Running out of fuel, yet
Trying to maintain
The person I was before
Pulled further now
Unaware of heavy weight
Gravity still present
Overwhelming me now
Unable to stand as tall
Or maybe at all
Seeming smaller, lesser now so
Where do I go from here ?
Who am I suppose to become ?

We all crave it sometimes Unknowingly
Wanting others to Relate
To us and the Ways
We function and React
In our minds Somehow
Rationalizing the traces of Insanity
We pretend don’t Exist
Because it’s easier than Dealing
With the thoughts that Consume
Our minds and Drive
Our decisions. . .
. . . Because if someone else Shows
Us that they simply Understand
Us then maybe we won’t Feel
So isolated Anymore.

I gazed at him
He had familiar eyes

Soothing

For it was as if
A simple glance
Could somehow keep me safe.

Concerned

For despite this comfort
I seemed to notice
A reflection of my past.

Was it

Seemingly disrupting
The new beauty
I’d just discovered?

Apprehension

For alI wanted was to see the future—
a light that could spark
A new beginning.

Relief again

For perhaps it is as if
He holds pieces of my whole world
Inside of his tiny pupils.

We forget
That life is like the ocean waves
Up and down
High and low
Gradual
Steep
Each one a bit different
Painting a new picture
Unpredictable
Chaotic
And constantly
Changing our perception of the view.
Seems terrifying, but
Without this dynamic surface
We would truthfully be
Staring at a lifeless sheet
Of infinite water
Moving along slowly
And
Simply
             ...existing.

Embrace change
Realize it is okay
to create boundaries between yourself
and the energy
that no longer supports
your purpose and
your growth.

And yet,
At the end of the day
I continue to find myself
Baring a bit more energy
Gently dancing
Across the carpet
Anticipating
Another chance

Tomorrow.

Unknowingly
We begin to fail
at appreciating so many moments
Despite the fact, that
they are happening all around us/

We become so focused
on everything that was
and the uncertainty of what’s to come
We invariably neglect the magic of our now/

We must try to remain present
Aware of each gift
Admiring them
while they reside in our world/

Because if we don’t
By tomorrow
We’ll only find ourselves
longing again/