Although I've long given up on you
I still feel that surge of pain
When people ask me if you're still around
And I have to answer again and again
That I haven't heard from you
For quite a while
And my heart still breaks a little
When I think of your smile
And no one ever notices
How painfully and longingly I sigh
When I think of the fact
That you never said even said goodbye

I have grown so accustomed to being alone
I crave the solitary nature
But I wouldnt mind spending alone time with you
And planning out our future
Because you're not just another human
So carelessly wasting my time
You're a part of me
And I'd love to call you mine.

In the summer I fell in love
With a little city I found
My heart flutters every time I think of
That city full of sound
And maybe it was the voodoo
That made me so very keen
To keep coming back to that bayou
Down in New Orleans

Sure I adore you. I always have. You're handsome and sweet. And always seemed to understand me. But I've never liked the way girls throw themselves at you. Or the way you always got what you wanted. But you liked that about me. The way I never gave you what you asked for. And that I never threw myself at you. You told me it was endearing. And that you respected me. And I respected you too. And I was honest with you. I told you I enjoyed the company of other girls more than I enjoyed the company of men. And you told me that didn't matter and that you liked me all the same. I told you I got scared and that I didn't know if I could go on. And you told me you cared for me and that I could tell you anything. So I told you the offer extends both ways. And then you graduated and I moved away and even though I don't see you anymore I still think of you sometimes. The boy who made me smile in a dark time. The boy I actually truly loved. Not necessarily in a romantic way. But in a way that I knew that you were meant to be in my life for a while. And I'm happy you were.

I'm not always sure what I want
Or who for that matter
But I do know I need kisses that haunt
And linger on my skin
I want your teeth to graze my hips
I crave breathless I love you's
And soft warm lips
Getting lost in a sea of blankets
I want jealous angels from above
Because when they see us
They envy our endless love

I buy myself nice things
And go nice places
All to fill this gaping hole in my heart
I continually try and fill it up
With little things
Empty promises
Beautiful lies
Yet the hole only grows bigger
And consumes what I try to fill it with
Like a ravenous animal
And I end up empty hearted
Like usual.