if by chance
I never make another friend
for the rest of my life
I think I’m okay  with that
I think maybe
you are enough friend
for the best of my life.

there must be something terribly
wrong with me
the song said
I agreed
and
promptly went to bed.

Perhaps
my soul
is too old
to be sold?

You are
too close
to my heart
Back the
back off!

Early May
and the winds are still howling
been freezing us since October
could one of us
be the strength beneath it’s wing?

I watch my girl
claw herself upward
slowly and painfully
on the greased pole
of her dreams
while others
take the stairs.

Most of you
is gone from me now
snippets remain
your smile
your brown eyes
the way you saw the world
your indifference
your belief in me
your difference
to me
your belief in strange
I was not brave enough
even though we both
wished me so.