Unknowingly
We begin to fail
at appreciating so many moments
Despite the fact, that
they are happening all around us/

We become so focused
on everything that was
and the uncertainty of what’s to come
We invariably neglect the magic of our now/

We must try to remain present
Aware of each gift
Admiring them
while they reside in our world/

Because if we don’t
By tomorrow
We’ll only find ourselves
longing again/

I get drunk
Makes me feel better
In the moment, then
Come down from the delusion
Realize
How pathetic
I’ve become
I miss you, but
what do I even miss anymore?
When I don’t
even know you
Stranger
Is all you are now
I tell myself, over
And over again
Doesn’t help
Can’t sleep, or
Conquer this pain.

I dreamt of you this morning
You were laying on my chest
My arm gently place on yours
With care,
You stroked the top of my hand
Until slowly
Our fingers interlocked
It was peaceful
I was home again
I can’t help but wonder whose chest you’re laying on now.

I think so often
We continue to reach for everything
That once was,
Unwilling to accept the reality
Of what is now,
Because we fear that something
Equally as fulfilling,
Couldn’t possibly come around again.

Are no longer about you.
I have found peace, in
Knowing I must move forward
Take my thoughts elsewhere
My heart elsewhere
Focus my energy on the countless other things
That too
Allow me to feel, and
Give me meaning
And so in this moment
I am allowing my thoughts
To run wild, and
Be free
I am free in this moment
Chasing what’s ahead
Though I may not know
What it is
I am after it.
Yet,
It is in this same moment
As as I sit here and share my thoughts
I realize
This is just another poem
Subconsciously about you.

I want to hold your face still
And get lost in your eyes
A sea of deep green
I would submerge my entire being
Drown
Just to feel you again.

I am seeking
A brand new heart
One a bit more sustaining.
For,
Alike my words
It seems as though, it’s
Only flowing smoothly
When I’m comprised
Of thoughts about you.