Where did I go
What happened to me
I’m not the same
Since the day you went free

I didn’t cry
I didn’t whine
I said I was perfectly fine

I’m not fine
I’ve somehow lost it all
My mind
My body
My soul
How do I get up from this fall

I look down at the ring still on my finger
Wondering how long this feeling will linger

I need to move on
But for some reason I cannot
I think of you always, I miss you a lot

Where do I go from here
Someone tell me what to do
I no longer want to be in love with you

I sit
In the royal blue vinyl chair
Waiting for the plane to board.
I stare out the window, through the crowd, at the large metal bird, majestic, glistening in the sunlight
A woman walks by in her polyester suit, pocketbook in hand, looking sad...
An older man sitting across from me, alone, looking disheveled, briefcase in hand, mind distracted
A young couple trying to keep their two young children quiet, so not to be seen
A teenager plugged into a cell phone, a disengaged look on his face
The silence becomes louder... and louder
One thing in common.
We are all here, going to the same destination... some will continue on...
together... but alone
Am I invisible...
Does anyone see me?

Stick a knife in my heart
Blood is dripping from my eyes
Every time I think of you
I want to lie down and die

The greatest love
Is that of my Tommy
He loves me unconditionally
And still calls me mommy

The terrible twos were not so bad
Neither were threes, fours and fives
He was my baby then
He’ll be my baby forever

At seventeen, I look into his eyes
I see such wonder and surprise
I love my son and he loves me
How blessed can one mom be?

I lay in the darkness...
naked
waves rolling up from the sea
I feel the mist from the salty water
as I look to the stars for answers
They light up the sky, a million white lights on a black canvas
How can I find love, if I do not love myself...
How can I feel, if I am numb...
The waves start to roll slowly and gently over my body, touching my inner soul
My answer from the universe....
If anything is to change, it has to start with me

Our time on this earth is too short
To let vanity steal our
Peace
Happiness
Love
Embrace yourself and enjoy today
That’s all we have
Don’t let the mirror take it away

The human touch is a powerful thing
It can wake the dead
It can make the birds sing
When you took me in your arms, and danced with me
I felt your powerful spell
I didn't want to be set free
Then the song ended
I didn't want to let go
But you walked away
How did  you not know?

I woke up this morning with a smile and some hope
Until you showed up, all hopped up on dope
You said you would never do it again
But here you are, messed up before 10
You make me sad
You make me cry
But I stay with you, I ask myself why
I can't help you
Dear Lord I've tried,
It kills me to see you, full of promises, no pride
I closed the door, told you to go away
I'm not giving up my hope, not again today
*Goodbye darling ...

The wind blew gently through my window, soft and cool on a hot summer day... a few raindrops fell against the ground, enough to make the air steamy...

I slid into my white satin and lace nightgown and crawled under my red satin sheets, ready for a good nights rest...

I heard footsteps coming toward the bedroom door... The door was not locked, but I did not feel fear or anxiety... I felt a warm calm come over me, a peaceful feeling I can not explain...

Above me stood a beautiful man... dressed in a white tux, carrying a dozen red roses... I wasn't scared, but confused... where did he come from, who was he? He leaned over and kissed my cheek tenderly... he laid the roses down by my side and gently stroked my hair. He told me everything was going to be ok, that the time has come, I was ready to meet my soulmate... I wanted him, not some soulmate! He whispered in my ear to be patient and have faith, and more would be revealed... he then turned and walked out the door... I couldn't move, I was paralyzed...

I awoke to the sound of the alarm clock at 5am... had it only been a dream? was this man not real?

I pulled back the covers, still in wonder, then I saw the red rose petal...

I lie there smiling for a long time, holding the rose petal tight in my hands....

What inspires me to write?
I really don’t know
I wake in the morning
And away my pen goes
So many things
To get out of my head
I start writing
Before I get out of bed
Will I ever stop?
Maybe some day
Not anytime soon
I have too much to say

The tree was decorated
so shinny and full
lights sparkled brightly
it was quite beautiful
Pine scent aroma filled the air
no one seemed to have a care
It was Christmas night
The children were tucked in tight
milk and cookies by the fire
the radio played songs sung by a choir
everything was peaceful
in my tiny home
even the dog smiled, nibbling his bone

No one can save me
I'm too far gone
I don't want to venture out past my door
Sleep was my friend, but not anymore
I've chosen sleep over
Life
Love
Play
When did this happen
When was that day
I escape into another world
Where no one can hurt me
My problems are gone
Then I wake up
I dread the day
Everything's back that went away
Going through the motions
Until I can sleep again
Unconsciousness
Is my only friend

I want to kiss your lips so soft
I remember those nights, in your loft
I can still feel your touch, skin on skin
I can’t stop remembering when…
Our bodies would be tangled
Intertwined together
I can’t imagine
Anything better
I would do anything now
To have you back in my arms
Can I persuade you with my charm?
I want another chance, can we start over again?
I want much more, then to be your friend
*I love you

I sit here and wonder
What will it take
For me to get that special date
I’ve heard of others being treated like a queen
I have no idea what this means
When will someone see the beauty and love inside of me
I have a very big heart, can’t anyone see?
I sit here and wonder
Will you hold the key?

I cannot wait to crawl into bed
Fluff the pillows around my head
Pull the blankets way up high
Safe and warm, cozy and dry
Here I come, sweet dreams are mine
I see the sandman, he’s so divine