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 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Blessed
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
I like how by just seeing his face
It makes me smile
I love how he makes me forget
How insecure I am
His outpouring of love fills my heart
Healing me of the negativity
Making it easier to wake up every morning
He gives me life
He makes me shine
I wish to thank him in all ways
And do for him the same
© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
I Won't
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
When you ignore me
I'm stabbed with disappointment
And plagued with loneliness
Why do you do it
I don't get it
I thought this was love
I thought this was real
I guess to you, it's all a joke
I can't put myself through it again
I won't
© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
There's a girl in my head
I can't get her out
She's the only one
I've ever thought about

I want to know how she is
What she does in her spare time
I want to know how she talks
If her voice is anything like mine

I want to feel her lips
And wrap my arms around her
She's so worthy of love
I bet she tastes like sugar

The worst part of this all
Is that she is a stranger
I'll probably never know her
And that fills me up with anger

But mainly it tears me up
It really breaks my heart
Because I'm so passionate about her
And we'll always be apart
© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Tragic Love
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Sometimes, I really miss you
And missing you makes me feel like ****
Because you don't deserve to be missed
You guilt tripped me for so long
Over something I did
Over the same thing you were doing
But on a much larger scale
I can't deny that I developed strong feelings for you
Even though everything turned out to be a lie
But somewhere on the inside
Those feelings haven't managed to die
They're just buried very deep
They weigh me down and make me weak
I wish you would get over yourself
So we can come to terms with reality
And get to know each other again
We had a tragic love
And we both know deep down
That nothing can ever compare
I don't want to reach out
I have before and it filled me with more doubt
Even though it was just a sham
A scam to the purest of sorts
I wish I could go back
And relive it once more
Because I miss the feelings of passion and bliss
The feelings we shared for each other
I want your poison infiltrating my veins once more
© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Grief
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Having dealt with death first hand
I have witnessed the loss
I have witnessed the pain
The never ending grief of losing
A brother, a mother, a friend, a lover
You never see that person again
You never see their face
You never hear their voice
It's the one time where the word "never"
Is painfully the right answer
It is impossible to understand
How someone can be here one moment
And gone the next
Science can tell us
That the brain has died
Or the heart has stopped beating
But what can tell us
Where the mind went
Where the soul has gone
Where is our brother
Where did our mother go
Our friend disappeared
Our lover left our world
These questions press on us
For the entirety of our lives
It challenges our faith
It darkens our world
A little bit at a time
We'll never understand what happened
And that is why grief never truly ends
My best friend's cousin, who I've had the pleasure of meeting, died yesterday in such a tragic way. It's devastating to see people go through such a horrible time. He had a daughter. Rest In Peace, Joseph.

© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Dirt
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Graduating college
Such a large accomplishment
That's what they all say
He has a job lined up
She's had an internship
Full of experience
I, on the other hand,
Am just me
What do I have
Other than my brain
Other than my grades
Sure, I've lived life
But while everybody seems to have a plan
And seems to be moving in the right direction
I keep moving further into the ground
Isolated and lost
Unable to move
Trapped under the dirt that is
My mind, my insecurities, my confusion
Received my graduation invitations today and it feels surreal. Scared for the future and the real world.

© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
I don't get it
One minute, you're full throttle
All over me
Wanting every piece of my body
Telling me to give it all to you
And then the next minute
You're distant
Not wanting to be close and intimate
Like we were before
That screws with my confidence
And worsens my insecurities
It's like a switch went off in your brain
It's hard to deal with these inconsistencies
Makes me hesitant
To give a piece of me
To you or to anybody
© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Seduction
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Perform for me
But more intimately
I want to see a special show
For my eyes only
No one ever has to know
You'll be my ***** little secret
It won't be hard to keep
Because once I get a small peek
I'll only want you for me
That private show is all I'll see
Showing off your skills
And your body
It'll be a sweet kind of torture
And after you perform for me
I'll perform on you
Your pleasure is the encore
Leaving each other wanting more
Until next time
When you ****** me with your talent
Yet again
2 a.m. ramblings.

© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Time's Up
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
I gave you the option
To be real with me
I'm all for second chances
Another opportunity
But you chose to ignore
What was right and what was wrong
So your time with me is up
The charade went on too long
You have no one left in your circle
You feel alone and bitter
You lied to all of us
You let the love simply wither
I'd like to say you could come back
Re-enter my heart
And regain my trust
But you turned me down the first time
So letting you go is a must
I deserve someone better
Someone who decides I'm worth the truth
Sincerity doesn't exist within you
Of that there's plenty of proof
© Naomi 2014
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
Toxicity
 Apr 2014 Satsuki
Emily
You used to be my best friend
I could never get enough
I used to want more from you
I loved you so much

I wanted to belong to you
I wanted you to belong to me
But ever since we tried that
I can't even think clearly

My life is such a mess
I've never felt more alone
You make me feel so sad
And like I have no one

The pain seeps from my pores
The tears escape from my eyes
In the night, I have nightmares
In which our love always dies

This does more harm than good
I don't know what to do
I really don't want to lose you
But my heart is literally torn in two

You are not my lover
You are no longer my best friend
I don't want to believe it
But this is most likely the end

I've never felt such anguish
I've never sensed so much discomfort
I will never win this war
Despite all of my efforts

I don't want to say goodbye
But it is inevitable now
I want to be free from this toxicity
I've given all my heart will allow
Something from the heart. Something I wrote in the moment. My heart is breaking.

© Naomi 2014
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