My councilor said ....
Just say no.
I said No!
She paused and said
Are you saying no to me ,
Or are you telling me no?
Cause I think you are saying no to me ....
Let's try this again ... K
Just     say      no.
I said NO! .... .
she said just say it
I said no!
Say it !!!!!!!!
No !
Ooooh you're a bad boy.....

Ok ok OKAy.
Listen just say as little as possible,
Stop with the loquacious limericks and dithyrambs.
Leave a little wiggle room
Like a little riddle in
Few words .....
K ?
K!
..
....
Why is it that I become victim to the simplest things?
Like oh...... Idk ....
My councilor,
(Beautiful by the way)
Said
" You are too nice ,
Nice guys finish last !
So here's what we
Are gonna do.....
I'm gonna ask you
to do something inappropriate,
You are gonna say
"No".

I couldn't believe what she asked me , made me blush ..  .
And I said
OhhhhhhhKay.....  ..
She said ..........
Uhhhhhhhm       .... No no.
She started blushing too ..
She said no
You say no
I said "NO" !
SHE SAID ARE YOU SAYING NO  TO ME!? I SAID YES
SHE SAID OK ........

TURNED OUT SHE HAD A REJECTION THING ,
I HAD A HOT COUNCILOR...
THING.
One day I said ......
So is it really a bad thing that nice guys finish last ..

She said no
It's such a weird word ...
I mean world .
Oh no I said too much  ....

The statement comes to mind frequently .......
And that is ......
"There is one thing that Elohim could not do  ......
He could not make a mistake.."
My response is that ,
"He could ,but he couldn't ,
And He did .......
When He created woman......
His mistake was .....
(Forgive me my Lord for saying this")
He didn't make enough of them! "
Heartfelt......
Felt like it was going to stop .....
(My heart that is)
She touched me ,
All my ......
Previous engagements got ..
trifled,
As I riffled through my
Coolest Lp's.......
Little scuured,
Cause she keeps  flipping her hair and looking at me weird,
Like I don't know if she's gonna  cry or something wrong with me?
Her smile, mischievous,
Her eyes pouty ,
Sleepy .
Wanting?
Needing?
                something? ......
Seems like yesterday she was calling me names and making fun of me.....
I'm looking around sorta
Half feeling like a young king while secretly looking  for Allen funt,
And the candid camera team.
And now for some reason
I'm impersonating
007 the great  Sean Connery.
The world fell away into the abyss........
I dimmed the lights ,
Every motion I made
ended with me running my fingers through my featherd hair and striking a pose     ......
Her voice had a distinct metallic like static as  if my brain fixated on each grain of sound
I remember a high pitched crackling silence after she
Crinkled her nose
giggled and said comeer.....
Gesturing me with her finger.....
I carefully lowered the needle  ...
Onto the spinning record.....
Lover boy ,
"Take me to the top"
What's a poor boy to do ?
Is this some form of witchcraft?
I'm not in control,.
Yet ....
Then again ..
I feel like
I am ...... Or ..
I feel like maybe she is causing me ,
Or allowing  me,
Or letting me,
feel like I am.....
What kind of Vudu did she do
To me
She sat up half way
Until or face almost touched ....
Rested on one elbow
On my pillow    ...
No less
I saw glistening in her eyes .....
She looked deeply into mine .
I realized this girl I've crushed on for sooooooooooo long .  .
Was mine ....
After some time
I came to realize ....
She wasn't mine at all ....
I was hers ......
Her fragrance was intoxicating ...
I was spellbound and levitating into culpable bliss   .......
Tilting her head her eyes closed ...
She reached toward my face ....
I flinched ....... She smiled and said ...... It's ok ........
Her lips ... So soft ...... Hit wet
With mine ...
I closed my eyes and ....
Then


FIN............
I knew ,
The Epiphone ,
Instantly , I could see ,
No more mystery
My future became ancient history


I know why the female hero
Is called the Heroine!
My first addiction,
Tell me have you seen her?
caviler .......... I exist on a regimen
Of crow and "told you so"
My love life looms luminescent
So far away and distant as I
Lay awake and ..........
Reminisce
I tell myself I know
I know

I put  myself in this paradigm

I picked out this choker
Betrothed myself to Karma ....
Haven't seen the light of day,
Trying to find myself ,
With all this time to wallow
After chasing that sweet first high
Ohhhh my my
My whole life ......
I guarantee with a violent passion if ......
No when I'm let free
Finished my sentence ..... And my love light shines again ....
I'm gonna be the best the world has ever seen
You'll see  ..........
Im just sayin Karma!.
Geese loosen up on the leash
Your choking me!

I found another personality  
Trait to hate !
Fake caring Karen.
You pretend friend
You're a frienenemy....
Taking the passion from my pain..
Oh ....... I SEE
WHAT I SHOULD SAY IS
"I  ""allowed""  her  to ruin my life"..   .....
Trigger please you weren't there
You didn't see all the horrible things
You'll never know the depths and humiliating things    ..
You will surely never feel the sacrifices self depravity .....
Hearing her laughing !
broken lachrymose
Suffering on my knees .
Trying to friend me up with her lovers.
When I find out chase them away she cry's ..
Says she hates me.  .
I forgive and forget    ....
I say  I love you babe
We'll get through it.   . .
She calls me pathetic...
Years go by and somehow she just can't remember that ****.
Says it me  ......
So ya  I "let" her  ruin my life ....
The same way
Your not letting me punch you in the throat!
Does that not denote the pain you got comin ....

Be gone from mine eyes
Peasant ...... I have no need of you....
Unless you wish me to rephrase
" You allowed me to punch you in the throat an beat you with my belt buckle........."
See how much that helps ...
*******!


    .

Neglect is the regret
You have control to manage.
Regret is the control
You neglected!

Energy takes the path of least Resistance!
dedicate your life with epic love
To a narcissist.
they can only see you,
As an assistant!
When love ascends you
Fills you with vigor
You become more than what you thought you could have been,
The love
You would lay your life down for.
At best  they may have seen you as a friend.
When conflict means compromise in you eyes ,
You naturally avoid it at all cost.
If you believe it's a strategy
Of  benevolence
They will never see the suffering sacrifice
And deeper meaning behind the offerings meant.
To them your prosperity ,
Is their opportunity,
Truly tell them of depravity
You went through to help them.?
You already know ........
" I told you you didn't have to!"
Or
" Why would you do that , that doesn't make any sense.......
Well that's on you   . ....."
Or the lecture .......
"You need to learn to say no ....
I would never lend out my last twenty dollars ....... Just say no .....!"
They leave you with a feeling of
(*** is wrong with you?)
And probably not gonna pay you back ,
Because you'll just give it away to some other fool.

Keep your money and your time
Find the pleasures in life
Find the people who try to lend their time and money to you,
And then don't accept it    
If your idea of compromise,
Means you give into what ever need be
To create a calm sea .....
Your missing out ,
Don't give in until you find something ,,,,,,,
Anything you can gain from these " compramitcal opportunities,
For a great sailor is never made with a calm sea......
And  within adversity  are riches and fame like the world's never seen   ..........
All for the taking      
Don't give up
Never give in
Every day overcome adapt
And recognize opportunities
Always full understand no one is more worthy than you .
All who agree with what is written let's hear a hearty
I  I .........
It's unanimous
The e... H... . T!