I was walking behind
My man's bike trial
And the saying arrived
If you can think of three
Reasons why you don't
Want to be with them
Don't be with them
And I quickly got to two
I tried to think of a no.3
It was on the tip of my
Angry and disgusted tongue
Only one more reason
And I'd be long gone
I began the preparation
But there was none
I tried to use his bike
Or the way he walked
His pace was a little fast
He was breathing loud
But I couldn't make one
He's mine I tell you
He's staying by my side
That's why I forgave him
I like his walk, his pace
And his breathing sound
I had counted to three
Three reasons to stay
To keep him close to me

The man of my sunset sky's
We're all humans in disguise
I fall, I fly, I fail, I feel, I watch him
I watch him in the light
I feel him in the dark
There is no stardust in his hands
There is no magic within his eyes
There is a human stood before me
Tears down his cheeks and a fear
In his heart I felt scared and he did too
We're all humans in camouflage
No act, no play, no camera and action
Just the sound of him snoring
The way he drinks his tea
That is what stays with me
The human inside him is also inside me

I found out I am in control
And I saw the light that
I deserve to be happy
And that I don’t deserve
To suffer uncontrollably
I used to hide behind my door
So this miracle is a quiet one
The best ones always are

I laughed at the memory of Mitch saying
Well I think everyone around this circle
Has had a cup of tea made by him
Even if sometimes very questionable looking
I felt happy to be there remembering him
With those people, with those friends
With the memories he gave
He used to play songs even if they skipped
And he would ask me are you okay?
And I would say yes thank you Winston
He had just got some new red boots
I remember him meeting the priest
And asking him do you like my new boots
I will miss him and never forget to remember
Life takes you, it takes you by surprise, it takes you
I woke up today thinking we would be sat in church
Instead I watched the balloons fly away
In loving memory of a great man

I’ve been a yes woman
A sad woman
A hopeful, naïve & reckless woman
A hard-working woman
A silly, giggly, late, clumsy woman
A here for one night only woman
A stupid, stubborn, weak woman
An affectionate, elegant, sophisticated woman
I’ve been a drug taking dancing queen
A drunken fool, heartbroken and screaming
I’ve been a silent soul on a route to nowhere woman
I’ve been a woman on the run
I’ve been a forever moving power woman
I’ve been a friendly and loving woman
I’ve been a bookshop and museum type woman
I’ve been a hello poetry woman
A depressed, lifeless, tainted woman
And a smiley, angelic, beautiful woman
I’ve been an adventure thrill seeker woman
A I’ll laugh at anything woman
And a miserable, grumpy, ungrateful woman
I’ve been a mad woman
But I’ve never been a man
I’ve only been a woman

Can you stitch me up
Or take my stitches out
Can you feed me
Or tell me what not to eat
Can you help fix me
Or help me help myself
Can you see my path
Or has it not been written
Can you hold my hand
Or push me forward
Can you make me laugh
Or take away my tears
Can you piece me together
Or bring me peace of mind
Can you be me for a day
Or allow for me to be you
Either or neither
Whatever it will be
Forget the rest
And just come with me

Today has come just like I said
In my previous letter it would
But unfortunately there was
A change of plans, no events
Or flights or celebratory dance
Mr narcissist paid a visit instead
He felt my thoughts and appeared
He said I'm going to delicately
Inject pieces of guilt into your skin
For trying to find happiness
Within your life without me
My birthday is worth more
Than your so called mental state
So you should have messaged
Even though we don't talk anymore
No hold on he didn't say that really
Well kind of but not exactly
He did send a wave of hate
Criticism and lack of self worth
All over my precious mind
I mean he didn't openly confess
He had planned to shatter me
To panic and to write about this
With desperate hopes of not
Losing my mind but after 10
Years as best friend and lovers
In the depths of my mind it's clear
He knows that his message is his reply
And the vicious intent and power
To hurt me is still alive inside it