Your family
Brother, sister
Mother, father
Niece, nephew
They're all you've got
In this world where
Everyone is out to get you
It seems, family,
It's all you can trust
You may hate them
As people, sometimes
You can't really help that
They may treat you badly
They might break you
From time to time
But they're all you've got
You know?
And whether you like it or not
They stay forever
And they love you
Not because they should
But because that's just
Something inside us all
We sorta have to
Love our family
No real choice in the matter
So trust them
Help them
Love them
It's not like
You have much of a choice
They're yours
For good

It's a weird and confusing thing isn't it?
We all want to be loved,
But the timing has to be right
We want to be in love
But we can't control it once it happens
We cherish the idea of emotions
But too emotional is unattractive
We have the technology for X-rays
But few people see through the exterior
We want attention
But when we get it, we freeze
We want people to care about us
But when they do, we get scared
We close ourselves off
We want people to fight for us,
But we rarely fight for people
It's a weird and confusing thing isn't it?

Falling infinitely
Well maybe not,
I know there's an end
Soon, and it won't be pretty
Back to the ground
Means it will be unexpected
The sky is moving further away
No life flashing before my eyes
Only love
My love
Everything i did wrong
Becomes evident now
With impending death
I think, were i not falling
I would tell her everything
I'm thinking now
Maybe i'd ask her to marry me
That's what i've wanted after all
She's the only one i could stand
Such a miserable life
But one bright spot
But were i not falling,
I wouldn't be thinking this
I'd just be making
The same mistakes again
Unappreciative
I hope she somehow knows
That i'm sorry
For all the pain i caused her
The only thing i want to see now
Is her face
And i can't remember
What it looks like
For whatever reason
All i can see is
The sky moving further away
Now distant
****
Wish i could see
That beautiful face
One more time
All i can see
Is darkness

My professor said
Write on the board
What you want most in life
I wrote the word "****"
Not because i'm a pervert
I just always wanted
To see that word
On a dry erase board
In big letters

Everyone
I push away everyone
Everyone i care about
Everyone i love
Everyone who can stand to hate me
Not on purpose
I've pushed away some of the greatest
The most amazing people
I don't know how
To keep it from happening
Again and again and again
And again and again and again
I'm in hell
Because when bad things happen
It's just life
When they are all your fault
And you have no idea how
Or why
Or what could have prevented them
It's hell

Worthless
A shame
A mistake
An accident
A name
*******
*******
*******
Lame
A burden
I am
And I won't change
I never should have been
I shouldn't ever be