We once had a connection so strong,
It took my breath away.
And now you're another name that makes me cringe,
You turned out to be an ***,
Why am I not surprised.
You took everything i loved,
Shoved it into a box.
The **** line keeps getting longer,
Am a walking poster.
Hurt me, abuse me.
Wring me inside out.
Tear me apart bone by bone,
Burn me, consume me with flame.
I am tired of crying myself to sleep,
Curling myself into a ball.
It's driving me crazy,
Am so tired.
I need my pain to stop.

I know you want my blessing.
No ******* way!
Should i box up what I feel and smile?
Become bffs with your new girl?
I can't forget you that easily,
You who made sweet love to me.
You stole my heart the first time you smiled at me.
That sweet alluring smile that teased me to come out of my shell.
I was lost before you started to love me back.
You gave me everything and asked for twice that.
I can't walk away from us,
As easily as from a pet.
You were my life.
I want you gone,
I will not be happy for you.

He walked away from me,
Right there at the altar.
Had his eyes glued to someone else.
It broke my heart, broke my soul.
I was lost in time unknown.

She was pretty and petite,
Seemed to have it all.
Why did she need you too?
A mere trophy to show off.

Wish I could beg you to come back
Hold me one more time.
Somehow i still need you.
Even as i lie here broken.

You tell me I am not good enough
A little too round for your liking.
Can't you see my beauty in the curves that grace my body?
I am wonderful to look at and I flaunt it.
You won't see me skinny and bonny.

You say I am too emotional,
Always bickering about the little things.
Its the small things that grace our lives
With pleasure and pain.
Do you notice that I did my eyebrows for you?
So you can see my expressive eyes?
I carry the pain of the world
In my loving heart and sorrowful eyes.

Don't try to change me.
I am everything I need to be.
Proud and humble as a dove,
Perched at the peak of life.
I am who I was meant to be.
A gracious woman.

It's back again,
sleeplessness that makes me howl.
I shut my eyes in vain,
Dreams and quiet evade me.
I sit on the floor and whimper
as i remember my aloneness.

You left just yesterday,
With my heart at your feet.
Crushed it as you rushed off.
I was paralyzed by pain,
when you didn't spare me a backward glance.

It's that time of the night,
Where i reach out for your body.
There is nothing but empty space
Where you used to lie.
I call your number and you don't answer.
I text you begging you to come back.
My phone remains silent and I throw it against the wall.
Please come back.

You break my heart each day,
with a little silence and callous thoughts.
Do you think of me sometimes?
With a secret smile and warm heart.
Or do I sit by myself in solitude.
Wishing you will come tonight?

I lose my mind to you,
Moments i wish to have side by side with moments already shared.
I am helpless and alone.
Burning in agony of your absence.
I remain here lost,
Hoping you will be mine.
But it is a worthless thought,
someone that doesn't care for anything but himself won't love me
the way I need to be loved.
So I will lose my heart and happiness.
In loving you.

You took me in your arms,
Touched me so softly.
Sending a fever burning through my veins.
I wanted to look at your face,
But we had to keep up appearances for peering eyes.
My nerves tingled and hummed,
I ached to kiss you and touch you.
You teased me into submission,
And now am thinking of losing myself.