I will forever
Cast every care
That concerns me
On  you, to fight
Every war torn battle in me
Gracious most high
We both know
Cleanly hands and
A pure heart are both
Requirements for living
In your perfect will...

I  cannot keep lying to myself
I have been behaving like a fool
For far too long of a time now
None of this stress serves a purpose
To my health or my life
And since the enemy of my soul
Seeks to have me **** myself
To an eternal hell of many regrets
I have to do better than continue
To allow myself to be a volunteer
Of a bitter existince.
While hating anyone
There is no energy left to
Love myself, because negativity
Is so very draining.  I choose to
Let go of hating you,  while I start
Allowing myself to love who God
Knows I'm created to be...

No seeds No stems
That's what I be tellin dem
Strictly rootz yuh dun know
Running dis race
Iz about truthfully
Growing patiently
Not just getting old.

We change
Only when we
Are ready to...

Gratitude for strength
To keep enduring
Running this race
Is not easy dear Lord
But when I'm weak
My biggest cheerleader
You have always been
And will forever be
Protecting my husband
Providing my family's
Every single need
Blessed to know your love
You dwell within, without
All around and above
Melodious heaven
I'm in it for the long haul
Well done is my just reward...

Its a yearning
This loving lust
To once again
Taste the bitterness
Of your zoul
Taking
A morsel of your spirit
You know I can only
Enjoy you in doses
Binging would be sure death
A heavenly haven
My exhausted war struck
Heart
Will welcome one sweet day
What you call love is so toxic
I know I am not to blame, but
It is I who have yet to learn
Just how easy it is to
Simply let go and let God...

This gift of penning
Any piece of my peace
A blessed curse it is
To say the very least
Wanting to be listened to
Longing for my soul to be
Seen
Without sheer transparencies
Allowing just enough Knowledge
Of myself with very little into Me See...