If you were to look into my eyes
You would probably see a coward, someone isn't ready to make something of himself..yet
But if you were to look into my heart
You would see someone who knows what he wants
What he needs to do not just as a man but as a person
If you were to get to know me, the real ShaQ
You would probably not talk to me, run away or most likely I'm gonna lush you away
If you were to observe my actions, language, and situations
You'll probably want nothing to do with me as a person
My actions make people see someone who I am not
You'll get tired of my disappointments, lying, and betrayals
But if you were to look at me
I mean look at as deep as you could could possibly see,
What would you see?

Time to move on with written words
No need to write anymore thoughts and feelings
Said to much, said not enough, said what had to be said
There's no reason for me to express what I have to say
Written words that have been my way out
Words that don't mean anything anymore
Words that have my way out of things that I should've said in person
Poetry is a way for me to express myself to those that I have trouble talking to and got me stumbled
My poems that I've written are useless, worthless, and meaningless
There comes a time when you said all you could say
Nothing you, me or anybody can do to that can change the words that have been written
Written words from the heart, from a place that only good and bad thoughts come from
Words that have caused so much pain, hurt, and stress
Caused so many people to judge me, look at me as though I'm a person who only gets their kicks from
Hurting, lying, and abusing others
Written words that may have been wrong
And that from this point on, it won't be written
Time to move on with written words.

How do you tell someone that you love
That doesn't love you back
That you care about them
But not in the same way
Maybe they just like the thought
And it's just another game
That they play most days
In their day to day life
Not worried about others
Only themselves during this fight
That becomes a battle
A battle of lost and found
Where they split off on groups
And literally hate each other
Saying I am better than you by being me
What about them?
They are them, it's the exact thing
Agree to disagree
Find yourself in the mix
Find yourself in the circus
But don't get lost in it
We are stars sent from the cosmos
Humans looking up from below
I see myself from where I should
I am looking down like I knew I would
We are lost in the sins of our ancestors
Parents before us who didn't have all the answers
Lost in someone else's perception
It will take only the holy to fight this battle for them
I praise myself for wanting to try
I could have it all
This is my baby blue sky
But I am sick of being alone
I need my family
This has always been home
Home where is the heart is
And I finally found you
I will want forever
I just hope you want me too.

Deep down inside I hate you for what you've done to me, How you made me into the person I never wanted to be, But honestly, it's not me but it was you and that's a tragedy. I've fought so hard for you to realize something real,
But even that would have never change how you really feel. I've learned a lot about myself through you, Knowing I'll never make the same mistake because of you. We all deserve what we've been through and this my karma
coming back because I was a fool.A fool for love that I thought I could get,
only to hate myself and live in regret. Life goes on with or without people you thought would always stay, so remember that life can change any day. Breathe deep and take in this life with a smooth flow, making sure that one day happiness will show. Being sad is no longer a feeling I will confide in, but it's a thought that my mind will no longer let in. You see, we have to let go of the past that haunts us, if we don't it will turn our heart into dust. It will **** us and break us down into nothing, but I refuse to let it happen because one day I want to be something. My scars are my story, of all the times life become to much, but my standing tall is my way of saying life I haven't lost my touch. Never give into this world no matter how tough it may be. But stay true to yourself and you'll always be free.