Yes I am engaged
to a beautiful women
the love of my life
She's help me through ****
Hell half of them shes
been right there with me

But even though I love her
and even though I trust her
like I turst so few
there is one person out there
who knows me inside and out

it
scares
me
like
nothing
else
does

Panda

she goes by a different name now

Fenix

somehow she broke through the walls
that no one else could penetrate
she didnt put up with my *******

I am a heartless *******
I dont give a ****
I have no mercy

I dont cry
i dont show emotion
I'm a living
breathing  (Barely)
talking
statue

but her.......

she is a burning candle
in this hellhole
she's strong
she is caring

she is my burning candle

Grab the mirror
Grab the dollar bill
Grab my powder

Cut it into
neat little lines
four at a time

Roll up the bill
Andrew Jackson
staring
at me

Lean in
snort it up
Rub my nose

Smile wide
let the numbness
take hold

Numb my brain
Numb my body
But most of all

Numb out all these demons
that keep swimming in my head.