I don't know why I still feel the way that I do sometimes
I can restrict you from my mind, but I find myself still wanting to think of you
Or wanting you to think of me at least
I want closure, I know I say that word a lot but it's only because I don't have it
And I need it to help myself, so I can help others
To save myself so I don't have those bad thoughts or me or you
Of you dying and me having to spend my life feeling empty and alone
Maybe I'm just being selfish and only thinking of myself but it's not like I want to feel this way
Maybe I'm just over thinking it all, but I love you...
And I miss you...
I really wonder if you miss me too, I know you say you do but I hate that I don't believe it
My trying to change that
I'm trying to change a lot of things
About myself and this situation
I love you...
And I miss you...
Maybe I say it too much I just don't want you to feel alone
Maybe I care too much but is that bad?
Yea it probably is
Like I said I trying to change
But I still cry when you say how you want to die
And I don't want to be alone with myself cause this person in the mirror is not me and these voices are not mine, these excuses are not mine, this gun is not loaded and...
I'm just lying to myself
I didn't want that gun to jam but...
I just didn't want to be alone...
I love you...
And I miss you...
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