I sit and wonder
What am I doing in this life?
I only have one, am I not right?

I don’t want to waste time
With people and things that don’t make time for me
It’s time I stand up and set myself free

From the ******* of love
From the disappointments of life
I don’t want to have to use my knife

But rather go on
The lone wolf I suppose
Looking for that one pure rose

Is it you?

I felt bad today
Enough to almost throw my life away

In one split second the decision was made
To wait it out, just one more day

I wait for these feelings to go away
I forgot how to be happy, forgot how to play

Today I woke up
Happy with my choice
Glad I didn't listen to my inner voice

I thank the Lord i made it one more day
I know now I can do this,  I'll be ok

I dream of a place
Warm and peaceful
Ocean waves softly hitting the sand
While a warm breeze rolls softly over my body
Just enough to dry away the sweat from the sun’s rays
Which paint my body a golden brown

I open my eyes and I’m there
On a lounge chair watching the aqua-blue ocean
It’s soft, tranquil waves, hitting the pure white sand

What’s real, what’s not?
Am I sleeping or am I awake?
The lines of reality are blurred
Let me live the dream

I need to get far away
How far is far enough?
Another house
Another state
Another country
But how do I get away from me?
Out of my skin,
So a new life can begin
How do I get there
Only one way, I fear...

I need
I want
I have to have it
All lies…

I need to breathe
I need to eat
I need to sleep

Do I need love?
I want to love
I want to be loved
I want to fall in love

Do I have to have love?
Or do I want it so bad I’ll do anything for it
Is love worth the risk
Of that first deadly kiss?

I need to stop obsessing about love
If it’s meant to be, it’ll be sent from above

As I sit here feeling my heart bleed
I realize what I want isn’t always what I need

Is life only for the young?
Are they the only ones who get to have fun?

What about us over forty bunch?
Are we supposed be happy having jello for lunch?

I don't feel old
Yet the box I check does
What do I believe
Should I give up on love?

Who cares about the number
Apparently I do
Or I wouldn't be writing this
How old are you?