't be awe
With him,well
I can go towards a roaring lion
Shove off a live crocodile
Break the teeth of a tiger
Cuddle a snake till it becomes *****
Yes!
I can move what seems bigger than a mountain
Jump off a tall cliff
Cos I know he's got my back
I can fight to survive and yet survive
Even under the depth of oceans
I can break through whatever life calls challenges
Cos I know I have him...

I've been to the chapel
Not only to see the priest
Or to hear the choir sing
not at all
To watch the candle burn on the chapel's altar
Or to watch the 7lamps
Radiates all through d priests chamber

But ve been there
To make my wishes known
To him who knows
I need you most

Skedaddle" he said
Chasing my shadow off his tail
I ran as far as I could go
No destination,yet my legs wouldn't stop

90miles ahead of time
Gasping for breath that seems witheld
A taste of my sweat
Saddles on my lips
All salty and creamy
My tongue could tell
Long as I ran,like a deer hunted by predators
That my legs
Fails to stop shivering in an spring leave

At night
I recollect every detail
An ordeal I couldn't but relish
As you chase me off your trail
Yelling stalker as I ran

The tears that saddles my eyeball red
And ink in blood for the devils signature
With the owls feather or is it chickens
That write out the ordeal with much bitterness.

Oh!
How beauty lies in simplicity
For even without linen
Bracelets or tingling
Ankle chain
You still purchase
a fair beauty

An aura of fine apparel
scenting out like olive oil...
Your mind
Adorn with pure ecstasy
Your inner beauty
Radiates your charm
Your smile
Compliment it all...
Mon cherie
J' a tamie beaucoup

There comes an eternal peace
Right there
Deep down d well of our soul
When we make some known utterances
up to d potters above
And the solace we find
When we become  assured
that the spirit itself
makes intercession
For us all with groan utterances
.. this ve known
and the joy
I ve found...

I urge the elements called "the Sons of the universe"
To spread there illuminating light of all radiance
To bestow upon our heart
The surge to love and hold
And,
As spear cast its prey upturned
And
As shining brink of daybreak falls  

As the blanket fog of dawn  
Is pierced and fades in a twinkle

May our love for each other give
Dead creatures spiritual awakening And our words dry our feeble tears of relishing pain
As it brings our slumbering love to life

We grudge in pains
Tears soaks our pillows
We mourn and groan
Nightmares stomp on our hearts
Tearing deep into the soul
While sorrow captivates the heart... leaving the spirit to battle with grieves ...

We battle to be freed from the tangled cobs of madness
but the more we try, the less we gain..

The more our pain increases, the heart looses its grip

But surely, we try but fail....
In all our attempts to be loosen
We omit the path...
The path of certainty that break all chains
Our only path to unexplainable peace
We fail to commune with our Creator
Who was,Who is and will still be
We give prayer an exception...
But get ourselves encumber with frivolous pleasures...
Which only last a moment or less... leaving us feel more depressed
the soul often oppressed
the spirit... entangled with torments
And Alas!
we aim for suicides....
Oh!
What peace we often forfeit
oh!
What joy we often lose
All because we fail to carry
Everything to God..
In Prayer....