You are
too close
to my heart
Back the
back off!

Early May
and the winds are still howling
been freezing us since October
could one of us
be the strength beneath it’s wing?

I watch my girl
claw herself upward
slowly and painfully
on the greased pole
of her dreams
while others
take the stairs.

Most of you
is gone from me now
snippets remain
your smile
your brown eyes
the way you saw the world
your indifference
your belief in me
your difference
to me
your belief in strange
I was not brave enough
even though we both
wished me so.

I don’t want to talk about us now
can’t you see the storm clouds
gathering to the west?

I used to wake up
slightly alive
now I wake up
go straight
to your cot
and silence both our cries

It’s just another morning
that looks a lot
like yesterday.

Yep,
I ****** up
I lost my head
you can either
blame me
hate me or
forgive me
leave me
or still love me
instead.

my heart has not yet missed a beat
if it ever were to
it would only be
because you three
were out of arms reach
to me

I am
a very expensive example
of who
not to fall in love with
you’re welcome!

we all long to write a poem
full of wisdom and wit
Shakespeare did
full of words
just like this
love and betrayal
men and entrails
lips
ruby red
lust, rarely led
passion
emotion
hurt
rarely fed
by emotions
barely said

I am slow
to the table of love
I am always
a beat behind
beautiful
but less inclined.

I do not know
how to give myself
although I know I should
so let me give you this girl
who knows
just give her a whirl!

if it all fell apart tomorrow
and why wouldn’t it
I would still applaud  the
fact
that we tried

I paint words
until the colours
make no sense
You paint pictures
that make the world
make sense .

you silence me
which is. more
than anyone
has ever done before

I look in the mirror
and I see you.

After all these years
I honestly couldn’t bear
to celebrate
my wedding anniversary
with anybody else
but you!

My elation
and pure joy
of giving birth to you
is an exact match
of having a grown up
real time
beautiful
now time
conversation with you

You dropped our love today
I think when you left early
for work
I saw it as I left with the kids
tossed to the side
I think the postman caught it
in his heel

the  garnish glittery
golden bits of me
faded effortlessly into
the subtle serious
silver bits of you
smelted for a bit
and became
slowly solid
indestructible undefinably
bronze.

The words that fall from my mouth
should only be for me
yet they rain upon your head
like an untuned symphony
and somehow
you turn my words
into a tune

Would you be kind enough
to direct me,
to the nearest exit
I am leaving .

Your love
makes a fool
out of my love
your love
walks ten miles more
than my love
your love speaks sonnets
my love mumbles
your love screams
my love whispers
your love
fills the room
my love
locked in a tomb

Here’s the truth
I’ve switched the truth
to make you look bad
it’s a small twitch
but enough
to help me sleep well
and happy.
Night all!

Let your love
carelessly
flow over me
let your words
make no difference to me
let your smile
make a fool out of me
let someone else
anyone but you
let someone else
anyone but you
let someone else
dear God
let someone else
take me home
tonight

Your eyes suggest
a place we shouldn’t go
your winning streak
ended
at my feet.

I used to be
your favourite drunk
What happened?

Let me just settle
your presence
upon my skin
let me just understand
this is a begin.

You said
leave me where you found me
and in the leaving
you will find
a better you.

nothing creates
nothing
yet somehow
I found you

I love you almost
and I know you almost love me too
how many more years
do we have  to make it through
to make us
almost true.

I wish I meant less
to you
it would silence
the slamming of the door.

Love was never meant
to be easy
I can’t remember who
told me that
and I am not yet sure
they got it quite
right

not sure when it happened
maybe last week
Tuesday or Wednesday
sometime midweek

Remember
the remember
and I promise
I will do my best
to remember it too

When did we become a
love song
that no one sings
anymore

let our love fly
let the gentle breeze
ruffle
feathers I didn’t know I had
until I saw you

I don’t know what  it feels like
to be half as cool as you
Manhattan is busy
and so are you
I don’t know what it feels like
to be half
as busy
and important
as you

I heard what they said
I guess you heard it too
**** ‘em I thought
most of it is true
on the other hand
if only they knew!

Let us leave our love here
where it began
where it was pure
where we were sure
that we knew better
let us leave our love here
where it is safe
and untainted
from the people
we have both
become,

I like your smile
you like mine
so far
it’s all sublime
don’t introduce your real self
in case
I have to find mine

I am screaming at the the sky
but I still love
the dark blue inky ness
of its call

Don’t play games
with my heart
I am really not strong
it will break me apart

Your love hit me
like a bullet in the dark
it came from nowhere
but it’s surely left its mark

I wake
to a noisy Manhattan morning
while my children wake
to a boring boarding school
yawning
on the other side of this morning
on the other side of the world
every bit of mother in me
knows I should save them
be on the next flight from Newark
I could make it before nightfall
I could scoop them up
I could save their souls.

You want me to understand that
you have wasted your life
believing
what your mother said
she believed what she said
she had no choice
but she never wanted you
to believe it too.