I tried to distance myself,
My hearts a cold and darkened cell
Right now I'm going through Hell
And you're the only one that helps

Some things you can't deny
These feelings that I feel inside
Their hands reaching for my throat
Won't you save me?
You're my only hope

You're my guiding light,
I can se through the night,
With you by my side
We can paint brilliant colors,
Of lovers,
Of goodbyes, and cigarettes,
You pull me under..

She beckons,
Calling me over with a voice so sweet
I reckon,
If she keeps on, she'll have me on my knees
She'll have me begging her,
Please,
Give me a chance to fulfill all your needs
She brushed me aside,
No blink of an eye,
Punish me for the tears I'd made her cry,
My heart falls to the ground,
It bleeds...

Coming of age,
A bitter taste
No longer a boy,
Becoming a man
Father, I know you're ashamed,
but I'm doing the best I can

First love,
It's been years,
It's been tough,
But I've made it through the tears
It's been rough,
But I still miss you, dear

I remember you,
I remember us,
You said I'd never kiss you,
but I decided to call your bluff

We laughed, and we loved
Staring at the skies above,
I remember your eyes,
A shade of brilliant blue
when I lie awake at night,
My thoughts still stay with you

You've moved on,
but I'm still here,
Writing songs,
About the past 3 years

Lovers come, then they leave
But girl, you'll always, stay with me..

I’ve been stressing, dare you to start testing
Not in the mood, talk to Smith and Wesson
Can’t help a man who gets hurt but never learns his lesson
Life is a question, multiple choice, guess who’s guessin?

Running from myself is no longer an option
Can’t blow my composure, everybody is watchin
Always pay the price despite what it was costin’

I’ve been through hell and back,
Would you agree with that?
Stab through my chest,
Crush my head with a bat
People walk all over me, place mat
Guess I gotta man up, and face facts

Paranoia sinks in, you start doubting everyone
Ketamine breaks skin, my trip has just begun
Take me to a place I aint never been before
New dimension, jumpin in, diving board
I’m yours

I look in my eyes and see a shell of myself
But what I’d really love to do
Is look through the eyes of everyone else
Do I look hopeful and happy?
Or sorrowful and melancholy?

I got no love for myself, no love for another
Growing up all alone, and hating all others
I’ve got some friends, and I love em like brothers
But this cloud of negativity follows me, a steady hover

Push me to where I’m stretched to thin
Now it’s far gone and I’m empty within
It became easy living with sin
Take baby steps forward on scissors and pins

I gotta pick myself up, get away from here
Get away from the demons from all these years
gotta enjoy myself, get away from my fears
Gotta be smiling from ear to ear

Let’s bounce from my home, to the park and get ******
From my feet, to my dome, good times in my bones
Call my dude, get an oz,
Now I’m blowing thick smoke
Memories, fade away, after every single ****

She’s gone from my life, end this year long strife
She’s gone for the night, take a chance, roll the dice
But still, she lingers, somewhere in my mind
Another party every night, I’m sure to forget her this time

Take a chance, and run with me, to a land that’s far away
We can dance out, by the sea, till the break of the day
Now it’s just I, and as for you I cannott say
I don’t care anymore, I never mattered anyway

I picked up the pieces, now I’m heading for the setting sun
Maybe I’ll find some Jesus, maybe I was born to run
I’ll look to find the answers, that may well never come
I could find my piece of Heaven, then my journey is done

You had me is what she said
All that's on my mind
Laying all alone, in my bed
Is when I wish you were mine

I want to feel your arms,
Wrapped tightly around my waist
I want to feel your heart
And talk until the break of day

I've lost my chance,
This I have come to accept
I know I've lost my chance,
To speak all the words we've left unsaid

Love songs keep me going
but the worst part is knowing
That after everything we’ve been through
It’s him and not me now lying next to you

Another bottle down, another lonely night
Drown the feeling I try so hard to keep inside
I can’t help that you’re always on my mind
I should have seen it coming, I should have seen the signs
I should’ve seen through the lies you told me each and every time

I can’t smoke you out,
I can’t drink you away
I still feel the pain
You left me with every day

You carry around my heart,
But I wear it on my sleeve
I loved you from the start,
But you don’t remember me

I said I'd love you always,
You said you loved me too,
We loved with greater strength than love
We were one, instead of two

I said I thought of you always,
You said you thought of me too
but I was far gone, on desert highways
when he was lying next to you

I can see through ,
See past your veil
I thought I mattered to you
But we wrote an unfaithful tale
The feelings I still tried to feel have failed

I'll lay in bed, counting my days,
Thinking back to the happier times,
The days, that we spoke of "Always."