artist are tortured souls
manic emotions left to ink and paint
transforming pain of their mundane tormented life
into ecstatic beauty expressed so vividly
that leaves us all in speechless and awe

I'm scared of my demons.
To me they are heathens,
I feel them breathing,
Their cold hearts beating,
The horrible screeching,
Is nothing but my dreaming,

Yet they are fallen angels,
They fell from heavens grace,
We are no different from them,
They too have a story to tell.

There never was an Anastasia
She was a beautiful lofty dream
A dream only time will fade

among the world I have a name
that drifts among the unknown
what I do and what I've done
is weaved among my fellows
who are just like me, until death
we will remain nameless in history

has this love we had run out and die
will you remember the love we used to call
is our life just one more bittersweet lie
will you shed a tear as we watch it all fall
as the days we shared now gone by

There you are standing so beautifully
quietly humming a song to to the breeze
as i lay gazing till i fall soundly asleep
Feels like a scene from distant dream
just a melancholy moon kiss by the beams

Here you are standing by the edge dangerously
Dancing with the stars on the lines of infinity
all these lost past youthful memories
singing all these nostalgic strange melodies
watching you as if i may fall into eternity

Here I am within my room dazing away
looks back to you still awed by such grace
standing upon a pedestal you made for me
here you are asking me to join you in this dream
sweet smiles you offer me as though i should be free

here we are now waltzing gently to the symphonies
within our own little space, our own found galaxy
Waiting for our fate, our final eternal destiny
to which i wish to never waken cause this is ecstasy
but i know this only a dream a surreal ambivalent dream

lost is different from dead
names that still breathe life
still holding what little remains

War does not determine who is right... only who is left

War is a deep whole of despair
Trying to find the answer
Of what's right and wrong
But when nothing is right
Then what is left.

Where should I go
To the right where nothing is left
To the left where nothing is right
Up where everything Is down
Or down where everything is up

If there is nothing left to the right
Then it would be pointless going there
Go left, fight to make things right

To the middle,
To save what is left
And to judge what is right

If the reason why I fight is behind me, I go forward to protect it

If the reason why I fight is in front of me,
I rush forward to save it

Walk backwards so you can see
What we have loved won and lost

Forward into the horizon
Where there is still hope of a better future

Close your eyes. Embrace that moment,
And dissolve into everything at once.
Be in all directions at once

Become part of all that is up down left right.
Around front behind above and below
Flow in and out and through it all
Only then can we find peace

But we are all just stuck in one circle
So choose whether to go to any direction
If it’s up or down left or right
It doesn't even matter does it?

In the end were just going the same way... Don't we?
In a mad world with endless and pointless roads ahead

I move I breathe and I think
Therefore I know that I exist
Yet I stumble upon your field I sink
Insensible to your eyes blurred like mist...

I doubt that you'll even know me
Just a muted thinker that passes by
Skeptical like my body and soul can be
Knowing I'll just watch you fly

The only thing I need to say
Does not come out
Cannot be spoken
Was and will never be heard

The only thing I want to do
Is never done
Not acted upon
Resides only in my mind

The only thing I want to see
Will never exist
Cannot be possible
Is always just out of reach

For I will never have the courage
To open my mouth
Voiceless to speak
And say three words

Knowing,
Oh woe is knowing
As you try to say your genius no one listens.
As you talk to others they never understand.
You can't socialize because your all alone in your interests.

All the sheep follow the wolves.

Your in a crowd, surrounded by people yet alone.
No cares, no one pays mind, they all roll their eyes.
They don't want to wake up.

All the sheep follow the wolves.

Alienated from your, society, culture, and religion.
All they do is their normal.
nothing they do is normal, **** their normal.
Their normal is stupid, ignorant, and will bring destruction to them all.

All the sheep follow the wolves.

You feel like an alien from a faraway star.
Yet still human.
They constantly say that you are weird, strange, incoherent.
But that because they haven't broke out of their deep box, with no escape it seems to them.

All the sheep follow the wolves.

You with a mind of enterprise you try everything you can to save them.
But it all doesn't work.
For they all will never listen.
Then they try to blame their problems on you.

All the sheep follow the wolves.

The scapegoat has come, the end is nigh.
They call you a witch, enemy of the state, criminal, and worshiper of the devil.

All the sheep follow the wolves.

What is the ultimate irony is.
They are the agents of the devil, for what is ******, but sin.
And so they set you on the altar, tie you down and.

Sacrifice to the wolves.

And so they howl in unison and that is the last thing you hear.
Not your mothers comforting voice, but the sheep and the wolves howling til your last breath.

They spoke of honor, faith, and pride
My dear friend may it, my brother
This conflict has bleached its shine
Resilient we both are resolute to the end
Though we stand in opposite ground
Though our colors standard stand different

By breath of the breeze they flutter
To the land they impale our mother
This land now broken that cries to unite
We are all its gallant sons and daughters
Undaunted when called to the task
No matter the price and labor it shall be paid

Though our guns face in defense
Yet always in clashing tragic conflict
Aggressors and traitors, claimed foe we yell
Though a lie we know hidden well
In both we serve to protect our mother
To each we understand and know
That someday we too would falter and fall

What are we both fighting for?
What do all this shameless struggle be
Two brothers now tossed and torn
Two brothers dressed in different tattered garb
Anointed stains of red and black
As we both cry and feel the sharp bitter agony

But with all this said and done
I salute you so my dear brother
As I salute my fallen mangled own
I bow and kneel in fatigue and torment
Knowing we have shown great valor
Shattered flesh that once had lived

We all have endured equally
In this harsh vigorous tainted field
You had fought hard as I
With tears that flow I try to hold
I carry both burdens my own and yours
Buried together with same guarded honor

To hear the wailing sympathetic mourns
Melancholy hovers and fills the air with grief
You are Judas you are Lucifer you are Cain
Yet i have honored you and not slandered your body
Neither talked scorned or ill of your name
I have loved you though i have not known you

My dear brothers you all remain at rest in silence
Peace has arrived to rob your suffering away
I shall live and stand steward upon your tombs
Solemn will be the days when I lay down my arms
Patience that ages and fades in my drowning temple
You shall not be wayward lost for you are finally home

Sentinels of dreams, vanguard of centuries
Your acts be given as providence resides upon us
Watch over us all my dear fallen brothers and sisters
Intervene through your spirits that echoes eternally
Hail to the provider the giver of life to whom we trust
As we march and conquer this murky transparent soul

Where there is darkness
A shadow creeps
People are a mess
And hope now sleeps
The world is in slumber
With demented dreams
Nothing is left to wander
As the world is filled with screams

Is this what a wandering bard sounds like?
I never knew what the phrase poetry in motion meant...
Until I've listened to your solemn lofty nectar hymns
Everything is dark only some lights illuminate the night
So rot, ferment and decompose as time passes he sang
So all the things may grow or wallow in this dusty world
Strange euphoria you invoke wisps my soul to the sky
And when the sun sinks slowly down we wish for it so
To linger a little bit longer yet the night gleams await
April’s dew becomes summer's sweet cold fresh wine

Awake me from this nightmare
The demons are ripping me apart
Bring me and take me in your care
And once again heal my heart
I've wandered blinded by rage and hate
Not seeing the way to escape
For that i call your name in the night
Hoping you will answer and show me the light
I'm sorry for what i did in the past
I seek retribution and a way to last
I wish i could change the way i behaved
I wish i could stop being enslaved
I am but a tool in anyone's arms
I need care and love to slay the swarms
Once again i ask in the night
Help me please i don't see the light.

how does one hold your gentle heart?
with hands like my filled with scars
holding broken shards that fell apart
those i have loved and fell like stars

how does one love with hands like this?
someone who's rough and blistered
compared to you my dear young miss
my heart has been tired and weathered

Proud of my tears I was
They would never come
Now on bed I lay
With my eyes holding some

I was always proud
My heart was ever strong
Now in pieces it lay
I was always wrong

I wished for you to depart first
You wouldn't bear the separation scar
Now I want you back
From the land that lies a far

If I had a wish to make
Your face I wish to see
I promise I wouldn't tease
Unlike the old stupid me

Heaven is now a better place
That God blessed with you
Remember the people I loved
You were among the very few

Starry night sky seem so grand
Gilded lifetimes never so bland
In stories of legends of you and me,
Stories and legends of bold and free
If you are sad, point up high
There's a fairy girl that never lets you cry
Instead she holds your tears to dry
So hold on, dear, and never let go
Read with me gently, just near the window
Explore with my loyal pet, a mystical wolf
That I met one summer's day, sitting 'lone on the loft
And stand mighty upon this hundreds of tales, never forget them
Shout out your dreams to the careless wind and hold out your own
And seek out truth from beneath what you wrote, but remember
Never forget, you are my dearest, my star, my precious daughter

We never demand it nor can we deny it
Oh the things we know and the the things we don't
Even politicians love and hate themselves
It might be heaven and it might be hell
Crocodile eyes and pigs full of lies
Oh the things they do and the things say
Just for a quick cash vote that comes from our tax everyday
Can't say i hate it neither can i love it
We stand for the right
But sit out of sight
A paradox that ends and begins and starts over once again
A record that is crooked but we still dance to its wicked tunes
As we twist and dance to our blinded doom
Faces changes but they still remain the same
Now lets do the devils dancing game
As we go ignorantly mindlessly insane

I'm but a mere humble soldier
my heart is tied to my motherland
I fight for freedom whilst I forfeit my life
as I run upon the field of death

I do not stand alone in the smog
I do not run against my fate
for the angels guide me
I fight for my honor to which i am unworthy

I do not walk unknowingly
the all this risks I understand
for the lord ventures with me,
each and every day

If the day comes that I fall
I surrender my soul to his warm embrace
remember me not just by name
but the deeds I've done and the sacrifice I gave

I'm a soldier first and foremost
A son of the nation I was born
A friend to all peoples
A comrade of peace and order
A brother to my fellow servicemen
A fierce and honorable warrior
and a servant till the end of my breath
and of my beating heart

the morning air that breathes of life
the warm rays that break the mist of night
the smell of coffee mixing in its vibrant rousing aroma
makes it a perfect day to rise

The cold December breeze whisperers away
your name that keeps me half asleep
I long to be with you my rose sweet
Yet here I wait not knowing when
Shall fate brings me to your lips again
Just know only this among the many
That there is a heart that beats for you alone

if i could hold and kiss you
even just once more in the night
before the light takes you away
from my dreams and from this life

She cried one day,
into the unforgiving night

She cried to the moon
every unforgettable night

She cried until the moon answered
Be strong, it whispered
it sung
it screamed

and so she sat
on a bed of tears
and threads of hope

as she listened
pleading unrelentingly
until the moon answered

and called to her
painting skies for her
her delicate eyes

worn with water
and streaked with loss
but tainted with a glimmer of light

Amidst twirling dresses of dazzling silk,
A glimpse of tender grace flickers through frenzy,
A priceless smile swept away in merriment,
To be pondered wondrously as motions flow,
And drift and spin and circle another,
A union of unions floating past stars aligned,

Our worlds collide in glorious sparks,
Reality's gift of pure ecstasy,
Treasured moments with touch you feel,
Whizzing by in delightful zeal,

But fortune fading outlasts wishful thinking,
Fast approaching an end to the bliss,
An end to the night's romantic fever,
An end to the fire without a trace,
An end to endless drifting through space.

I see sphere of moonlight glowing far
It shines in the night like a living star
Pulsing with my heartbeat
Shining with my joy
You will always be here
As will I
For if I leave I know I will cry
So I ask the world
Make it so I can never say goodbye

how can the moon still shine being so alone
how can the midnight sky be starry bright
how can nature be silent and peaceful in tone
how can the breeze whisper so cold every night
how can the stars fall sprinkle its sparks of delight
how can the world be so peaceful on its own
how can only few see such harmonious sight
how can i sleep when faced with the nights unknown
how can some rare nights bring out the natures solemn

Torn pages upon a growing book.
The story tells with joyous tone.
But dawns on its renunciation.
Lost sight to write the future.
Swept by lack of change.

Hearts lost in the dead of night
Turning blue in the cold weather
Blue hearts in the dead of night
But worry not, for the night is not forever

Take me to your only Garden,
I wanna see the world you've found!
Sit me underneath the trees,
I wanna see what you believe!

no words can express the agony
of your cruelest deception
all your words are mere fantasy
believing each passionate affection

you shattered what trust i gave
I fell for your lavish charm
blind senseless by a well-versed knave
voicelessly harmed under the storm

when will I ever learn?
that you were never mine
your tricks have lured me to burn
to squander in shame and decline  

I'm not so naive to be played
I have seen strangers around you
I hear how you whisper those words
you have lusciously once said to me

Heaven forbid you make a fool
out of the one who loved you
yet you have torn it all apart
you forfeit all rights to my heart

I’m burning the memories
and those that might redeemed you
Don't step towards my direction
Your reasons and comforts are meaningless

I'm leave nothing more than this words
You can stand there if you want
Scream or be silent i couldn't careless
I have stayed longer than I should

Back when people believe in dragons,
Guardians of the heavens beautiful sky,
Thunder and lighting that flash and roar,
The bulwark against monsters and demons,
That is what they were,

Until people slowly stopped believing in them,
And suddenly they simply forgot,
No funerals nor mourns but silence,
Now they are just fading ink and paper,
What a wondrous glorious fantasy,
That dies in our waking reality.

Monsters were there to attack us...
They the dragons protected us...
We did nothing but watch...

You were never really mine yet
I wished and hope you were
I cared so much to pretend
That we were more than just this

I played along with this thought
That it coiled my mind and into madness
Thinking that I had a chance
To hold you more than anyone can

That you felt the same as I did
And I often forget as always
That we will just be this
And nothing more, nothing after

underneath the pale moonlight
i can't help myself to stare than fall asleep
watching the stars twinkle so bright
where constellation play around in cosmic paradise

every war is different yet every war is the same,
men are pawns who's lives are but just a game,
to seek glory and honor amidst the slaughter,
here the rich profits behind such safe walls,
hearing the of cruel echos of this laughter,
joined by the field of battle to which dreamers now fall,
such is the faith of those who march with pride and shame,
to those who have fallen by such carnage and unjust death,
i raise a toast to you and a voice for the silent may you rest in eternity.

with a gentle smile, a kind heart, a understanding mind, a firm hand and with open eyes we may mold a better world

how some see the stars in the distance
lovely yet in the coldness they shiver
voiceless they shine bright in existence
they swirl in the night like a flowing river  

nights such as this i try to wonder
are we like the stars often silent
gleaming in the quiet dark we suffer
filled with shinning hope and talent

How beauty is admired through a rose,
The scent so sweet, so perfect, so pure as her soul,
How it blooms from the spring winds that pass,
A little waltz has performed again perhaps.

Oh how the gentle breeze that surrounds and flows,
The day is lovely, so grand for a little stroll,
The garden with bountiful flowers that grow,
Spring has returned as they felt it row upon row.

The warm day is great as the flow of cool air,
Greeting spring again with loving arms and care,
How we miss the times that you were once here,
Throughout the seasons we could no longer bare.

Yet as time flies you will leave soon,
As the day sets and ends arise a bright moon,
We will treasure the moments, the joy you left by,
Until another visit, we Will be patient, farewell and goodbye.

She finally found her roots
She found them again
She finally found her roots
She found them within

She finally found her roots
Etched deep within her skin
Echoes of her past
She found them again

You finally found your roots
Your core soul and being
You finally found your roots
You found them again

I write my name in the sand
marking my place in this land
but allowing the ocean tide
to which time shall wash away

Take my hand and run with me,
Let's just run and never stop.
I can still remember those warm days we spent together
Running, just running into the sun.
Take my hand and we'll go to town
Let's have a treat, and then down at the lake, we'll wet our feet.
I can still remember those warm days we spent together
With no cares in the world.
I will always remember those days we were together,
Together, together
Before you left us all forever...

If the world were a game of chess,
And I but a lowly pawn,
Such joy would become
Of the part of unknown

If each and every star
Formed a drawing each night
That no artist can ever conjure
As he draws up his canvas

If there be a world,
A magnificent one,
Where all the things come to align
All the hate I've come to love

If there be another you somewhere out there
Would you still like roses,
Or still love sweets,
And also me?

If there be truly another you, hopefully
In that other world, I would not make
The same mistake,
Of falling for my thoughts of you

For thou sweet a bird, to be locked in a cage
And I, your prisoner in an imprisoned mind
Will set you free
And kiss you one last time

I fell for the you, the one who has been
Instead of the you now, all so different
And cold, as I am, yet
If there be another world out there,

We both know, that what I truly wished for on a falling star,
Was for another chance

Our dreams
Beautiful one time
A pure hell the next
Never knowing what to expect
You head in and lay your head
Is your heart filled with unshed tears?
Or with silent laughter?
Our minds decide our fates
When, for only a minute, mind and body are apart
So, what about you?
Do mares plague you
Or are you surrounded by smiles?

I drown among the clouds
Dying to see what it shrouds
Deep above and sinking down
Seeing you in such a white gown

Falling like the tears of time
You once sang such melody rhyme
Days when I held you have set me free
This drowning feeling feels surreal to me

You are but another golden dream
Drifting on the heavens cosmic stream
My angel who walks above the cloud snow
You who have made my heart glow

Writing poetry for girls I never loved
Wish I found the reason to say
that I'm too afraid to be left unloved

If I could say those three words
without choking in my asphyxiation
and my eyes swelling to a teary blurred

Then somehow I could be just okay
So please spare my pride if you can
And forget I said anything to you today

It feels as though the world is too slow or too fast
that some good things will likely never last
yet the memories we built both great and sad
I hang them all up my wall, no mater how long time has pass
each one brings back stories from such glorious days
if you can see them now I bet it will brings tears down your lovely face
no matter how much we've grown old nothing has truly age
everything still stays the same no matter how somethings change

faith alone has brought me here
to stand firm and be with you
no matter the harsh torrents
that come roaring aloud
no matter the hurricanes
that come like an endless tide
i shall standfast ever true
for faith alone has brought me back
enough to still stand with you

Seeds of man that shall one day grow,
Let it blossom once more the flowers of youth,
The spring of enlightened breeze that blow,
Through the garden of hope, fertilized by truth,
Upon a land that has been set a blaze,
A nation that burns bright as hell fire,
The sufferings of this people for years and days,
For the system that cares nothing but selfish desire,
Yet the common man may not come to see,
To feel the fresh air of liberties breeze,
Time will pass again to the land in chains,
exposing the wolves that have reign,
till then we strive forward as our fathers did,
opening our eyes from the lies we've seen,
until the sun rises high we shall be rid,
the cancer of societies dark veil of evil sins,
Once we have been cleansed by waters of truth,
We shall once again bare the fruits of our labor,
Whereas are bond is strongly entwined as root,
we shall grow together strong for we have been delivered.

If people were rain,
I was drizzle
and she was the storm,
the calm before the hurricane.

The way Humanity deals with loss, is to stop trying at all
The way animals deal with loss, is to stop trying at all.
That response is true through out the universe
its simple genetic code telling us to act that way,
but the thing that separates humans from animals is that we have people around us.
people that don't want to see you sad
people that always look to the light when your stuck in the dark.
Darkness consumes all hope, but people carry light wherever they go
through the good and bad, the ups and downs
always remember that strangers are friends you haven't met yet
friends are the guiding lamp at night,
and never falter to follow when you go into the dark.