I will not drop our love
I may not love our love
tonight
or want our love
tonight
or seek our love
tonight
or need our love
tonight
or know our love
tonight
or like our love
tonight
but still
I will not drop our love

And then
after a hundred years of exception
I opened my eyes
and there was
nothing
there

After this long time
we’ve seen it all
round of applause
for us
just can’t help thinking
shame
we didn’t see it the same way

How come I go to sleep with you
yet wake up
alone

Do not ask
for answers buried deep within
my heart
they have laid  there
for so long
unattended
and forgone

I see your love
It stands starkly before me
I can’t reach your love
It hides hidden behind me.

When you left
you were right

I fled
It’s true
the ground beneath me
was giving way
I couldn’t find a ledge
to help me stay

Love the outside
of those you meet
it is the only route
to the inside
and a love complete

Happy now?
you ask
yeah, a little bit
at last
no regrets
about two million and twenty three
still, even so
it’s been a blast

There are more than
a thousand ways to
make life good
and all of them
include you

When everyone said
dust yourself down
get up
wake up
don’t wear a frown
you said
take my hand
lay down
tomorrow
you’ll own this town

When the party
is almost done
and the songs
are almost sung
and we are having
almost fun
that’s the time
I almost
run.

maybe
let me not be the last ember
in your fire
I still have a flicker
within
that could ignite
to a higher power

I cannot love myself
after loving you

I have no strength
to wage war upon you
anymore
white flag
It’s me
I surrender

What do people do
when they don’t have
you?

Don’t fret
go to sleep
I will write
all our wrongs.

The sun sinks
and I do my best not to sink with it
at least it’s done it’s job
lit the world for another day
I have just sat here
and complained all day

In a world of over stated words
over exposed sentiments
written in too many paragraphs
for people who honestly don’t care
I lost interest when
God, I can’t even remember
when
that’s how quickly
I lost
interest

You
were
born
to save

Goodbye
is a hug
I don’t want
to give

I
wish
I
was
a
little
bit
more
like
you

This is not enough
I am lost
furious
incomplete
I am bored
with myself
and you
and this house
and this life
I am off
Yes
I am off
watch me go
watch me
and  know this
if you know nothing
else
I am going
nowhere
absolutely nowhere
without you!

I got home
still full of your smile
its been a while
that’s true
but now at least
I know
we can walk
another
mile
together

You are
the constant
I struggle
to be

When my world
is too desperately dark
I do what you said
I go to sleep
wake up early
and call you

Is it just me or
are we almost
on the brink of
honesty?

I am patient
I am kind
but please know
I am two  minutes away
from not giving a **** .

Driving
three bundles of love
to nowhere specific
but loving
the journey

You are the woman
I always wanted
to be

When autumn reigned
and blew golden bronze tumble leaves
right to my door
it reminded me
of how you loved
golden bronze tumble leaves
at the door
Do you
still?

Tears
are just water
and we all need
water
to live

I was asleep
and then you shook me
awoken me
into life

You are the love
I never knew
I had inside my heart
until
I met you

when you left
you left no trace
as if
you were never here
at all

You grew up
in a haze of yellow sun
champagne glasses
and endless fun
and then you
painfully
excruciatingly
became
You,

And then
out of nowhere
you said
Hello!

Leave your words here
scattered across the floor
its late
you’re tired
I will pick them up tomorrow
look at them
in the cold light of day
discard and throw away
the ones that might make you stay.

It’s late
and we.both know
the stakes are high
the loser
cries.

I waited until then
like you asked
floundering
haplessly
hopefully
half assed
before realising
there is no point
waiting
hopeful
wholesome
holy.

Why am I laughing ?
because I still can.

Imagine my surprise
after all the glamour
and the flowers

love
and then a little bit more
love
and then a whole lot more
love
otherwise
what’s the point?

The children are all
gone now
just me and you
left
to haunt these halls

Remember you said
you would rather be dead
than to live a life
without cause
God, how honourable then
I clung to your every word
like a long lost chalice
All I ever wanted to be was
the perfect daughter
perfect friend
perfect person
but you left
without telling me
how.

Smile
and let’s pretend
that it’s all been
worth while.

They sat and warmed
their hands
on the dying embers
of a marriage
that once burned
out of control
huge orange flames
of laughter
that touched the sky
and touched
their souls.

I know
everyday
you watch over me
and my ridiculous
struggle
to simply just
Be.