Sitting under an apple  tree
This evening seeming quiet different

Unusual,but cool... Weird
But amazing...
The breeze calms my nerves
As I sit
On my fathers armchair...

Passerby murmurs..
Kids beam with excitment
Running helter skelter
In and out of the yard
Across the street,
This sights I can hold on to

"When is the sherperd coming to town?"
"Let's await Him at the golden temple"...
"With olive palms on his sheep to rode"

A little girl with no blouse on
But just her pant dangling on her thigh..  mutter out loud the scripted above..
Only then,did it dawn on me
Why the night seems different
Its Easter Eve.
2014

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never finds the courage to let that person knows how you feel.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before we meet the right ones, so that when we finally meet the right person,we will know how to be grateful for that gift

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance in a relationship and finds out you still care for that person.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go .

When the door of happiness closes,another opens but often times, we look so long at the close door that we don't see the one which have been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can just be with, never say a word and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It is true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it
But its also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they love you back.
Don't expect Love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

There re things you would love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from the heart.

Love comes to those who still hope, although they've been disappointed
To those who believe, although they've been betrayed.
To those who still need to love, although they've been hurt before
And to those,
Who've the courage and faith to build trust again.
         It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone
An hour, to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks, they can be deceiving
don't go for wealth, even that fades away
Go for someone who makes you smile to make a dark day endurable.

Born in the medievals
The thoughts of many stray
Hidden wishes not made known
Projective techniques can't get but few

The flames of thoughts that consume me
Leaving a slight blisters of ravishing  pain
A capsule of red and black entwined
like a time bomb shell,
It mars our heart

In the corridor of our heart
Some thought strays out
Ugly pleasures of unconscious wish fulfilments
Driven only by our instinct
But repressed deeply by our Super egos ...
An unconscious folks we grew to have
That represses all abnormal wishes,
Deep down into the sub conscious minds...
Like hunches
We back the thoughts no more....

I dunno if I'm sad, happy, depressed
Stressed, gloomy, ill, healthy, pale.. weak
Or strong...
All I know is that
Today, I don't feel like doing anything...
And so,
I wanna remain glued to my bed...

As time flies
We only realizes
That each day had been written down
Exactly how its gonna be
And our worries about the future
Is just an inflated tube
That shouldn't even be
Cos as today becomes yesterday
Our worries for one future
Becomes history ...
And the tomorrow we were worried about today
Well,
Become the today we were worried about yesterday....

While
            I was fiddling with my phone..
          Awaiting a beep
                 From my most precious..
                            Alas!
   A text came in...
       And it was my ex
Texting me... confessing
How much he miss me..
And so I replied
                "We re sorry, the subscriber you
             Are trying  to reach
            Doesn't give a ****."

Sometimes
I hate myself for loving you more than you worked for
Sometimes
I get mesmerize by the things you do...
That makes me scream silently...
Louder than the gunshot
That echoes in a soldiers funeral
Sometimes,
I see you as a living punishment
Because the more I want to go...
The stronger the pain inclines
You made me realize
That the worlds most beautiful lines
I Love you...
Could turn to the worlds most hurting lines
I Love you BUT....
Our been together
Could only be
But a wish

Can the heart love two at once
can the feelings for two get intertwined
Can two different entity, set one soul on fire
Is the heart capable of loving two the same way
Can we feel hurt the same way when they re hurt

Can we feel cold just as it is with them
I ask again
Is this really possible?
Can we feel the same sensation for two
While our fingers interlock
Can we feel completely at peace with these?
          Is the butterflies that rushes down, our tommy the same for two
Does our heart that skips at the sight of one, skips at the sight of another
Is the heart really capable of loving two at once

Or is it that the heart lied about loving the first
and so,
When it met with the other
The chemistry matched appropriately
causing the heart an eruption of confused thoughts
Is it that the heart mistook lust for love
Or maybe the heart grew fonder of the other
Could it be that the distance BTW the two first heart is longer
And that out of sight is becoming out of mind
Is it that the heart is dominated by its impulse
and could not let go of the other
If so, to what treasure does the heart gain in "two timing".

I could make a stream
With the tears that saddles
Down on my plain chest
I could create a well
From the hole dugged round my heart
If life were as rosy as it seems
And love were as sweet as happily ever after
Like movies depict
Then this tears dat rolls out uncontrollably
Should be that of joy

Dunno what this is
For the pain I feel
Is washed off with my tears
But my heart taste salt
As my tears taste sour

If I deserve to be shown to the world
If ve earn that much
Do not hesitate to flaunt it

But,if not
Then let me cuddle myself
And raise my heads high

Cos,I believe life continues
Even if the world says otherwise

It breaks my Heart
To see you chose
The door over me...
It breaks my heart
to see you happier
after you dishes me

It breaks my heart
When I see you often in my dream
More like my nightmare...

It hurts more
cos I ask you to stay
But you choose to leave.
Guess you think you won
but No
I won ...
And you know why?

Not long when you realized
You made a mistake,
crawling back
Like my pet cat..
Who wants more milk

With loots wrapped with you tears

And now that I told you
To get lost...
You keep showing up at my door step.

long to be with her ‎
She wants someone else
Her actions is different frm her wrds
Wen she's with me 
I find my haven in her
Re this all I wanted
Or dey're mirage
Wen she's with him
She becomes cold towards me
Get scared of calling cos her tone is scolding
She quickly wants to get  off d phone
Soft talk in pace 
Can I kip up in dis race
Crying becomes a routine
Can't find my rhythm 
Tot she's drifting away 
Didn't realise she's far gone
She came to say goodbye 
Nw I see d bye bye
Guess she's my rabbi
Cos I can see d byline
She made her hair going to see him
Me she didn't even flinch
Asked our normal question
Are u ok/cool‎
Her response shocked me
Why the question
Do I expect her not to be ok
Cold feet I had
Tank God I didn't get struck by a truck
Told her I had issues 
She didn't bother askin wat d issue was
I asked her to come on Friday 
She said it was too early
Today she went to see him early‎
Am I a fool
Or i'm being taken as a full fool
Well she's with her love
Why shouldn't she be hapi
I guess dat's wat she meant
Do I mean anytin to her anymore
Or i'm a tool being taken along‎
She once told me
Dat I shouldn't repeat d same mistake 
In my next relationship 
Oh my should've read the hand written on the wall
Is dis d voice of Jacob and d hand of esau
Forgetting her I can't
She wants me to move on
Move on to wat
Guess to my masters
After 4yrs tot it was worth the wait
Guess i'll neva. Be loved d way I want
Who knows may be i'm paying for the sins of my ancestors
They worshipped ifa 
Guess dey made some innocent peeps cried
And dose peeps are hunting me nw
‎Yet she said if I truly love her 
I wouldn't cry any
I found a place to cry in apapa
Was asked if anyone died
I said YES my love's feeling for me is
Dey all laughed
And said even in t,ears I still hav my sense of humour
Didn't want to try out loving again
Aina made me too
Do I regret
NO she's been awesome all d way
Even wen she leaves
Or has she has left
She'll hav her place unoccupied as long as I live
She wants She'll hav her place unoccupied as long as I live
She wants to stick around till I make it
As wat I ask
She has suffered with me 
She deserves to enjoy too
She said I should be ready for d worst
Guess she has made up her mind She'll hav her place unoccupied as long as I live
She wants to stick around till I make it
As wat I ask
She has suffered with me 
She deserves to enjoy too
She said I should be ready for d worst
Guess she has made up her mind long before now
Well i'm prepared for just one tin
Which is notin
All my readiness is to love her always
Whether she leaves or stay
If she leaves she can always come back
I long for no one else
Until she tells me to live without her
Even @ dat‎
I won't give up‎
This is not the end
It's just d beginning. ‎

An entwined thread in tangled pieces
A guided solo with low tone chorus
A sudden happening turning the course of the heart.

Could this be love? Or a deep mirage


The comfort felt at the sight of him,
the heart that race in tones accord
And my aching legs trembling like its fifty blocks apart

Could this be love or a blunt illusion


The warmth we felt at a tight embrace
The urges that flows from the tangled hugs
And this jolt that melt my *****
When we finger lock

Could this be love or a temporary trance?

The urges his cupid lips filled me with
The stares that set my soul ablaze
His breathe that interlock with mine
Could this be love? Or a deep mirage

The warnings that keeps echoing
that warning that yells silently
and the intense fear that saddles me
Riding me solo like a night folk tale.

Yet the willingness to try out
The risk we re willing to take
yet the warnings strike out loud

Could this be love or an adopted chemistry


The lone breeze filled with turned passion
My guided moments enriched with profound ecstasies
His gentle beast like rides, that transcend me to the giant gate of heavens floor
Reaching my deepest depth but in a rapture.


And now,
He calls it love making,
Even as much as I wish it so
The question still ponders on

Could this be love?or a deep mirage.

"I'll declare to the world".
That I love you to the moon n back
I'll make a proclamation
That your name
laces the pulse of my heart
I'll tell those who care to listen
That you are that one star
That illuminates my world
I rode overwhelmingly
On your back
Drowning in the affection
You shower

Speechless,
That's how your flow makes me feel
Fearless,
Because you re my rock of Gibraltar
Hopeful,
Because wiv you in my future
I can picture a great world
With God's signature

I'm not lucky to have you
I'm blessed!!
Happy birthday sweetheart..

Cat*(signature)

I'm I still awake
                          Or maybe
Its my unconscious mind
Yawning
The crickets voice whispers in loud pitch
drop a pin, bet its bang will scare the Rats
I've seen the cloud right from the windows blade
No stars, no moon all dark and wiped out
I'm I still awake
       Or its a dream I can't edit
Feeling a pinch on my elbow
My eye twitching, more like a blink
The dark pales wears off
  

My thoughts streams ahead of me
we both floating towards a direction.
A piece of me flares up in bizarre
Fighting a tug of wars with my Emotions
At the worlds unruliness
The words ve had from the one
That matters
Couldn't hurt more
Though, I hate him less...
               But
A string of jealousy binds me..

Deep down,
I know Some mate in me feels completely at ease
With this words
Coming from him...
                           The respect I owe him
Weighs more.
The Love we share means more
The feelings I get, though a bit bruised
But its never changing

Cos, only my heart can really tell,
The trend at wish it speaks his name...

He who wakes up and find himself successful
Has not been asleep
Do not snore off your time to excel
For he who kills time injures eternity
Rather
Take time to think- it is the source of power
Take time to give-it is too short a day to be selfish
For when you invest in your self inspired zeal
You give and get replenished
Do not be like so many people
Who think they re dreamers
But re just deep sleepers
"Reach high" ,an author once said
"For stars lie hidden in your soul.
Dream deep,for every dream
Precedes the goal.

Bruises healing
With no remedy placed
On the *******
Of my melting heart
The moment I could beg God
To take the time in hand
And make it still
If only
If only time wouldn't move
So dat I could feel the bliss of the moment
As I listen to the heartbeat
That calms mine


Each time I sprayed my love on his
Each moment I spend
Caving my name
On his sprayed chest
To remain driven in his
Soul till we live to part with death

Sometimes
my crush for the world fantasy
Becomes impulsive
My instincts
Keeps driving me
To the things of pleasure
Sometimes,
I wish I ve all she has
Guess who I mean?
Sometimes
The world is ever near
I see the sight that dazzle
The tempting sounds I hear
The world is ever calling
But still my ego shy
In all this,
I remember
My mirrors lay pride on me
Sitting consciously for my breakthrough
out of the tempting world
His advice
becomes a watchword
That the tempting sounds faintly fade
The breeze blew off
The dazzling sights
And sometimes
Out of the struggle
Of fighting temptations
out of the hustles the world throws
Without straying from the pathway
I Had chosen with at most caution
That with no doubt
Victory lies ahead
And my future
Encapsulated with pure luxuries
Without blemish of any sort
My crown awaits me...
With much comfort
And outright satisfaction
That indeed I overthrown the worlds gaze
Saying this repeatedly
I came, I saw and I conquer....

I won't loud my guts to say you don't mean what you say about loving me. Because,the peace of mind you bring,no one has ever brought a piece of the whole you gave on a platter of moments. But,sometimes I'm a girl and even though my auditory lobes hears it every moment that you love me as much as I do... I'm a visual learner,I need it acted out as much as you say it.
If your loving me were so loud,snitches wouldn't dare to form cocky talks,******* would lay low when I walk with my head high. Dudes that acts like they know it all,won't point fingers at our love that its unrequited.
Now,
I'm not saying you should displease yourself to please me,
I'm not saying you should become someone else to earn me
I'm either not demanding too much
I just need you to show the world more  visual actions,so that the world will stop thinking I'm an obsessed ***** trying to make the acclaimed unrequited love,reciprocal.

In a long sofa
I lay briefly... outside the veranda next to my granny cozy cat
My thoughts wanders like a reincarnated soul
As I ponder...
Who am I?
I ask repeatedly
To what purpose do I deserve to be called among the humans?

As I lay myself down... Heaven hear me frown...
Neither could my thoughts stop pondering...
Who am I?
What is this tormentors agitations?
That rest on my hearts shoulder
And make me feel as if all had been a dream...
Was I to wake up in a moment?
Who am I?
I ponder still...

My spirit remains awakening
For the search of truth is beyond physical
And the person I am or I'll be
Determines how I set my pace
For the heart has reasons
That reasons itself cannot know...
  
After all,
I'm the master of my fate ....and the writer of my own destiny...
The weaver of the so called Carpet of fate...
And so are you.....

An utter shame in a cloudy storm
Awaits the accursed crew
Of lustful men

Who prey in unison in search of whom to devour
They re like a loosed soul,wandering in a sphere
Cage of lunacy

Woe!
Unto that man of no little standard
For in the midst of his foes
At the center square of the market squad
A disgraceful rain awaits his stiffened spirit
His ends chained with the fabrics of sorrow

Success often comes
from taking a misstep in the right direction.
It doesn't matter the size of your audience,
it doesn't matter if the world is counting how many times you've failed
It doesn't matter how often you've stay awake in days,
it doesn't matter if the world criticize your gifts as lame. Accept the challenges,
so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory.

Your laughter
Is my soul meal
The smiles
My giant lamps
Your touch
Arose me
Driving me freely
To a great gate of ecstasy

Your love
My heart music
Playing me tune
Bet I could dance all day
Some words ve weave thee
But yet,
Seems not enough
Cos each day
Makes a better smile
Your smile
That lit up mine