I have worlds upon worlds of words to use on you


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may mga bagay sa mundo na dapat lang na gawin gamit ang iyong sariling dila

at

ikaw

at

ako

ay dalawa sa mga ito

tayo,

aking iniirog.

the path was well trodden
winding and wounding
through the hills and yonder

not easily made
with its share of problems and pain
scars and scabs

in the end one would see
the vineyard
and two

walking, talking
sitting, lounging
doing and accomplishing

absolutely nothing,
except what they wanted,
nothing.

and well earned
this boring was.

Swagger, swagger
walks in the man

oil
flair
pomp

Swagger, swagger
where is the man

with the long hair
and sad eyes?

who sang, staring
into your soul

Swagger, swagger
is all he is now

or maybe,
that is all he can muster.

The wet smell
that comes before the rain
permeates the air

slowly it comes
little at first
then all at once

some find comfort in this
huddling in their rooms,
in their blankets and sweaters

others also look forward to its end
waiting for the sun
for the rainbow after the rain

but no
this time it's just mud, cold
and frogs after rain.

Leave it all on the floor
your blood
your sweat
your tears

Leave it all
your hopes,
and dreams

bare your soul
in all its awful ****** glory

take everything
cheers
jeers

every cry of exhaustion
of pain
of fear
of disappointment

whatever they throw at you
take it
to be great is to risk weakness

retaliate
a thousand-fold
every movement
every effort
every waking moment

in stark defiance
of insurmountable odds
of a defeat that seems destined,
of odds against.

Regret is for tomorrow
and this moment

isn't.

blink

the stars
the surface of
far galaxies
the touch
of a lover
the sigh
of stolen moments
laughing
at imagined conversations

this

you

blink*

I'm sorry,
I saw the stars and of things I don't think I shall ever see or feel.

you were saying?

balked

at the

lanky
droopy

long-haired
fingers flitting and tapping about on a guitar

opened his mouth
closed his eyes

and there galloped forth

a song of god

gawk

empty wallet

empty pockets

empty chair in front of me

surrounded by love

and 12 pieces of hot wings

this must be

happiness?

contentment.

Lalalaloveyou

If I saw

Your smile

with someone

with something?

It matters not

All I want is that smile

of yours.

Cause you were never smiling

I never could,

you never could?



With me.



lalalaloveyou

forever and always

we all carry inside of us

our own personal abyss

where things

unspeakable, unimaginable,

-unbearable.

dwell

some go all their lives battling it

some live, never knowing its touch

but most terrifying is the one

who lives in it,

becomes it.

take care not to live life from within it

those who do

speak in tragedy

and act in atrocity

only ruin shall be their legacy.

these Christmas songs

that have you cheering
have you singing
have you remembering

Christmases

that were never really there.

It is the greatest folly
to reduce a person
to a single trait

to write them off
as boring, or plain
these people do not understand

that simple, does not equal shallow

in each and everyone of us
is a story
most vivid,
most sublime,
unique and beautiful.

yet common themes always emerge
shared human experiences
binding us almost intrinsically

yet, always inches away

passing each other by
never knowing the others glory

giants,

never meeting nor noticing each other.

We are each,

the greatest story of their generation,

never to be read in full.

precipice, precipice
on this we lie
risking one piece

the most important
you and I
this, the now, the moment

never will
the stakes be so high
or low- shrill

indignant, arrogant, honest
fear, love, pain-why?
all we know is that this is the best

that we can do

and so we go

adieu.

You'll never know
how much you're worth

you'll never know
until you promise

to throw yourself
body and soul
into every endeavor

you'll never know
who you inspire

you'll never know
how much you radiate

you'll never know
how many you touch

by just being.



you'll never know.

you'll do okay

you might not

eat at that five-star place you've always wanted to,
see the world,
be in space,

but
at the very least

you'll see the rain from the warmth of a blanket,
feel the breeze when the weather is just right

see the smiles of loved ones,

then, maybe

the true color,

of life.

I bleed
finally.

maybe now, peace?

or at least, silence.

Only my pictures ever understood.

will anyone ever care?

A shout
a scream
Splatter

dripping

Worry
steps
splashes & spurts
stick

stuck

A frantic look
a door
shutting

A shout
a scream

Splatter.

I look beyond and see
everything unknown to me

from atop this wall
I think of the fall

to where no man, should be
to the land of danger and mystery

I looked at my sword and shield
past to those ominous fields

I was nothing
just my fists and spirit I could bring

a man
a gnat, before the fan

of desire,
turned to fire.

and so I laughed, and there I go
forward past, all I know

why is the last light, that anyone ever sees their own?

because everyone else's is brighter.

for the burden that seems lighter

only to burn in one's own fire