Yes
She’s younger
She’s prettier
She’s in better shape
All these things make my heart ache

I must have thought I was all that and had the right to choose
Recklessly I let you go, all I did was lose

Why do I care?
I sent you away
She got the prize
Alone I shall stay

What was I thinking?
Something better would come?
When all along
You were the one

Good luck and best wishes
Happiness is yours my friend
I don’t know why it bothers me
But it will ‘till the end

Don't just be with the one you think you can live with....
Be with the one you can't live without

The rain was relentless
Falling angrily to the earth
The sky just opened suddenly
And started giving birth

I was in the air
miles high
Couldn't see out the window
I wanted to cry

Turbulence, they said
It will be fine, they said
How I wish I had stayed in bed

It felt like I was on a bumpy old bus
I know I'm making too much of a fuss

we will surely get there safely
This I have to believe
The plane was shaking
But there was no way to leave

I sat and I prayed
Until we finally touched down
I saw the beautiful rainbow
majestic and proud....

There was no need to worry
We made it through the storm
To a beautiful day, a lovely new dawn

I’ve had enough
So I’ll say goodbye
I think I’m ready
To finally die
I can’t wake up another day
To the voices in my head
That want me dead
I get in the tub
Hot water up to my neck
Take out the blades
Guzzle the *****
Wait for the buzz of the drink
So that I no longer have to think
The water begins turning red
What have I done?
I’ll soon be dead
Peace

Purple, pink, yellow, blue
All the beautiful colors are for you

I painted it myself
With a paintbrush in the sky
Guess you didn’t know that I could really fly

The grey puffy clouds I threw in last
They represent my unhappy past

I’ll throw in a bird, maybe a dove
Just to show you how much you’re loved

I know it’s only a sad cliché
But I’ll keep painting for you
Please don’t go away

I love you

A beautiful day
I must say
Possibilities are endless
I'll kneel and pray

Thank you Lord for another shot
A chance at life, to make things right
No more complaints
Only thanks and praise
Let us all enjoy these precious days

I wonder and wonder
What my purpose is here
I need to rid myself of ego
Let me make that perfectly clear

I work at my job, endlessly
Results are few, they seem useless to me

I want to do something different
Something that I love
I want to run away
Take flight like a dove

Do something I enjoy
And still pay the bills
It would be thrilling, it gives me the chills

Have I ever been happy, in my career?
I can’t seem to remember
The past isn’t clear

I used to have passion
Now I have none
I wonder if I’m the only one

Too young to retire
Too broke to quit
So I head to the office
With no laughter, no wit

Here I am...

I'm climbing the mountain once again...
For what?


This is not the first time, will it be the last?

I'm getting tired of holding on..

The air is getting thinner as I climb higher

And where does this journey take me?

The crest of the mountain, just to turn around, and climb down again... nothing has changed, it never does, so what is the point?

My last lifeline is the rope holding me close to the mountain surrounding me...

I unclick the lock, letting the rope fall freely to the ground below

My hands still holding on to the protruding rocks on the side of the mountain

I'm done holding on...

I'm done climbing...

But the mountain will grieve
He will miss me...

He seems to want me to continue climbing the jagged surface, just like he needs the elk standing at it's peak, he'll cry a landslide....

I hear a whisper in the breeze calling from the mountain,

Hang on....

I woke up this morning to a beautiful day
Feeling very giddy,
Ready to play
The sun was up and shining bright
I felt the need to be outside in the light
I put on my slippers and started downstairs
To make some coffee, and decide what to wear
As I reached the bottom step
I heard as strange sound
I thought it was the cat, but there was no one around
Nothing looked touched, not a thing out of place
Why then, did my heart start to race
I turned to the door
It was slightly ajar
Outside the window, I saw a strange car
Now filled with fear, what should I do?
I turned around, that's when I saw it was you
I was stunned for a moment
Then I heard you say
"You look beautiful darling,
Can you come out and play?"

I woke up gasping
Pillow over my head
I couldn’t scream
I was pinned to the bed
He pulled my nightgown up over my head
I couldn’t see his face
He ***** me, over and over again
Helpless and scared
Hoping just to survive
He finally left
I was still alive
Who do I call
What do I do
Will anyone believe me
I can still barely move
I lie in my bed
Going over in my head
Was it something I did
Is there something I should have done
Will he come back
Do I need to run
I know at this moment, I’ll never be the same
How do I go on living, with this terrible shame

It’s a new day
Get the coffee and cream
Not everything is as it seems
The sun might be shinning
But inside I’m dying
I need to get out of this place
Of despair and disgrace
Put the past behind me
Look to the light
It's up to me to make my future bright
Stop looking for the next best fix
A man
New shoes
A vacation
Some *****
I want to be happy
I can't be the only one
Someone please come show me
How to have fun

I look to the sky
what a beautiful blue
red and pink brushed into the breathtaking hue
the clouds are majestic
they remind me of you
I wish I could fly
way up to the sky
where there is no pain
no need for this cane
It's time to go
I've lived enough
had enough of this earthly stuff
It means nothing to me
without you
come take me my darling
into the beautiful blue

I sit and wonder
What am I doing in this life?
I only have one, am I not right?

I don’t want to waste time
With people and things that don’t make time for me
It’s time I stand up and set myself free

From the ******* of love
From the disappointments of life
I don’t want to have to use my knife

But rather go on
The lone wolf I suppose
Looking for that one pure rose

Is it you?

We all have a choice
To live or to die
Some of us choose both
Alive and breathing
But dead on the inside
Faceless expressions
Walking through life
No joy, no pain
Zombies surround us
Is it you, is it me?
The characters change
Every day
I put my armour on
I've made my choice today
Dead on the inside
No one can hurt me, I'll be ok

The library was open
She sat there alone
Surrounded by books
Some authors unknown
This was her escape
The land of the greats
She lived through these books
They gave her a life
She hid in her safe place
And read until they closed
Then went to her shelter
And dreamt of what they wrote
Only sixteen
But homeless for years
No parents, no family
She ran out of tears
She dreamed of the characters
The authors brought to life
Becoming them
Kept her going one more night

He said he loved me
A million times over
I felt like I found a four leaf clover

I should have known
It was too good to be true
But I couldn’t resist his eyes so blue

It wasn’t real, it was all a lie
Now I sit here and want to die

There are others out there
Feeling the same
Feeling stupid, feeling great shame

He took all my money
Every last dime
I didn’t know he was committing a crime

Now I am alone
And totally broke
No one can find him
He disappeared like a ghost

I’ll go on for now
But will never forget
The way he betrayed me, the way we met

The sad thing is
I miss him so much
I must be insane
I know it was never love

I want to run as fast as I can
To get far away from here
Far away from that man

Wings on my feet
I’d fly like a bird
Sweeping the streets
Soft footsteps never heard

I’ll keep running forever
Far away from his touch
I’ll never look back
I’ve been through too much

I’m just sitting here thinking
About the coffee I’m drinking
How nice and simple life can be
We fight ourselves, when we deserve to be free

No worry, no fear
One day at a time
Life can be grand
Happiness can be mine

Don’t over think
Don’t complicate
Always love
Never hate

*And today could just be
The best day of your life

It's my life
I want to live
grasp every bit of happiness
Smell the roses
Slow my roll
Forget about the empty hole
In my heart
Live
Breath
See the beauty around me
Enjoy my own company
Life is good
Time too appreciate
And live
With a smile
Dry those eyes and get out there
There's no second chance
The seconds go by too quickly
To waste them being sad
Today I will rejoice, and be glad...

I need to run, I need to hide
I’ll take a train, or a bumpy bus ride

A plane would get me further away from my life
A one-way ticket sounds about right

There’s nothing left here for me
Far away is where I want to be

Let me go free and spread my wings
To see what the next chapter of my life will bring

I'm not afraid to die
I'm afraid to live

Days turn to night
Nights to day
How do I stop feeling this way?

Fear overwhelming
Wherever I go
Fear of what?
I really don't know

The voices in my head
Seem to want me dead
Should I just give in
Or take a deeper look within

For now ill take my pills
My fear leaves me with chills
I head for the door
I can't do this anymore

"Go back to bed", say the voices in my head
Just another day that I wish I was dead

Everyone rushing frantically to their gate
grabbing coffee or magazines
they dare not be late
It was only 6am
yet the chaos was awake
The noise, the people
It all seemed so fake
She waited patiently, too much noise in her head
"I just want to be home, safe in my bed."
A three hour flight, not too bad
for some reason today, she was extremely sad
She's on a new journey
that's only begun
She wondered if she had time to run...
Staring at the runway, where was the plane?
the sky slipped into darkness, and so started the rain
Something was wrong, she felt it inside
She felt an urgency to run and hide
The lights came suddenly, as bright as the sun
the passengers fell silent, every single one
the bright light rushed toward them with horrific speed
Oh Dear Lord, not now, she sent out her plea
The plane came crashing through the window before anyone could leave
There was nothing that could be done, except to grieve
Her journey was over, before it begun
Her last thought was, "I should have run."

This isn't what I wanted
But this is what I got
I had a chance
And I blew my only shot

It was all me
Didn't known what I had
When he didn't take me back
I had the nerve to be mad

Now he is happy
Engaged right away
I wish I could go back in time
And make it all ok

It's too late now
She's got the ring
I've got nothing
I lost my king

She stood on the ledge, said "what the hell"
Would anyone care
If I fell?
Who would know
She took that jump
Landed in the snow
"What's wrong with me"
Can I do anything right?
All banged up, but still alive
Next time
I'll have to go high
Can't mess it up again
Give it one more try

The sun is rising
Above the clouds
Slowly it comes
Waking up the crowds

What would we do
Without its magical light
The world would be dark
No sparkling daylight

I can’t imagine a world without sun
I don’t believe I’m the only one
The winter comes and gray covers the sky
Enough to make me break down and cry

I need the sun
Like the air I breathe
It’s one of the things both my mind and body needs

Depressing is a day
Without the sun
Everything is black
Dark and glum

I will praise the sun
In all its glory
Appreciate its beauty
And end this story

I'm not afraid of anything
life is too short to let fear in
Fear itself is a four letter word
One I won't say, from my lips, it'll never be heard

I'll take my chances
I've got nothing to lose
The world is mine for the taking
Since I put down the *****

So come along for this ride with me
You too can feel this free
Living without fear, sit and relax
It's amazing when you get your life back

I want to run
As fast as I can
With the wind in my hair
Breathing in the fresh air

I could go for miles and miles
All the way with a smile
It’s what makes me feel happy and free
For that short time I can just be me

I feel blessed today to just be alive
Thankful and grateful
No need to hide
I've been so self centered
Always dwelling on me
It's time to wake up
And focus on thee
I'm not alone
I cannot forget
You're always with me
I shall not fret
You've carried me this far
I trust in your strength
Sometimes I forget
I need always keep the faith
*
Amen*

How did I get here
I have no idea
I'm shaking terribly
There's ringing in my ears
I lie in this strange bed
Nothing else in the room
Walls are blank white
I'm filling up with gloom
Who got me to this place
I want to know now!
Did I take a plane?
I must have, but how?
Here comes a nurse
Maybe she'll know why I'm here
Do I dare ask her, I'm still full of fear
I'm back in rehab she tells me
In a far away state
I've been here two days she said
As she hands me a plate
I start to cry
I start to scream
This has to be a really bad dream
I'm in rehab again
Miles from home
Once again
All alone
When will I get it
I'm so full of fright
I give up this time
I'm ending this fight

I sit  here alone in my bed
trying to get you out of my head
I wish and I pray
For that magical day
When images and thoughts of you
Are gone forever and I'm no longer blue
They say it'll take time
It's been over a year
I'm still in pain and in love with you dear
I have to get up and get on with my life
But everyday I feel a twist of the knife
Will this feeling ever leave my head
Or am I destined to be prisoner in my bed

The little people
In my head
I wish they would get tired
And go to bed

I know it sounds silly
But their leader is Billy
I wish he would shut up the rest
He’s become such a pest!

I try to not listen
But they are very loud
Very outspoken
Very proud

I don’t know when they took over my brain
I never did feel any pain
I guess we will just coexist
There is nothing I can do to resist

Where are my meds?

I need to fly
I need to be free
I can’t be tamed
I’m the wild one, you’ll see

I love taking off
On a wing and a prayer
Responsibilities?
I really don’t care

I’ve been there, done that
So many times before
I’m so ready to just head for the door

So here I go again
Getting on the plane
If I keep moving, I won’t feel the pain

Everywhere I go, there are couples all around
Everyone paired up, I can feel the sound
Of love in the air
Love everywhere
Are they better than me?
How can that be?
They tell me I’m pretty
They tell me I’m great
So why do I feel so much hate
Toward all those couples
Smack the smiles off their face
I give up on the human race

What did I do that you let me go
After sharing my bed
Playing the part of my beau

Day after day I gave you so many chances
You just threw me away like all your other failed romances

You said relationships were not for you
Now I know how much this is true

I was blind in love and could not see
This much I know, there is nothing wrong with me

Burn

She committed a crime, it's something very bad
She has no remorse, not the slightest bit sad

So now it’s time she has to pay
As she sits in the interrogation room
No more time to play

Make a deal, you stupid *****
Too much pride
Are you starting to itch?

Take your chances
The jury will know
Hope you like orange
Next stop, to jail you will go

Do you want real true love?
A soul mate until the end of time, and beyond?
This is not a trick question, yes or no.....
Think about it before breaking another heart
A heart can only take so many hits
Before it disintegrates into the universe
Be kind, be true, but always be you...

I look to the universe
For answers to life
But I get no answers
It cuts like a knife

Do I really want to know
What's going to happen to me?
I don't think knowing will set me free

I can't control my destiny
But my happiness is up to me

Tomorrow's the day I get on the plane
This time I'm not going too far away

Three short days
But for me it's bliss
Just as good as a juicy kiss

I don't have a man
No ties to anyone
I can take off, I can just run

This time it's no tropics
Business you could say
Looking for my next home
Just far enough away

Close to the beach
Where I find my peace
Close to the stores
I'll never get bored

Right now it's just a fantasy
But it feels so real to me

So off I go
on another adventure
Maybe this time
A permanent venture

Today is truly all we have
This took a long time to learn
Make the most of the day ahead
Look for excitement around every turn

Make the most of every moment
Send positive vibes at every chance
Sing from the top of your lungs
Get up from your seat and dance

Smile often, laugh even more
Give a compliment, hold open a door

We may be only here for today
Let’s live a good life and do it God’s way!

Another sleepless night
Why is this happening to me?
Sleep is my thing
How can this be?

TV on, TV off
It doesn't matter
There's no Mr. Sandman coming to my loft

Toss and turn
Counting sheep
Here I lie, still can't sleep

How I long for a nice long snooze
My eyes are wide open
Thinking of world peace and a cruise

The house is quiet
You can't hear a sound
No one to talk to
No one around

When will I sleep?
What's on my mind?
I want to dream
Everything will be fine

One, two, three, four.....
Keep counting, staring at the floor

Next thing I know
I'm waking up
Was I asleep very long?
I need some Folgers in my cup

Her trip was only two hours away
She couldn’t wait to go and play
Not a long trip, but better than nothing
Get out of this town, start on her hunting

By that of course she means a man
The man of her dreams
Her diabolical plan

She’s looking for the one
Everywhere she goes
Shop-Rite, dry-cleaners, you never know!

They say stop looking
He’ll find you
She doesn’t buy that
And has nothing better to do

So she gets all dressed up and pretty
Works on her smile, turns on the witty

There he stood
She knew he was the one
Standing by the gate, she was ready for some fun

She looked for a ring
But there wasn’t one there
Maybe this was the jackpot
He had a beautiful head of hair

She moved very quietly across the crowded gate
She was on a mission, she was after her mate
She bumped into him lightly with her backpack
She looked at him, and he glared back

She started to speak, then there she came
His wife and kids, was she going insane?
How did she miss it?
There wasn’t a sign
This didn’t fit into her marrying design

He turned his back to her
His family was there
They looked so happy
It just wasn’t fair!

She got on the plane
Her mood in the gutter
She ordered a drink
And then another

So much for her plan
It was not working out
But she still had three days
To figure it all out