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32 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
These eyes have seen enough

You wait in a hall for your lunch
It's so so
The lights of Tokyo blind you
And your guts are cancer

Smoking in a balcony, I don't wanna slip,
The stars are history that we swear by
I used to be
A child full of
love
31 · Apr 2020
sunshine
Jay earnest Apr 2020
sunshine
The heart remains
The ghost cries in the dusk. don't hate what you refuse to believe in
31 · May 2020
Pancakes
Jay earnest May 2020
There was no toilet paper but there was sandpaper on discount and the newspaper was free
The hobo had on a mask while his hand outstretched for coins, I gave him a $5.
I liked his beard, and as I exited
I saw cars lining the street. They were going to big bear. The first pancake house was now open.
And It couldn't wait
31 · Jul 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Jul 2020
Rise up rise up
Rise up
to the dogs and choirs and to the
Audience that stares, sigh slightly and gratefully
You only ever had yourself,.  They came as parasites after
   and left  as the fire started to rage in the combing street below the hospital windows
31 · May 2020
haiku for nobody
Jay earnest May 2020
Do not tell me to watch my mouth,
if you're cold
then go grab a blanket
31 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
I'm sorry for giving you too much hope
maybe I was too eager to believe myself, because what is worth living for
if you have nothing to put your faith into?
we may as well be dead at that point,
and I'm not ready to die
yet
30 · May 2020
Imagine
Jay earnest May 2020
A giraffe dancing with heels while eating a watermelon and ******* a clown
That's the first time anyone has ever thought of that

Congratulations
30 · May 2020
Static
Jay earnest May 2020
This is why I'll never give a **** about people's opinions or trends because when I put my heart out I'm ignored but when I write about a ******* milkshake I get acknowledgement.
the dog rides around the park in its patrol car and
it's always the same. The radio goes bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzxxxxzzzzzzzzzzxxxzz and the sirens go   woo
biscuits for all the good bois
30 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
If you were so offended why didn't you just leave?
Why did you interrogate me then try to inject yourself into my life and spend weeks talking to me?
If im so toxic, why did you proceed to stay on your own volition and flirt with me and be ******?
I'm sorry I upset you, but I don't think it bothered you, but now we're both disturbed and there's no turning back this mess
Jay earnest May 2020
water turns into ice
then melts back into water
maybe it does this
because it gets bored with itself
29 · Sep 2022
Untitled
Jay earnest Sep 2022
Writing broken hearted poems like everyone else. It's part of the human condition and I feel no shame, I just wish I never had to write one. That's something other people write, I thought my love was impenetrable, it wasn't.
29 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
to the
programming 100s

house is the first place to look
, typing them in licking boxes with a mouse any day, in my opinion

Has always worked so far
side-stepped
usually laugh at these, but this made my day
stimulus are  wrong accounts:
17 bodies at a New Jersey nursing home

So what
29 · Apr 2020
sorrow
Jay earnest Apr 2020
I dont feel like writing another poem again
why am I even here, clacking
this *******
I should be
digging a pothole to throw garbage in and plant
weeds -- something productive


my stomach hurts,
and people are yelling at me for being honest and considerate of their overall well-being.
you can still talk to me,
maybe?
but I had to lift the curtain, sorry if it's not what you like.

a crumpled tissue sits on the dresser, and there's a transient singing a lil pump song,
I threw a brick at him and he ran into the bush.
days are too long for all of this
sorrow
29 · May 2020
wake up
Jay earnest May 2020
I just wish you would stop persisting with this relationship.
You know its doomed, there's no compatibility, we're going to fail etcetera etcetera. And I tell you this so as to save the trouble of endlessly getting burnt and disappointed and you blame me for it?
It's not my fault you refuse to wake up when I already have
29 · May 2020
October
Jay earnest May 2020
I remember ******* on her massive jugs and feeling her body's undulation as the fingers went deeper.
I licked up every last drop of her, and the blue light cascaded down on our bare bodies
After 2 hours I fell back into the recliner and made my self an
OJ
She was like a dream in heat, and I had no where to be. We both sat in silence in the cool heat and the seconds ticked by like melting ice in October
28 · May 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest May 2020
Turning off for now

windowless blue flake temples
I hope I'm not hated.
I hate myself enough
28 · May 2020
Phone poems
Jay earnest May 2020
Everything is slow and my thumb can only tap so fast
And everything gets capitalized, and this **** is bright and I'm blind
And j have a cramp in my leg and the female hisses as she squirts venom in Mason jars
So it is
Another phone poem, another wasted minute
Mars looks good tonight
28 · May 2020
sick
Jay earnest May 2020
What are you doing at this point ?  just standing over my body and poking me with a stick out of amusement?
you're very cruel and not as innocence as you claim, just cold and calculating, you'll be
a real heartbreaker one day, with bodies buried in a Mexican desert and it won't phase you.

sick
27 · May 2020
So it goes
Jay earnest May 2020
I'm glad you left because it showed me how easily you break
You'd never have my back if This was enough to drive you away
Good riddance,
And don't use me for material anymore
26 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
light in my eye,
the shadow in my
heart.

this crippled song,
this crippled love
26 · May 2020
their way
Jay earnest May 2020
I feel like a sociopath
I drink water and eat a grape with cheese.
Dust is in my heart, the crying girls will have their way,
Plucking out all my remains and leaving none for the sad mice
26 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
nothing to do,
    there's a black cloud  in  the bright sun--
crushing leaves as you trudge in
the noon mist

neighbor
is beating a rock with his clump of wood and it makes a
cacophony of bass-
lit, I wish I had the words to say-
just spilling out because there's nothing to keep it in. coming undone and its not
nice, nor that interesting
25 · May 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest May 2020
I remember the **** who who would give me a ******* everyday after middle school
24 · May 2020
Silly
Jay earnest May 2020
They even
Pick their own disorders on the premise that they'll look good.
Starving

I wish being a fat drunk paid off, but I'm no longer fat at least and I gave up drinking 2 years ago.
I still crave obliteration
and it shall crumble all cathedrals before me

Love is silly really
23 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
There's no worse feeling than getting blamed for what you didn't do,
It's like getting blamed for cheating in a dream.
I know you want to cut me so do it,
Here I'll get it started
Lol lol lol lol lollol
23 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
Black outside
With a heart that's caged
Faint talking swirling around the light fixture
I sip my tea and itch my neck
Pockets full of lint and lungs of ash
A swollen mind with too many thoughts
Pull the covers
And sleep for good. No more
surprises.    No more
pretending like the sun ever shone in.
22 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
there's an obligation  to type something out on a day like this -

and the stratosphere blooms
and the exhale   of the black matter   is like sad comfort
22 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
I'm just going to get drunk **** it
I love puking into a bowl
And whispering to my plant
Wheels of confusion
Black Sabbath, then black metal,
And then noise, and then silence
21 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Jay earnest Apr 2020
They make me write I sit down
I've evacuated these bowels countless times
You lean against a fence and leery eyes silently judge what the **** did I do
to
you?

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