Her love is like the Moon.
Shinning brightly down on the surface of my soul.

Glowing beautifully in the sky of my heart.

Moving smoothly across the heavens of my thoughts.

She circles me with hope.

Shades me with light,
In my darkest hour.

She moves the tides of my love,
With her presence.

She follows me.
She guides me.
On a path that is true.

Your "OK"
Pierces
My heart
Drops of blood
Leave a trail
Back into
The shadows

"I understand"
"I'm sorry"
Those sentiments
Would be
OK
"OK"
Is not
You hurt me
That's OK
That's life
That's the risk
I'm willing to take
But "OK"
Isn't
Just "OK" hurts
You know that
"OK"
Is cold
Indifferent
Clinical
"Ok"
Is not
Okay

When your heart is shut
It gathers no love
When you no longer trust
You can no longer hope
When you fear love’s pain
You cannot risk to love

A man can only knock
On your heart’s portal
For so long
Without encouragement
Without hope
His heart wanders

A heart that seeks a companion
Compassion
Needs conviction
If you believe I am untrustworthy
Then why do I stay?
Why do I suffer your
Indifference?

I want more
More than it seems
You are ready to give
Willing to give
Able to give

I tried
To break through
Break down
Your walls
What more could I do?
Wait forever?
How can you be worth it
If you don’t think I am?

The thing is
I’ve been where you are
I know the feeling well
I know how much it hurts
To believe something is real
To hope for something real
If you wanted me
You would risk for me

I guess I’m not worth the risk

The highest highs
The lowest lows
At least you know
Where you stand

The sweet bliss of love
The devastating loss of you
Easier to handle
Than the in between

That place with no direction
Up, down, right or left
A cyclone of unknowns
And rampant speculations

The whiplash of emotions
Yes is so very good
No is so very bad
I don’t know crushes the soul

What words to convey?
What do I need to say?
Should I go or stay?
In the in between

Are you my life raft?
Or my boat anchor?
Do I cling to this?
Or swim away?

Heart beating hard
Thoughts running fast
I don’t know how to feel
In the in between

Your words say stay
It’s the words you don’t say
Have me running circles
In the middle of this

What do we have?
Why don’t I know?
Or are you too?
In the in between

What words to convey?
What do we need to say?
Should we go or stay?
In the in between

Here I stand
Hammer in hand
To break down the walls
That stand between us

It can’t just be me
Who needs to be set free
If You and I are to become We
There must be nothing in between us

I used to wear it
Like a badge of honor
It was my shield
A physical reminder
Of my commitment
And I was proud to wear it
It was a circle of protection
A magical artifact
To ward off evil intentions
Then came the day
The commitment was over
Nullified by her words
By her actions
By her request
I took it off
All that is left now
Is a slowly fading scar
Where a wedding ring
Used to be

Words like ****
Thrown against the wall
See what sticks
More like
See what stinks
As the defacation slides
Leaving streaks
Crap on the floor

Tired of useless words
Without any emotions
Without any feelings
Without any meanings

Tired of people
Using big words
To show off
How smart they are

Creating whole paragraphs
Of useless garbage
Crap

Tired of reading People's
Wordsmith exercises

I came here to see the performance!
Not the ******* rehearsal!
I want your poetry to hit my thought process like a wrecking ball!
****

Okay. Rant over.

1990

Don't hope
Don't dream
Don't love
The pain strikes suddenly
Like lightening from above

Don't feel
Like this
Don't believe
In bliss
Don't breath
Hold your breath
Don't need
Live in death
Don't chance
The loss
Don't pay
The cost
Don't love
No loss

Don't unchain
Your heart
There's nothin' scarier
Than bein' naked to the pain
Don't let her in
Lock your prison door
'Cause you're a prisoner
Don't let her in

Don't touch the flame
Don't get any hotter
Don't let your heart
Feel like a fish out of water