we are both
far  enough away
and clever enough
to know
it will take
the two of us
a monumental climb
a torrential will
and a beat
to see
what we’re leaving
behind
see the light
mull it over
chew the cud
decide
if we ever want
to
be
home again.

I have so much time
for those who are not
afraid
they live out loud
while I whisper my truth
from somewhere behind the
cloud.

he bought me
diamond rings
champagne
and other things
paid off my mortgage
it was quite an engage
for a moment
for a beat
I was there
until he said
you are amazing
what’s your name?

sometimes
I get lost
inside
the deepest deep
deep parts  of me
and I have to say
it’s not the worst place
to be!

every word
in this conversation
has been said before
they fall exhaustingly
at the door
verbs
dying of boredom
on the floor
vowels
wishing  they were dead
sentences
refusing to finish
pronouns
dying at our sound
adjectives
don't even show up
every word
in this conversation
my love
has all been said
before.

I seek beauty
this I know is true
I seek truth
I seek joy
I seek cigarettes
I seek yesterday
this I know is true
I seek me
I seek free
I seek we
but
I will never
ever again
seek you
this I know is true .

I’ve searched this house
ten times or more
every cupboard
every  door
I just can’t find us
anywhere.