And then
out of nowhere
you said
Hello!

Everything I know
About being real
About being true
I learned from
You

I knew you were okay
when you picked up
the worst bits of me
put them in your pocket
and never
gave them back to  me

You never asked me
to dance
I just wanted
to dance
from the moment
I met you

You know I love you
probably always will
but just not
today
Is that okay?

Your heart
my friend
is the purest thing
in my lifetime
I will ever see

You are without doubt
The best person
I could never
live without

Here’s the thing
the missing
never leaves
we just learn
that love
is just as real
from afar.

I am still here
in the same ‘ol place I have
always been
know it doesn’t quite
look the same
but I am still here
same as it as always been

I miss
every
little
tiny
annoying
thing
about
seeing
you
every
day

She is gone
again
just as quickly has she
arrived
like a wisp of smoke
again
like a sunrise missed
again
like a moment lost
again
like an opportunity
known again
like love
found again

Little tiny  pieces of yourself
petered out
at will
supposed to be enough
for me
you know
they never will

It’s a fine thread
Between
Your heart and mine
silken and fine
like rich red wine
don’t break the line
and nor
will I
trust in me
and we will be fine

and just when there was
nothing left to say
you spoke

Are we just
two people
who have given up
on each other ?

tears are just water
and we all need water
to live.

Who in the world
gets to sit and watch
the sun go down
in their own back yard
light glistening on the sea
and their love go down
with every move
of the money market
just me
I guess

You are all grown now
I can see
You know a million more things than me
Give me a minute
to say goodbye
you will always be
two feet taller than me

I don’t know where
I’m going
but I know
I can’t leave you
behind

When I was tiny
my father said
you have words at will
use them wisely
he said
they hold enough
power to ****

I love
the little bits of life
that present themselves
to me
unexpectedly
in a carpark
on a rainy
Tuesday night

Our land is rich in tears
cried from sorrow filled eyes
Our land is saturated in deep red blood
spilled for human lies
and battle cries
not worth the lies
Our land is sinking deeper
and deeper
into the abyss
Seduced and hypnotised
by the serpent’s gentle kiss

I was happy
deep in my heart
the first night I knew you
the knew of you
still
flows
effortlessly
all over me

and then
just as I dressed
in an unusual style
flicked my tongue
over my newly bought smile
looked in the mirror
thought
okay. this ain’t a trial
you called
like I always knew
you would.

I am knot  in love
but I am knot
not in love.

You do know
don’t you?
that all of this
means nothing
if we don’t both love it
if we are both not
in all honesty
true
you do know that
don’t you?

You know
I don’t know
and revel in the not knowing
because the pain of knowing
would mean growing
into someone
I believe is
not worth the knowing

I know
Know this
if you know nothing else
know this
I know
and I think
I probably
always did

Please forgive me if
I know longer  
know
the right thing to say

There is always an answer
Know this
If you know nothing else
There is always a road out
A light
A tunnel
Know this
There is always a song
A vague melody you can recall
Know this
There is always someone
watching
Know this
If you know nothing else
There is always
a way out
But not for long.

Grab my wrist
I will not resist
pull me up
so I still exist
grab my soul
from this stagnant land

Difficult
doesn’t even go anywhere near
where we find ourselves
tonight
gasping for breath
nothing clear
except which one of us
orders the next
beer

Here are
my broken thoughts
and overthinking mind
late at night
desperately trying
to make a sentence
that makes sense
to myself
and maybe
someone
else
help me
if you can !

It’s late
and we.both know
the stakes are high
the loser
cries.

oh my god,
you are so self assured
even at this late hour
let me say something
even at this late hour
I know
nothing
I have learnt
nothing
even at this late hour
I still
know nothing but
oh my god
you are so self assured
how do you do that
even
at this late hour.

It’s impossible to love everyone
believe me
I have tried
and failed
so now
I just love the ones
who make me laugh
and those
who no longer know how
to laugh

Lay your feelings down on me
God knows
I have laid mine heavily
upon you

Leave all of your love
strewn. carelessly
across the floor
anything less
you know
I would abhor

Leave it
you said
without realising
I had already left.

leave now
I know you need to
but I can’t go with you
although every part of me
wants to.

I have said the words now
I have said the words
and I have watched them bleed
out loud
I have said the words now
I have said the words
and I have watched you leave
out loud

I am leaving now
my love
and I will leave my heart with you
safekeeping
for better days
no longer can I stay.

My suitcase is packed
my belongings are safe
just need to zip myself in there
and make my escape

I fled
It’s true
the ground beneath me
was giving way
I couldn’t find a ledge
to help me stay

Come on ‘ he said
Christ’ I thought
if only…………..
sadly
I have no ‘come on’s ‘
left

when it was
one thirty three
you said
you loved me
by three thirty three
you had already left me

I know you want
a conversation
not sure what there is left to say
I left
I walked away
not sure what there is left to say

I cannot reach out
There is no reach left
I cannot cry out
There is no cry left
I cannot crawl away
There is no crawl left
I cannot win now
There is no win left

I loved you
way before I met you
I still love you
way after you
walked away and
left me