love me
if you will but
that includes all the
jagged cutting  edges
of me
not easy
I know but
they have been a part of me
for so long now
I don’t know how
to be me
without them.

I ask you to hear me
you say you do
and I believe you try
but you listen
with light ears
so the weight of my words
don’t keep you awake
all night.

You said our love
would
make a difference
I believed
but when
does that
kick in?

this
I know
is way more
important
than me.

I can’t apologise
for being me
but I can feel sorry
that you ever
ever ‘ ever fell in love
with me
I can do that
for you.

let love go
and I will too
let go of me
and
I promise
I can also
let go of you.

there are things you were counting on,
out there, weren't there,
things you thought that you knew,
things that were not there,
are not there, never were there,
things that just would not do,
so you turn up the volume,
invent you some things,
things that you'd like to be true
and you conjure, and pause,
and give cause to the clause
that says anything goes; it is true