Satsuki

Satsuki Feb 2014

You are

You are the paint that won't wash off my fingers
You are the smell of coffee as it brews at 7 am
You are the ink of the words in my poetry
You are the pages of an old book in a library
You are the winter wind against my cheeks
You are the tune of the keys on a grand piano
You are everything around me.

Satsuki Feb 2014

Cold

The breath in my lungs
Is labored and uneven
It's easy, they say
Breathe out - breathe in
Cold thin air
Pierces like knives
Painfully descending into my chest
While I pathetically fight to stay alive
It hurts too much
I'm giving up on this
I'll let the cold swallow me up
As I wait for death's kiss

Satsuki Feb 2014

Lonely

Lonely
L for leaves that fell too early
O for orange colors speckled in with green
N for new buds forming on rose bushes
E for ever changing scenery
L for lazy Sundays spent in the meadow
Y for young flowers sprouting
Lonely me.
In a lonely world.

Satsuki Feb 2014

Love for Roxanne

Don't put on your red light
Baby there's no need tonight
Your love's for sale
So you feel like you can't fail
But honey this isn't what you need
Don't make me beg, don't make me plead
You're an angel among monsters
Your nights run together in a blur
Don't do this to yourself anymore
Just walk away and close that door

Inspired by Love for Sale and Roxanne.

Satsuki Feb 2014

Restrictions

You're telling me to leave
With your hand around my wrist
I can't go with you holding me back
No matter how much you insist
Be free you whisper
As some form a cruel joke
You smirk as you watch me struggle
You know it's all a hoax
I try and I try
With all my might
But you're sitting on my wings
And I can't take flight
These restrictions you put on me
Make me feel like a caged bird
But unlike the pheasant
I have no sweet song to be heard
So why do you keep me here
When I have nothing to give
Is it really just because
You don't want to see me live?

Satsuki Feb 2014

Tired

Im tired, I mumble
When you ask me how I feel
You always say that, you grumble
But that's all I ever feel
I'm tired of being sad
I'm tired of getting no sleep
I'm tired of feeling bad
I'm tired of counting sheep
I'm tired of hating myself
I'm tired of hurting all the time
I'm tired of putting my emotions on the shelf
I'm tired of losing my mind
I'm tired of being tired
So that's my standard thing to say
Because I'm just tired
Every single day.

Satsuki Feb 2014

Confusion

Hey, I wish you were around.
I don't know who to go to anymore.
I'm crumbling to the ground.
I'm so insecure.
I can't see my own hand in front of my face.
My world is pitch black.
I'm trapped in my own solitary space.
Chained down on my back.
I'm restricted and unsure.
I can't get away.
There's no light to find the door.
Looks like I'm here to stay.
To waste my youth.
In a dark depressing state.
Scarred and uncouth.
Pain for which you can't compensate.
I feel myself wanting to break free.
With such force that my bones break.
The power trying to release me.
Look away, for your own sake.
I don't want you to see me like this.
Maybe I'm better off suffering behind closed doors.
Perhaps ignorance is bliss.
It'd be better for you not to see me here on the floor
Possible that it's good I'm alone.
So no one has to watch me.
Breaking my own bones.
I'll just struggle and suffer in my own company.