I wonder what you'd think of me now
I'm not that child anymore
I don't help the underdog,
I don't go out of my way
I'm just here
And you're there
And you don't care anymore
You probably never really did
But you cared enough to tell me
The same as my father
It's funny how
One black hole spits you out
Only to venture into your black hole
And this one?
This one will be the death of me
And so will his.
But his is otherworldly,
A different kind
Because he can't even bring himself
To even look at me again,
Falls asleep with her
In his arms,
Like I never even existed,
Like I'm nothing.

She screamed his name,

But he wiped his lips

of my existence.

I could have cried,

I should have.

"Please, don't give up on me"

I wanted to beg.

She's everything you wanted,

But I'm everything

you'll never have.

He's a cat.
A black cat, to be exact.

And he has the hair for it,
The attitude too.

So elusive and persuasive.
But he doesn't really care.

He's nice to everyone
but me.

I feed him with food
And all the attention in the world

Give me it back.
Give me your time.

I want to touch him,
but we've never even pressed
skin together

I want to taste him.

He isn't even attractive.
He's just..him.

But I want to know if
His breath tastes bad
and if his lips are soft

I want to know how soft
He is.




A black cat that rubs your leg,
But bites you with every pet.

It's easy to love a straight guy
You have no expectation,
Though you want them.
A lack of ******
Keeps you in the clear.

But I want him.
And I'm everything he doesn't want.

The way he's soft,
His ugly hair
And poor sense of style.
And his awkward demeanor,
Walking on his toes

The way he speaks softly
With a grand taste,
Like Mt. Dew.

I want him,
But I'm an off-brand of Diet Mt. Dew.