Fighting for right's  
To fight for rights  
Writing wrongs  
Scarlett letters forged  
Forgetting to neatly  
Pack clean draws  
Drawing conclusions of their own  
Panicking naked on a poet's stage  
Shooting one liners  
Mics for only one's spots lights  
Widening eyes  
Bright with green  
Envious envy's envying  
Monsterz flashing bright  
Diamond mynded reflections  
Borrowed timelessness  
At the many points of it ALL  
There's NOOOOO return  
Non extinguishable flames  
Searching for a diagnosis  
To this heart's burning burnz!  
 
P.S. Let It!!!

Kold Fuzingz come bearing warm regards 
Advising only in theory 
The mindful guides that guard 
Rivers of life flowz 
Peotic revelingz 
Who really knowingly knowz 
What kummitmentz liez 
Behind imprinting vowz 
Imprinted on heartfelt mindful thoughtz not thotfully 
Romeing seas to see 
What beholdingz forgot to beheld 
And see the gracious goddezz 
Diabolically!!!

More afraid of you
Than you of me
Frightened to love
The you I've yet to see
Petrified of loosing you
I pushed you away
You tried to get close
In so many different ways
Trying so hard to see past ME
I lost complete sight of you.

Back from absofauqinlutely
No wear
Love can't fix me
I'm already dead
Flatlined Faktz recorded
Broken head in shattered hearts
Mourning unfriendly
Friend ships sailz
That never quite roze
To the occasions of strong winds
Blowing brightless lightz
Parting separated coupled wayz
Misery needz not know bodiez
Uncomfortable company
Diplomatically setting anthemz
When in Rome, rocking jewels
Con Carmen mirroring Santanaz
Thick Carmel bustdongz
Pynk bandanaz
Matching pynk
Pears just doin
What is done bezt!
Juztuz kinda lyvyng!!!

Tis a never mind
That harbours
Suicidal thoughts
Killin ongle ono selves
Toxic stinking thinking
Held captive, myndz
Abundant hearts do tell
Loves love abandoned
Issues, seen played out
Interesting scenes
Dare to exist behind
Deadly sins, lusting
Beastly sixes, wrath and all
None other above
Love to conquer
Unadulterated honesty
Searchingz beyond
Sights of a neva myndful mynd!!!

The price of secret love
Revealed in the
Mourning's morning
Deary doe eyed lights
Of desperate dependencies
Never ashamed of US
Laying as we laid...

So many fauqin  questions I want to know why why why
Are  we not allowed to feel and know and see and want and need
Why, why can we not have emotions and why is it wrong for me to be in love for the rest of my life
With one deserving person why
Why is it so wrong to want stability and peace
What is so wrong with that
Why do we have to suppress who we are as human beings so many foxin question, I want to know why why why WE are not allowed to want and need why can we not have emotions  not saying that we need and desire
What WE  have to have because that is just how WE human beings were created to want and need and desire and crave, yearn if WE so please
What am I doing wrong
Why cant I get it through my head what am I not understanding why am i hurting so much where is the  night in shining armor that white horse and better?
I never cared for any of that
Wanting piece cohabitating
Matrimonial union with my family and my loved ones peace what is so wrong with wanting that what is wrong with needing that,
Praying and yearning for simplicity, what is so wrong in that why can I not need my peace why can I not need to survive  in my peace and live my life in my existence in this piece that is necessary for me what is so wrong with loving God what is so wrong with knowing a god that loves you back if that is the only love you can conjure what is so wrong in that
What is so wrong in  me
Hiding myself in myself so deep because I'm so afraid to get hurt again what is the wrong in  hiding myself away from the rest of the world because I am so afraid
When did I become so afraid what happened to make me become so afraid of my own shadow I don't want to live like this
This feels really wrong.
There's just no existing like this
Like me, like us, like WE!!!R.I.P.

Silk scarved
My wrists juzt tight enough
To feel my blood
Flow through my veinz
So controllably
Uncontrollable
Not seeking controllers
Skopyon minded
Once WE knew the plots
Successes envied own pits dug
Forgetting to genuinely love
Ourzelves First,  Numero uno
The christ I was told
Died for our sins
So technically
No matter what iz said and done
All considered sinful sins
Already been forgiven!!!

P.S: Hmmm, there might juzt be power in the name...

Been angry so long
Hampering progress
Living in a dim light of my own Shadow trying to create life out of death simply because
I've died one too many times
These nine lives this kat's no feline Feminine though I am
Woman phenomenally sublime Running from my own existence
Far too long
Cursing my own destiny
Cursing generation's love songz
Too afraid to let go of hurt
That impaired my entire being  
Doing better in this life
Because there's better to be done Better to be had, better to become
I shall rise above the mere human
God created in me
See in myself, what others see
Not believe lies naysayers  
Have been telling my entire life Helping me to destroy my destiny Speaking negativity to my soul Death to my existing mentality
My love they try to use
Against me and bury me from time to time in my own mind wondering why God why why have Thou
Turned your face from me
When you really haven't forsaken any aspect of who I am
I essentially keep running from the cross because sometimes it is too hard
To bear these bearings
This hurt that has done nothing but caused cancerous hate to creep up in the hearts of love and loved ones it is time to shut this dimming and come into the light that I am known to be
This Scorpion princess
This Caribbean Queen
This mental mentality  
Insanely this brain that does not shut off
Simply because it cannot stop and it won't quit ever again
Letting me down
In my own mind seeing what I cannot device as a plan to build my life from the destruction of my own hand
God I'm grateful that you saw fit to bestow on me all the love and the peace that you have thus far and taking me from glory to glory to where you are
I am so grateful for the peace that you are speaking in my soul and the wholeness that I become not just whole but holy
Not in part but every 3
This mind, this body, and souly!!!

Heart, body,mind, soul and spirit
Was so naked to you
So inviting so open
So innocent so pure
So willing to love
So honestly forever
So only true, to only You!