What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

I
can't
     look
           into
                 your
                         eyes
                              when
                                     bearing
                                                my
                                                    soul
                                                           to
                                                              you
I CAN'T LOOK OUT YOU
I CAN'T SEE YOUR REACTION
I AM AFRAID
I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR REACTION
                                                                      TO
                                                                 MY
                                                            TRUE
                                                     COLORS
please
I
just
want
you
to still love me

When I have the inner thoughts
I don't know what to do
how
can
I
make
them
SHUT UP
I want them to STOP
stop the negativity
stop the pesstimistic
WHY CAN'T I STOP IT
I need help to combat it
that's why i ask for help
but i hate asking for complements
and i HATE asking "is this a real thing i should be concerned?"