Satsuki

Satsuki Mar 2014

Rant

You complain about Jared Leto's speech because he didn't "thank a trans person" and instead delivered a timed and beautiful and empowering speech for his mother and for anyone else out there who was listening. It was an all inclusive speech and made many cry. Yet you complain because he didn't mention a trans individual. And I wonder, what all of you that are complaining have done for the trans community? Because if you truly want to help them, you should know that Jared Leto saying 'Hey Thanks' won't make their lives any easier. Instead of complaining about the things that aren't happening, get out there and do them. Make a difference in their lives. And then you can complain about **** that doesn't matter.

So tired of constant negativity

Satsuki Mar 2014

An Ode to John Travolta

Oh Joan Travoolty
What a swell name you have
Would be a shame if someone were to
Mispronounce it.

Sincerely, Adel Dazim. If you didn't watch the oscars you won't understand this.
Also this isn't serious, it's just meant for a laugh.

Satsuki Mar 2014

time

Can I stop the clock?
This is all happening too fast.
So much doubt
I'm not ready
Maybe I'll never be
Give me a few more years
I still remember becoming a teen
Adulthood seemed like forever away
But now it's hanging over my head
Like a menacing black cloud
Threatening to pour down on me any second
I've never been so scared
Of not having enough time
Why did I rush this?
Why was I such a fool?
Carelessly wishing my life away
One short year at a time
Now I've played all my cards
And I've nowhere left to hide
The time is upon me
I can feel it inside
My terrified heart
That beats in tandem
With the ticking of the clock
An internal reminder
Of impending disaster

Satsuki Mar 2014

To broadway

Broadway, my darling
She welcomes me in
Hugs me close
Like a long lost friend
Tells me that
I belong here
I'll be strong here
Never an outcast
When you're part of
Her cast
Sing your life away
In a beautiful play
And you can always come home
To broadway.

Satsuki Mar 2014

One month left

One month left
Of being a child
One month left
Until you tell me no more time to play
One month left
No longer the dancing queen
One month left
Thrown out into the world
One month left
And I'm not just a little girl
One month left
I really should be happy
One month left
I dread the end
One month left
Maybe everyone will forget that
One month left
Is all I have
One month left
And I can go on pretending
Until I have
One month left
Again

Satsuki Feb 2014

Fin

I can't fake a smile anymore. 18 years and I'm just too tired. I can't keep ruining things with the way I am. I really tried. For a long time, I did. But it's too much now, so I'm letting go. Letting it all go. Because it's too much weight to bear anymore.

Satsuki Feb 2014

Painful love

Why am I sitting here drowning in my loneliness?
I miss you so much and it hurts to confess
That you've mutilated my heart without even a second glance
I'm weak and I can't bare to take a stance
I love you and even the pain you bring
Because although it's unbearable, at least I feel something
I fell for the strange colors that reside in your eyes
I had no clue that they held so many exquisite lies
And as I recall the gentle feeling of you kissing my forehead
I can't escape the intolerable ripping of my heartstrings being torn to shreds
And although you drain me of all happiness I ever owned
I still stay up til four in the morning checking my telephone
Because you can smash me to pieces and tear me in two
But with all of my broken parts, I still manage to love you