My love for her was so genius,
So autistic.
Unhinged, unparalleled.
Unraveling, writhing, flexing ropes
Of agony.
It squeezed the life out of me,
And yet yearned to caress her ever so softly.
It aches for her crisp lips,
while it thrashes me around blaming for that pain.
It howls for her soft chirp,
While it grinds my throat hoarse.
It churns for her half-smile,
Churning the peace out of my blood.

It watches her lovingly, slowly slipping away from us.
And beats my back blue. Bawls at me to stop her.
It wishes her heart peace and her soul strength, as she finds comfort in different arms.
While it grates my heart against a bed of nails & ***** my soul dry.

How this feeling betrays her own master,
For a stranger who never tried.

A genius of it's own right.

How do i spend my nights..
I do not sleep
I do not write
I do not eat.. well.. almost

Lying there on my bed,
Feeling  confusion , chasing wishful dreams
Dreams i am missing out on, as i follow another

Absorbing information.
Wishing to know it all,
Aspiring to lick it all,
Intending to devour it all.

Staying up, trying to beat that constant ticking.
Hours go by in this delusion...

OH! Its 2 A.M
This is how it begins
Staying up trying to hoard it all,
useful, useless alike.

Like a dog on a treat.
Not caring what it eats.
Not caring what it spills
It satiates its hunger.
But mine only perpetuates itself
The more i chew, the more i swallow.

AH! its 3 A.M
Minutes passing by now, feeling this
comforting exhaustion.
Thanks to this hand crafted insomnia
I flick through these websites like chapters in a book.

Internet is my haunt
In these wee hours
For i got addicted to it,
Before i could grab a novel.

****! It's 5 again
I steal quick gazes from my screen
Watching the darkness grow dim.
Time to wrap it up,
And rid you of this rant.
Another night well wasted,
I guess, i'll just fap and pant.

Will get ready to commit this mistake again,
For now, I try to cup those dreams back in again.