I've never experienced it
But something says it exists

If it exist, there is still hope
Hope for the euphoria I always wanted
Hope that humanity is relatable
Hope for passion

But this means the birth of the opposite
Despair, envy, hate and chaos
Will be a narrow thread from reality
Hope for pure destruction

Regardless what's true, I can not win
I'm stuck in the rules, and I will go on forever
Am I the only one who sees this?
Why do I endure?

Inject nicotine and alcohol into my blood vessels
Because now, I have to escape myself

Inject the bottomless hole into my brain
So I can finally resist to pursue

I know there is hope
But with hope comes fear
I know there is pleasure
But with pleasure comes misery

I know there is light
But with light comes darkness

Inject me with the truth
Because I have to know if the future is worthy

Give me the power to grant these wishes
Give me the strength to resist continuing

-H