I don't walk that road anymore
I don't drive that gravel anymore
You probably don't remember my eyes,
They shined bluer that night
then ever before
I still don't dance,
And I really only like holding hands

But I hope you're happy
I hope you still dance
I hope they ease the pains
that I couldn't erase
I hope she's everything
I could never be

I've been drowning
ever since I can remember
My eyes blend in
with the ocean floors water
So you'll never see how
I still die when I remember your name

Frozen at the bottom,
every so often I break free
Whenever I think of that day
Resurface to consume air
Only to inhale lungs full of water
And maybe one day
I'll let my self go,
Drift to your level

And maybe it'll be fields of flowers,
Maybe it will be rocks and flames,
Or maybe it will be empty
Like the feeling of you forgetting my name

Be thankful
because you wasn't his first time.

I was.

You're like a leg cramp
that just won't go away.

I can eat all the bananas,
drink all the mustard.
Rub it out,
walk it around.

Please,
just go away.

Moments,
That's what it's about.
A collective amount
of moments that you share,
or shared with.
Maybe never had.

I want it to be him so bad.

I would hate myself with reason
when I think of the moments
we could have had.

But I will never know.

What is it about them?
The ignorance that became bliss.
The way every one of them
makes me laugh and
equally is annoying
to my senses.

You were a drug,
He was the dream.

It shouldn't be so hard
to fall in love again.

The brightest day
in my darkest nights
will be when I learn
of your untimely demise

You were never better than me.

You were conniving and evil,
a snake.

But I gladly cut your head off.

It was never about you.
It will never be about you.

So you dragged my name through mud.

At least I will never depend
on a guy to sustain me
while you work in a
Off-brand electronic store
Inside Walmart.

Do us all a favor
and finish what you started
When Zach got the right idea
and left your ***
And never looked back.